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Ah....... I cannot stand this.

Feeling really irritable these days... I dunnoe if it's my hormones at work, or if it's just me. People who know me and my style of work and preparation know that I'm NEVER a last minute person. I like my things organized and prepared, ready for anything to happen at anytime. This is how I approach my life and my work. Others can do what they like, as long as it doesn't affect me, and as long as they finish it by the deadline that has been set. But for myself, everything MUST be ready long before the deadline, as far as possible. I'm a tough worker, and a workaholic in any sense.... you can call me a perfectionist in some sense as well..... but that's who I am, and that's the way I feel most comfortable working.......

Baby's arrival is in 7 weeks. As of now, the room is still only halfway prepared for its arrival. I cannot take it. I need my room in full order as I imagined it, so should Baby decide to enter the world early, everything would have been prepared already. All was fine, and by end of Feb, I should get everything done already. However, my godfather just happily convinced my Dad that there's no need to buy all the furniture that I wanna buy so early.... because it's so easy, and anyway, according to him, we ought not to be moving furniture around. BUT...... I don't want to have to return from the hospital with nothing ready for the baby, and still having to worry about buying all the stuff! I want to come home a rested mum, with everything ready for my baby, so that all I have to worry about is to learn how to take care of the child in the best possible manner and not worry about such mundane and unnecessary stuff!!!!!!!!

*rolls eyes*

The suckiest part is that my dad couldn't even be bothered with listening to such superstitious things about buying new furniture in...... but now, he's completely bought over by my godfather's words. And once my dad has set his mind to something, it's almost impossible to change it!

I had planned to go buy everything with my darling today or tomorrow. I want to clear all these mess out of my head.... so that I can complete the rest of my assignments before the end of the semester....... just had to do what I can to try and secure my teaching position in SAC, which is 'threatened' because of a lot of disruption due to my pregnancy.

Everything's hanging in mid-air right now..... uncompleted, unfinished. I hate leaving things half-done...... It just leaves more things in my mind to be thought about.... and being the workaholic that I am, my brain can't stop thinking about all these things..... working things out..... sheesh.

humph...i sound like a crazy person right now, ranting and raving.....but I need a place to air my grouses.

Doesn't help that I just sprained my ankle real badly yesterday..... which makes walking much harder than it already was... I was waddling before....now i'm limping and waddling. Add to that my increased weight, my good ankle is really suffering from it all.....

I guess that just makes me a far grumpier person than i already was.

Sigh.

i really hope everything works out soon........ so I can stop thinking about some things.... and focus more on preparing myself for what lies ahead...........




Well, it's been 18 days since my last post.

It's hectic la, I tell you..... to have only 6 weeks in a semester...I practically have assignments due every other week! Thank God this week is e-learning week, so I can at least rejuvenate myself a little.

I don't know if anyone else feels it, but this year's CNY is seemingly short. I don't feel the vibe at all this year, and all I really wanna do is to slack around. Haha... I love having my birthday during CNY..... it really helps financially..... got a few angpows due to the fact that it's my birthday........ on the other hand though, many tend to forget it coz of the whole hype around CNY..... Fr. Tim was really sweet though, mentioning it during his sermon......I was frozen in fear when he mentioned that it was someone's birthday for fear that he would say my name! Thank God he didn't..... but I do appreciate the thought though!

I guess CNY is more of a chore to me because Darling and myself have so many places to visit on the first day alone....... and it sucks for me coz we always end up spending so little time at my extended family's gathering.....ah well, we must find a way to work around it next year, especially since little Moo is gonna be around!

Speaking of little Baby, we're still thinking of Baby's Chinese name....sheesh...it's such a huge headache coz we can't seem to decide on one if Baby turns out to be a boy! All the old folks seem to feel it's a little girl though...... *shrugs*.... it really doesn't matter la....

hmm...i'm now 70 kg...can u believe it? Sighz.....and Baby's now 1.8kg.....i really hope i manage to lose all the weight I've put on come post-pregnancy.......or I'll really kill myself..... feeling dreadfully heavy these days....and I'm 7 or 8 weeks away from delivery!!!! most mummies are worried at this point about the process of delivering....I'm however more hung up about the change in my life once baby really arrives into the world.....I think I'm a little weird.

Ah... this post is so random......just signifies the mess of thoughts in my head..... will write more when I'm more settled!!!




Yay... I've survived the first week of school....... changed my timetable to suit my friend's so that he can send me to and from school every single day..... that makes life so much easier...... =D Every single day I meet old friends and acquaintances who exclaim in shock and joy at how pregnant I look.... then they ask how many months, and if it's a boy or a girl..... haha...i somehow feel like hanging a sign around my neck to answer these questions...... =) Baby's been extremely active lately too..... so they're getting a kick out of feeling it's movements (pun intended....)

It's gonna be a hectic semester though.... as we have only 6 weeks before we officially go into schools for our final attachment, hence, the school term and schedule is extremely packed with our first assignment due the week of CNY...... sighz.... I haven't even settled in yet.... dunno how I'm gonna bring myself to start on my assignments so soon.......

hmmmz... i'm now 30 weeks into the pregnancy already, which translates to 7.5 months.... it's scary to think that in another 10 weeks, I'd be entering a whole new phase of life..... Preparations have to start being made to fit Baby's stuff into our little cosy room..... Am I ready to be a mother yet? I really have no idea..... but I'll just deal with it one step at a time.....

Planning the upcoming Legion activities, it feels almost weird to know that I'll not be participating in so many of them because of Baby's arrival...... It's even more odd because it's not of my choice that I'm not participating in them..... So many changes await this beloved ministry of Darling and mine..... I'm not sure if the kids are even ready for it yet...... But... I always believe that God has better plans than us.... and that He already foresees what is going to happen, and that it is all in His hands......

Well, anyway, back to my main reason for posting today...... The Case of the Flying Bamboo....

ha... it's quite a funny incident.... it's an extremely windy day today.... and Darling and myself hung the clothes out to dry, of which the clothes in question are my parents' bedsheets.... I was kinda worried that the clothes would blow away or that the bamboo would fly out of the hole.... But well, bedsheets have to be dried properly or they'd really stink, so we hung them out anyway..... In the process of waiting for it to be dry, I fell asleep whilst Darling was doing his work. He suddenly woke me up telling me that the bamboo had flown away. He hurried me to take a look.... apparently the weakest bamboo had flown down together with the clothes, whilst the comforter cover had detached itself from its clips and flown onto my neighbour's window. Darling told me he'd run down to retrieve the bamboo whilst I ran to my 6th floor and 5th floor neighbours to ask them to help us get our clothes. Sadly, the 6th floor owner wasn't in.... In a desperate attempt to get the comforter cover home before my mum came home, we tried using a pole to push it downwards. Thank God it didn't get stuck on any other windows!!! We ended up coming back home to wash all the items again..... sheesh.... my parents ain't back yet.... i can imagine the big hoo-hah my mum will make when we tell her of what happened coz she really hates hanging the clothes out! =D

CNY is in 16 days... which is how far away my birthday is......used to love having my birthday falling on the same day as CNY coz that means that I would get double angpows.... sighz... things are different now that I'm married..... but in a way, because of Chinese 'tradition'/'superstition' about us still being in mourning during this festive season as Darling's granny passed away less than a 100 days, so, by right, Darling and myself ought not to be attending weddings/funerals or even giving out angpows or exchanging oranges during this period, for fear that we give our 'bad luck' away...... I have no idea how true that is.... but well, it does save us lots of money.... =p and well, considering we didn't need to give out angpows in our first year, and now this is the case for this year, by next year we would also have little Baby with us, which means we would be likely to break even since we would be giving and receiving! =)

Russell's finally home from the UK.... and I'll be meeting him on Tuesday..... I so can't wait, especially since it's been 4 months since I last saw him!!!!

ah well..... hehe.... long day tomorrow.... i'm enjoying my day off, and well, trying to get my brains to start working on the assignments..... another week of work awaits.........




well well, darling and myself have officially recovered from the exhaustion of a non-Catholic funeral. This is the only other non-Catholic funeral I've been to in my entire life..... and I swear that I'm SUPER thankful that I'm a Catholic..... and that our immediate family members remaining are all of the same faith.

I don't despise/dislike/disagree with other religions.... I'm just thankful that we have everything done in such a simple manner..... simplicity rocks man.... makes life less complicated and less expensive on the living ones......

There was much stuff I was doing for the first time....purely cos my paternal grandma who passed away4 years ago was also of the same religion as Darling's maternal grandma....but coz my grandma was past a hundred years, so everything was done very differently.... it was an eye-opener for myself.... and whilst i learnt more about the Chinese culture, tradition and the particular religion..... I've become more grateful of the Catholic way of doing a wake and funeral...

Due to our loss, well, and all the Chinese superstitions and what nots (of which I had to partake in many coz of my current condition due to fears about Baby's safety........), Darling and me are saved from having to give angpows once again during the coming New Year, especially since it's less than a 100 days after her passing....coz the Chinese believe it's bad luck for us to 拜年since we are in mourning...... so....well, we would have saved on 2 years of angpow giving.....and by 2010, Baby Moo would be receiving angpows in return whilst we give.... haha...

Spent the last night at the wake..... but Darling and myself were extremely exhausted coz of the drive to the wake each day.... it was held in Woodlands...so practically everyday, it was driving from one end of Singapore to the other..... which is really madness...... add to that, the prep I had to do for the BBQ which had been pre-planned...... sheesh..... we were tired to the max....... thank god today was a free day for us....... so we slept in and tried to repay our sleep debt as much as possible.......

My parents returned safely from Jerusalem last night....... am quite thankful for that, and to know that they enjoyed themselves..... haha...they really missed the local food though, so Darling and myself brought them out for a really fulfilling meal last night....despite it being at a hawker centre, I believe they satisfied all their cravings!!!!!

Went out with Darling tonight for a quiet dinner, especially after our hectic week...... and caught Bedtime Stories..... it's nice, not bad....maybe not memorable or fantastic....but definitely funny, and well, light-hearted in an Adam Sandler way....always love his movies.... =)

School starts on Monday for me.....my timetable is sucky yet again..... sighz.... they ought to be sympathetic to pregnant mummies, but I don't seem to have that fortune....... sucks that I have to go to school myself on 2 days....coz I'm really dreading the train ride to Boon Lay...no doubt I'll definitely get a seat coz of my humungous tummy...... but... I'm not sure if my back can take it..... coz I couldn't take the cinema seat just now.... was shifting positions throughout the show coz my back hurt like mad..... i may end up having to bring a cushion along on my ride to school.... =( sighz.... i've gotten so big now..... that walking takes a toll on me..... during the walk to TM, could really feel my tummy stretching to accomodate the little one...... ah well....... 2 more months.....it's so scary coz it just seems to be around the corner.....i'm filled with anxiety, fear, anticipation all at once.......

ah wells..... thank God school is only for 7 weeks, with an e-learning week in between...... so i believe i should be able to live through it....... have got to do reading tomorrow for chinese mass, so I guess I'd better end off here!!!