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Love is not about looking at each other, it's about looking together in the same direction.......

February 25, 2007

My 50th month present for my darling......our footsteps towards a brighter future together....


Baby darling, i'm just filled with so so so much love for you....I really don't know how to tell you, and sometimes, I just forget to remind you of how I feel about you...yet...I hope you'll always remember how much I do.....

Darling seems so bogged down with so much thoughts lately...he always seems so far away...so deep in thought, and it truly worries me.....I don't know how to make things better for him, coz I'm unsure about what it is that is bothering him....I keep wondering if it's me, or if it's coz I haven't been loving him enough.....and I just keep questioning myself.....yet..I know it's more than that.......sighz...

Though 50 months have passed us....but i know that despite how long it has been, and how long more it may be, I'm certain that our love for each other will only get stronger with each month that passes us by. And that's coz we are so determined for the best for each other.... =)

We just placed the deposit down for the Church today...it's certain it's gonna be Holy Trinity....hmmm...there's just so much planning to be done....and with each day that goes by, I know we're one step nearer to getting married....our friends are slowly getting more involved in our planning process... and they too are beginning to plan with us, and find out more about what we have done thus far.... just hope my wedding planner gets well soon, so that we can move on in the planning process......have already booked the date for our Engaged Encounter...gonna go for it in June.....sighz...there's just so so much to be done...and what with Legion commitments and work/school commitments, there just doesn't seem to be enough time at all! =) Through all that planning...I guess what's most important is that we remember to love and cherish each other....though we've long passed the time where it's purely all about whispering sweet nothings to each other day after day, yet, we cannot forget to indulge ourselves in doing that every now and then...although there's much more important things to think about now, yet, it is most definitely necessary to remind ourselves of what made all these happen in the first place, and to keep the flames of love burning.....

I can't remember when you were not there,
When I didn't care for anyone but you.
I swear, we've been through everything there is,
Can't imagine anything we've missed,
Can't imagine anything the two of us can't do.

Through the years you've never let me down
You've turned my life around
The sweetest days I've found, I've found with you
Through the years, I've never been afraid,
I've loved the life we've made
And I'm so glad I stayed, right here with you,
Through the years.

I can't remember what I used to do,
Who I trusted, who I listened to before.
I swear, you've taught me everything I know,
Can't imagine needing someone so,
But through the years it seems to me I need you more and more,

Through the years, through all the good and bad,
I know how much we've had,
I've always been so glad to be with you.
Through the years, it's better everyday
You've kissed my tears away
As long as it's okay, I'll stay with you,
Through the years.

Through the years, when everything went wrong,
Together we were strong,
I know that I belong right here with you
Through the years, I never had a doubt,
We'd always work things out
I've learned what life's about by loving you
Through the years.

Through the years, you've never let me down,
You've turned my life around,
The sweetest days i've found, i've found with you.
Through the years, it's better every day,
You've kissed my tears away,
As long as it's okay, I'll stay with you,
Through the years.

Kenny Rogers - Through The Years

February 23, 2007

Today is our 50th monthsary.....it's been so wonderful with my darling....and knowing we've spent so much time together, just reminds us of how beautiful the months ahead are going to be, especially with that HUGE milestone that's up and coming.... =)

Though we didn't spend much time together today, but, I believe that the both of us have just attained this sense of fulfillment, joy, and understanding about each other today. After all, it so happens to also be my grandfather's birthday, as well as Winson's birthday. Finished at school, and then went to Miss Clarity to have dinner with my entire family.......right after that, we rushed back to meet Winson, Angela, Nigel, Sheena and Chris for dinner/supper.....it was a peaceful evening with lots of bonding between ourselves and our friends and family.....so, to me, it has been a rather nice evening.....

Hmm....last year collecting Angpows....it feels weird to keep being reminded that next year, both Darling and myself would have to be giving Angpows out instead of receiving them! haha....but, I guess we'll deal with it when the time comes.

sighz....i would love to write more....but I am super super super sleepy,......Winson is still at my place......hmmm.....really am gonna fall asleep soon...will try to write more soon....once i get over and done with much of the work that i need to do.....till then....





The birthday gifts from darling.......... so beautiful... =)









The surprise......... =)







Thursday February 15, 2007

My darling's in dreamland right now.......but...he's not beside me.......yep..he's at duty again.... sighz....I miss him...... though its lonely being home without him, yet, I appreciate the time alone, coz then, I have the time to do our next monthsary present for him........can you believe it....next friday, it would be our 50th month together!!! so many many months have passed.....thinking about it, just brings a smile to my face........

Darling has just been such a dear......he's done so so much for me in the last couple of months with all his beautiful gifts. Speaking about it, I realised that I have not actually put up the photos of my birthday gifts........Sighz....he's spent so much time, effort and thought on every single one of his gifts....and I dunnoe about you, but, for him to still put so much effort even though we've been together for so long really touches my heart.........

Though we did not spend Valentine's the way other couples are, yet, he still did a present for me.......and we had pizza for dinner.....i know all that talk about how every day is also Valentine's may sound lame, but, i guess that after being in a relationship for that long, it does make some sense.....i mean, if we only show extreme love to each other on that day alone, what use is it? It matters far more to make every single day count, to make every day special........and, being practical, and seeing the need to save money, I guess that's why we've been celebrating Valentine's early for the last 2 years......it really does make more sense.... at the end of the day, we just wanna "commemorate" the day.........after all, we've spent 5 Valentine's together already...

hmmm.......my present for him is only halfway done....i just hope he'll like it, and that it'll turn out the way i want it to........ =) these last few days have been super tiring...and because i'm so tired, i'm also forgetful.......sighz....i think the break over the next few days will be very much welcomed and appreciated..........i can't wait to spend time with my darling either! hmmm....just thinking about him puts a smile on my face...................i miss you my darling....so so so much..... holding you in my arms would just make everything so much better.........i love you...




Monday, 12th February 2007

I just received really bad news........my friend, Jolene, from my secondary school days has passed away from a heart attack. It's scary. It just reminded me of the fragility of life......


Though i always accepeted death as part and parcel of our journey as humans, I guess I never really had to experience the death of somebody so young, that used to be so close to me. Maybe you could say that I am lucky.....coz although i've attended a multitude of funerals, few of them have been ones for people who are very important to me.....the only one has been that of my paternal grandmother...but even then, she was at the age of 104, and thus, i pretty much accepted it quite easily.............but for someone who has just turned 21 a couple of months ago........I just dunno how to accept it. It's so shocking....especially when I think of her, how active she is and all.....sighz....i really dunno what to say.....will be going for her funeral later.....i dunno how i'll react........yet.....i'm sure that she's going to a better place, and that the Lord will be guarding her soul...............

God bless you Jolene.........Love you.....




Sunday, 11 February 2007

Today has been an alright day......was busy at church all morning.......Baby Ethan came over to my place...hehe....just so love him! He's such a dearie.... =) Father Timothy and my parents kept telling us that it is time for us to book the church for our wedding before it is too late. After all, December is a hot month for weddings. So yup....darling decided on Holy Trinity coz it definitely is much more convenient, and anything I want, I would most likely be able to get....and i guess that that's what matters on that day, coz anything and everything could go wrong. But we haven't set the deposit and all yet....gonna talk things with our wedding planner first...... We have also registered for Engaged Encounter.......hopefully we get the June slot.....sighz...there's just so much to be done for the wedding, and the venue is still yet to be confirmed!!!!! Please pray for us okie?? =)

Then we went for Curia. Meeting was alright....pretty much the same, nothing out of the ordinary...........Went to Subway for lunch with the entire group...then everybody split ways...or rather, they all went home, and Darling and me went off on our own....

hmm....I dunno why....I guess all of us are beginning to lead our own lives again......lately it's been harder to get them to go out.....but, things feel different to me. Oh well, I guess it's all part and parcel of our lives.........we're definitely still close for sure......probably coz that entire period, we had no other commitments except for Legion, and thus, we spent almost every minute together...now that they're back at school, and we're back at work, our "lives" together are limited to only that of weekends......

Anyway, yup.....Darling and me went looking for our clothes in Marina and Suntec.......sometimes, I just so hate shopping.......Coz, darling is quite fussy....and so am I, so.... we kinda feel that our choice of clothes are actually quite limited. Also, we often go to Tampines Mall to look for stuff, and as there are many shops there, hence, we feel that we can't find anything much even in town..........of course, it doesn't help that we have a tendency to like to wear sportswear.....so, our choice of clothes is even more limited.......and because we get frustrated with not being able to find clothes for ourselves, we end up getting tired, and more irritable, and that irritation transfers onto the other person unknowingly.....and we end up getting irritated with each other.....sighz....it happens everytime we go shopping...but oh well...... we ended up getting 2 pants from Nike......one for each of us, and I got darling a shirt too......we ain't going formal this year, coz we wanna match our Liverpool jacket that we got, but still have not worn..... spent about $150 on clothes........not too bad, I guess.....coz the pants I got is also one that I have been searching for to wear to work....=)

Next on the wishing list.....the Microsoft Office...and also, shoes for the both of us.....

Then, we got Winson's present....i think he'll like it...esp since he's getting his own room soon.... it's also something he's been wanting.....hehe......

Darling and me celebrated Valentine's today....we went back to Outback Steakhouse for dinner... we ate really little today, but we are both so so so full.....haha......their cheese fries is the BEST ever....it beats Billy Bombers hands down...even though it's twice more the price....but the taste...it's good man.....we decided we'll bring Angela there for her birthday...so babe, you can start thinking about all the things you'd wanna eat!!! hahahaha......yup...then we had the Teriyaki Beef Skewers....that was not really good.....coz the beef was too tough..... but the Mashed Potatoes was Awesome.........and the dessert??!! It was to die for......the entire meal was amazing.....and the service there is excellent.......compared to the nonsense meal we had yesterday, this is the tops man.......I am so going back there for many more times!!!!

=)

hmm...okay then....it's late...gotta go prepare myself for a new week at work...........




Saturday, 10th february 2007

I got my first pay from teaching today!! haha....it feels good to have money coming in again.... =) but that means that darling and me have to save even more. However....after so long of not having sufficient money, we spent a little too much today, i think....but, I know, tomorrow, we are going to transfer money into our account, so, we'll have less money on our hands.... we really need to save more money....

Darling finally passed his driving...am so proud of him.... =) Now we can drive around once in a while.....YAY!!!!!!

hmm.....the entire week has been very long.....there's been tonnes of work to do, and I keep feeling like there's not enough time.......but... i guess things are more or less going the way they should be....am still learning on the job....and every day brings a new experience for me to learn about......how to teach them better, how to control them better, how to discipline them better...... it's so tough sometimes, but I guess that it's all part of the learning process.......

went to the gym for the first time this week........burned about 200++ calories......feels good!! hahahaa......gonna make it a weekly routine...so that I can lose enough weight for my wedding!

Today, darling and me went to watch Little Children......it's quite a good show.... one with a lot of hidden meaning. In fact, you have to pay attention to the show, or you will lose what it is trying to bring across. Quite an engaging show...but I personally feel that the sexual acts were a little more than necessary.........It was very sexually explicit...and I feel, a little too much of it than was actually what was needed.... but oh well.....the $18 was worth it....

then darling and me just walked around aimlessly, seeing what we wanted to see, with no aim at all in mind.......then we popped over to Canele's new outlet at Paragon....It's very small and quite stuffy.....but the new items in the menu look good...tried their new cakes, and it was not bad...... =) saw Furrene.....she lost so much weight...must have been very very busy......

Today, I also had the Teachers-Parents sharing session in school....amazingly, I saw Mdm Hassan, my history teacher back in TKGS......haha..she was so shocked to see me there....two of her kids are in OEPS.....one in P3, one in P1....but not in my class....

Darling and me have decided that tmr, we are gonna go search for CNY clothes....otherwise it would really be too late....then, we'll probably celebrate Valentine's tomorrow...coz...I don't think we would have time during the weekdays.........Monday, we'll be going to his place, Tuesday, to the gym, Wednesday, I'd have meeting in school, and darling has got meeting in the evening... so...yup..... =)

Hmm...k lah.....gonna let Darling play his game, and I would go do my prep for next week's school..........till the next entry...






I think this is just so beautiful.... =)


"For God so loVed the world,
That He gAve
His onLy
BegottEn
SoN
That whosever
Believeth In Him
Should Not perish,
But have Everlasting life."

- John 3:16 (KJV)