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29 April, 2005

I'm actually home so early...feels almost weird...sighz....and it's all because I fell down last night in the toilet when I was going to brush my teeth....injured my big toe so bad....now it's all blue.... =( continued going to work today though, but because I was limping around everywhere, sighz, Gunther chased me off to go see the doctor.... He said my toe got hit very badly.....Gave me medicine to eat...... Then I went to the blood bank for my blood donation....sighz...guess today's really not my day... Needle went in, and I dunnoe why, maybe I moved, and yup, the needle changed position, and now I've a swell on my arm...hurts like crazy....feels so numb....think it'll get all black and blue tomorrow.....

Hmmm...going back to meeting after 4 weeks...feels so weird..wonder if i'll have to scold my kids today..... but anyway, this week has been really interesting...hehe.....saw how French Onion Soup and Consomme was made in the simpler way...man oh man...SHATEC sure made life tough for us.......to think it was all so easy...all we needed to do was to strain it with cotton wool......and all the oil would be gone! Sheesh....... *shakes head*.......oh well....anywayz....tried out a rather weird souffle this week...coconut and chocolate...it tastes real good despite the funny name though... Much on my own these days...Regina's always helping them with service, and I'm more or less doing the job on my own.....only problem is doing the kernel for the ice-cream....just can't get it right!! =)

Tmr's the last day I see Gunther! Can't wait...he's going to France....I'll finally be free of his aiming.......Thank goodness......He can be nice sometimes...it's just that when service starts, boy...I've to pray so so hard for God to give me patience.....hehehe....Got my pay today....so happy.....but got so many things to do with the money.....What to do? My first ever paycheck.......

Somehow I just love this week.......Sunday, I'm gonna be watching Lord of the Dance! I can't wait too!!!! So looking forward to it...I believe it'll be so good.....sighz...so sleepy already...got to bathe, then go down for meeting...come back and watch Survivor, then...have an early night...

42 more days till my darling goes in to NS.....=(


darling...wish i can spend more time with you........




24 April, 2005

it's 2 weeks since i first started work.....hmmm..time passes relatively fast....at work, i don'teven know what day it is......somehow feel like i'm totally detached from the world, with no outside contact until sunday comes.....quite sad really.......today i saw my parents for the first time in a week......my mum misses me like crazy.....it's quite scary really..i've no knowledge of what goes on at all....what to do? That's what I have to put up with working split shifts.....*shrugs*

This week, it's been absolutely unbearable to live with my chef....he's crazy...i'm definitely sure of that now...Try so hard to see the good in him, but...i'm sorry God, I really can't....He just keeps picking on me for every single thing I do, whether right or wrong.....it gets quite irritating sometimes......and it's not only me who gets it...EVERYONE in the kitchen suffers...man, when he wasn't around yesterday evening coz he was at the World Gourmet Summit Award Ceremony, everyone was so happy, and everything moved so smoothly....life's so much better without him....he was nominated for Rising Chef of the Year, and well, luckily, he didn't win..sorry i sound so evil...but he's really given me a lot of hell...but...i shan't say more....i'm happy though, coz Randy See, our chef sommelier won sommelier of the year, and Au Jardin won Best Restaurant of the Year.....that place so deserves to win.....perfect ambience and everything....will be joining them in 2 weeks time....wonder what life will be like then.......guess everything's gonna be different.........

Anyway, sighz....heard from my mum today that my cousin Bertrand, who had his left leg amputated in January due to a car accident in Mumbai, India, and who has been in General Hospital for about 3 months now, has had a worsening in his condition. His stomach is bloated now, and his intestines have stopped functioning.....he's so young....i think, if i were him, and were in this state, i'd really pray to be dead....not onyl is he suffering, his family is definitely feeling the burden already, whether financially, or mentally, or physically.....keep praying for them, coz that's the only thing i seem to be able to do since he still does not want any visitors.....hope things take a turn for the better.......

On a lighter note, am quite happy that a the Catholic Church has a new pope....really dunno how he's like.....and will only keep praying for him.....know he has a lot to step into, since his predecessor was so "wow".....there's surely a huge amount of expectations that everybody has for him.......Only hope God will continue to guide him to do His will.............

hmmmzzz..only 45 days till my darling goes in to the army.......feel so down....sighz......sundays off........sad how it's only 1 day for every 6 days........the time is moving too fast for me to do all that i wanna do.....miss so many people...but i've so little time to actually catch up with all of them...........and i still need my sleep, and my SIMS!!!! arghhh.......haven't played them for so long.....i think i'll go do all my stuffz now......it's gonna be one week more before i write again due to my lack of time.......and also 1 week more to Lord of the Dance!! I can't wait!!!!!!


darling.....i really really really miss you...wish i could just spend more time with you.....




17 April 2005

This is a delayed entry...sighz..really had no time to enter this earlier...but ya....my granny was in hospital coz she has some lung infection.....got water in her lungs...i've no idea if she's already discharged, haven't asked my parents for the update...but ya.....for the record, my granny is 100 and still going quite strong....besides the fact that she is a little hard of hearing and needs her glasses to see clearly, she's actually still quite healthy.....it's all thanks to my anutie's new maid that caused her to go to hospital...

That maid...man...she's the ultimate man......now i know why sometimes pple hit their maids.... if they're as ridiculous as she is, they so deserve it.....this woman..she's so cunning...she recognises the fact that my uncle is the "boss" and thus, she don't give my aunt no respect...she can't even do simple things like sweeping the floor and normal chores properly...but when my uncle comes home..suddenly she's so hardworking...such a B****H....but ya.....anyway, the thing is she actually "LOST" my granny's medicine for like 2 weeks.......then when she "FOUND" it, she "LOST" the other one....and my granny has to take these medication every day.....so you can imagine the damage done..sighz......and my poor auntie then had to run to go see my granny morning, noon, evening and night.....and in between having to fetch her grandchildren to and from school and extra activities.....in the week that I was there, she probably had a total of less than 8 hours of sleep...i wonder how she survived man....I really take my hat off to her..poor thing suffers so much....and my uncle don't even give a damn about the family...but oh well...it's their family affairs..who am I to interfere?

But on a lighter note....my young niece of 3 years old is SOOOO cute......she's so very intelligent...and she's really easy to look after...doesn't give u any trouble at all....ask her why you can't eat egg yolks, and she'll tell you it's got high cholesterol...i mean....are kids even supposed to know stuff like that??!!! She even knows what medicines she eats, i.e. antibiotics......and was so willing to sing a song for Robin over the phone when i called him....such a little darling.......she's so comfortable with me....let me bathe her, feed her her medicine (she had fever), feed her food, then rock her to sleep......miss her so much..wonder when I'll have the chance to see her again.....

During my trip, also went to clean up my grandad's grave.......this is like the first time i've ever done that in my life......so interesting...to see all the stuff they prepare and do for them.....my grandad passed away in 1952...when my dad was only 10 years old......all because my long-lost uncle then disliked the government, and decided to run away into the jungle....my grandad then suffered a stroke due to heartache...was bedridden for 3 years, and passed away after......sighz...quite sad....

That, in a nutshell, is my trip summary....actually have so much more to tell..but sighz......too tired to type....too sleepy.....now is actually my nap time in Les Amis........so..i oughta be sleeping..hahaha........my darling's gonna go into army in 53 days......sighz......don't want that day to come..but oh well....guess i'll just have to get used to it......he's ill at the moment.......got diarrhoea, and maybe a slight fever...hope he gets well.....he's resting now.......

darling darling....must take care okie? don't let me worry....i miss you....




17 April 2005

it's a week after i've started work....man....i'm SO tired...just realised that in my 5 days of work, i've actually done 12 hours of overtime!!! Can't actually believe that.....and the fact that i'm gonna be paid for my overtime means i'll actually be earning quite a lot....hahaha...... =)

This whole week was really a week of learning for me......it was quite stressful actually.....coz the girl I was attached to for the week fell ill......so she was not around for 1 day, and 2 evenings...which meant that i was indirectly working alone......kaoz......the worst was when it came to the souffles...didn't know the right consistency....i almost died doing it.....but....because i was alone, I actually learnt to be more independent..... so..in a way, i guess it was good for me.... dunnoe who i'll be attached to next week...so i'm actually quite worried..it's either i'll still be attached to Regina, or i'll be attached to Lawrence, the gardemanger....which can also be known as the cold kitchen chef....

it's quite interesting at Les Amis actually...the camaraderie between the staff is so wonderful, and there's no actual politics...but..the chef is really quite weird....he'll make his own funny jokes, and he's always so anxious during service...that even when it's 10 plus pple, he'll be rushing as if he's preparing a banquet....i find that really weird because it is, after all a fine dining restaurant... and thus, people would be paying for quality. Whilst the kitchen team shouldn't take their own sweet time to prepare the food, at the same time, we should do our best to ensure that the food that is served out is pleasing to all 5 senses of the customer....although the taste and the visual quality fo the food aren't too bad, but sometimes i feel it could be better if the chef wasn't rushing us to do everything so much faster.....it's funny...i almost feel like i'm working at MacDonald's!! I know that if i were a customer, and I was paying so much to eat in the restaurant, I would definitely wana spend as much time there as possible...and at the same time receive quality for whatever i'm paying for....but i guess that my chef just don't see it that way.....

hmmmm...if not for his somewhat unreasonable attitude and the long working hours here, which almost makes me feel detached from the entire world outside, I think I do actually like it here.....everyone's friendly, and you get REAL quality ingredients...and ya....the people are nice to work with....it's almost like a family.....which is something quite hard to find....overall though, I do think i've had quite a nice week....despite the fact that i am SOOOO tired..... =) and the fact that I have not much time with my family and my darling.....and how i don't even know what day it is anymore....hehehe....but ya....otherwise, I think everything's great....

hmmz....it's almost 1.30...i think i oughta sleep......will spend my time catching up on CSI tmr..hahaha...can't wait!! think i'll update abt my malaysia trip tmr!!!




12 April 2005

These few days have been really a great change for me..... came back from Malaysia..but cos I'm so so tired... and coz I have to go to work tomorrow, I think i'll leave that for another day....

Anyway, these few days at work have been really fun in a way..Met a lot of new people at work, and was attached to the Pastry side...found it quite weird at first...but as the minutes pass, I find I'm enjoying myself there...hehe..learning to make ice-cream, souffle, fondant, financiers, madelines and so on.....It's really really cool...but the time of working does take a bit of time to get used to......3 hours of break in between work is really quite weird, and i'm clocking about 12 hours a day?? Man..that so sucks... haha...but overall it's alright...

My chef is testing me on every single thing i've ever learnt...and that's so scary..i think i'd better read up more in my spare time...it's so much safer than being caught unknown..... but in here, i'm seeing SO MANY things i've never seen before.....the cooking style is great...coz they rely more on the food's natural juices than on the sauces or marination.........every single ingredient, or rather, almost all their ingredients are from France...can u believe that? Just imagine their food cost!!! Truffles, snow crab, white asparagus.....white turnip...black turnip....real young baby carrots, violet potatoes....sheesh....just the thought of it makes my mouth water.......

Besides the food, have finally learnt to turn vegetables....hhaha.....not really well yet, but am gonna try to improve further....here, the chef hates pple standing around...so....i've to find mroe jobs to do!!!! But at the moment, life's still great...i'm still taking in things a minute at a time.....trying to absorb all that i can........

Sighz.......my darling's gonna be enlisted on the 9th of June at 9.30 am...dunnoe if i can even take leave to send him off...i really hope so...gonna pray really really hard....i miss him already.....coz he's in a chalet at the moment....he'll only be back on thursday...sighz.....oh man.....anyway, i think i'd better go sleep now........in preparation for another day at work.......hope tomorrow will be just as new as it has been.......


darling...come back home soon...i really really miss u.....




7 April 2005

I'm gonna cook dinner in just a few minutes.....really dunnoe wat to cook...but there's so much food I've to finish cooking because we're gonna be away for 4 days...by then all perishables would have spoilt....sighz....such a last minute decision to go away...shouldn't have bought so much food.....I've enough until the end of the week! Oh well...

Spent quite a fair bit of money today...bought some eggless cakes and pastries for my granny...dunnoe why my mom bothers....she can't eat coz she's on a drip....yet, my parents insist....ah well....then i went to buy some stuff to bring on the bus to malaysia...didn't get much...don't feel well today....indulged myself in one of my favourite foods - takopaichi...hehe..so happy.....then... we went to Mos to eat...tried the yakiniku rice burger today...didn't think much of it though...i still prefer my teriyaki chicken and the fish burger....let my darling try the butterfly prawns..and he liked it..that's good.. =) the old lady who served us was so nice...if only we could tip her to show our appreciation for good service...shouldn't we be able to tip people? Maybe they would then be more obliged to offer good service to the customers in that way....I mean, it don't have to be necessary...like in the West, but then, we should be able to if we wanted........

My darling's suffering from a bad flu..sighz...so worried......scared he don't take care of himself whilst i'm not around...my dad has named him the official caretaker of the plants whilst we are gone..hahah.....the poor boy.....i hope he gets well by tonight, so i can leave with ease of mind......so gonna miss him......what's more i just found out that i'm only gonna be back on sunday night! Man...that so spoilt my day...I hope i'd be able to catch enough sleep before i officially start my attachment on sunday......

The game last night was great.......Liverpool won! hahah...fell asleep towards the end though...much as i enjoy it, i can't really stay awake watching..i've no idea why!!! Loved the CSI story on Channel 5 last night...i can't wait to find out what happens....gonna watch CSI again on AXN tonight......man..it's like CSI madness from monday to wednesday on AXN and Channel 5...but who cares? The storyline's so good, anything goes man......

Oh well...better go cook now.........sleep tight my darling......I'm missing you....




April 7 2005

My first entry... my darling's outside watching the Liverpool vs Juventus match....supposed to be joining him...but I feel like jotting my thoughts down....been spending the last 2 nights playing Sims 2 University non-stop...i conclude...i'm obsessed to the Sims..but I guess it ain't no surprise..after all, it is a wonderful game... But the main reason why I'm playing it non-stop is coz I'm gonna start my attachment soon..sighz...so many thoughts running through my mind...so worried of what it'll be like....can only pray like crazy......

On Thursday morning, I'm gonna be going to Malaysia to visit my Grandma...she's in hospital, and I've no idea why...I hope she's alright.....sighz...it's my first trip away from my darling since the day we got together...it's been 2 years, 3 months, and counting....this is gonna feel so weird...we've always been travelling together....i'm gonna feel so so weird...and sighz..i'll have to deal with my parents' quirks all alone...I sure hope I can 'tahan' their funny moods and thoughts....

Still feeling lousy over the Pope's passing....feel really sad..I hope they choose the right one...I hope God guides the Cardinals to choose the right man......I hope he's gone on to Heaven......he should have...but i'll just continue praying anyway....the poor successor..having so much to step into...but I believe he ought to be able to handle it......

Hmmm...so sleepy already...my bag's still not packed.....can't live without my little squashy....how???

Darling...I miss u already.........