">

Yes, my birthday has passed and i'm officially 23....feels old around my friends...but in school, i know i'm still young... =D

It was a very simple birthday celebration with family and friends.....actually celebrated 3 times.. first with Darling's family, then mine, and finally my friends....though i did celebrate it 3 times, but funnily, it didn't really feel like my birthday...don't ask me why..... =)

hmmm...my brains are currently in heat-up mode......really so many things on my mind......just hoping that the proposal goes through....that all the planning for both the camps work out...that i can finally figure out how to get down to my assignments......feeling very drained and overworked actually......so little time and so much to do...i really don't know how to divide my time equally because things just seem to be piling up......*sighz*

feeling very random now....mood is also often weird........am feeling like when i first started school with all that confusion...only that now, it's no longer confusion but much more stress...... Legionaries who are actually involved with me in the different planning thingies and camps....i'm sorry, but i think i'll be pressurizing you guys to work your asses off a little bit more...coz i really have far too much on my plate right now....

kinda vented a lot of mu frustrations on darling last night...coz i really couldn't take it...and am feeling quite bad about it...yet i know that if i didn't do so last night, my breakdown would be far worse when it happens.....but everything's alright...so no worries... =)

hmmm...much more stuff to be done....will write again soon....




One month since I officially became a "Mrs"......man....time flies so fast...had a really long walk with Darling last night from his place to Simei, then to Simpang....I think we walked for like 3 hours!! Though the walk is long, but we love times like that...coz we talk about anything and everything....Darling suggests that we ought to do this more often....I totally agree..helps clear up our minds......lets us spend time together with no interruptions from anyone...and the best part is we don't have to spend money doing so!!! hahahaha

hmmm..everyone's asking me how's married life....seriously, I don't really know the difference...if u're asking me if my life has changed drastically, it hasn't. I guess the only difference is that I have to place more people in front of my needs right now....i mean, I used to think about how my parents would feel if I kept coming back late and all........u know, that kind of obligations....but now, i not only have to think of them, but have to think of Darling's parents too......i love spending time with his grandma though.....it's quite fun... =D

I guess the only thing i'm not used to is staying at his place......really not used to having to share all my space with so many other people....esp since at my place, everything is all mine to abuse...haha...man, don't i sound spoilt?!! =p but ya....one more month...once CNY is over, we'll be back home and dominate my room once more!!!! I really really can't wait.....

School is madness...real madness...I feel like I can't breathe coz there's so much to be done....the amount of work is already insane, and it's only Week 3!!! Goodness me, and already next week we have assignments and projects due..... I really don't know how to cope.... plus the fact that I try to be home before 7 everyday, it doesn't leave me with much time for myself.....making so much use of the comp lab in school so that I can have some personal time.....

Lots of Legion stuff to be done as well.....wat with the Officers' Training Camp and the Recruitment Camp to be planned...plus the discussions we need to have with the Senior Curia Presidents for our hopes to open a new Senior Presaedium....I'm going mad....I really have to sit down and manage out my time properly with what I wanna do and all....lots and lots of programmes for the Officers' Training Camp....
Legionaries, if you guyz are selected by your zhi yuans to attend the camp, I really really hope you'd come....and when you do...please give it your all......push yourself to your highest limit. It's gonna be tough, but it's gonna be worth it....and you won't regret it. Like my favourite quote, "I never said it was going to be easy, I only said it was going to be worthwhile." All the planners are racking their brains to come up with the best programs we've ever come up with, but all for your sake...so...you get the gist.... =D

Hmmm....my birthday is coming!! haha...can't wait.......Darling and Angela are failures at trying to plan surprises for me coz I always end up finding out one way or another...but i'll just pretend I don't know anything!! It'll make everything more fun...hehe....23....sounds super old...especially amongst our clique since I'm the oldest!! but oh well..... it's just another part of life.... =D




First week of school is over. Am still trying to settle in.....

Thanks to all who tried to make me feel better....guess it was the overwhelming feeling of having too many things happening at the same time, and the uncertainty of it all.....am trying to settle back into the Singaporean lifestyle...... =)

It's been a long week, and although it's only been a week of school, yet, the assignments are already piling up....what with the tonnes of Legion stuff to be done, this is purely the tip of the iceberg...I only hope I can handle it all without breaking down........I guess what makes everything more stressful is the fact that I am not staying at my own place....so....*shrugs*..... =D

Am fitting in well with Darling's family though, so no worries...haha...

anyway.....Curia went well on Sunday....for those of you from Legion reading this blog, your Curia officers have great plans for your guys for the entire year of 2008...all these cannot be revealed yet....but we do hope that all our plans can go through, and that it will be a very fruitful year for you......The officers' training camp to come will be something unlike any other...that is a promise that we will strive to fulfill...because like Nigel said, you guys are our future, and we want to make sure that you would be better than us.... =) As for the recruitment camp.....those of you who have been selected...please be prepared to work hard for me....the monster in Pet is triggered only when work is not done!! hahaha......

Wedding photos are finally out...in digital format....have 1800 shots to view, and 300 shots to select for printing.....just the viewing alone is insane!!! haha...... photos should be out by CNY..... I can't wait!!!!! =D

oh well...much work to do....... shall write again soon!!!




Overdue Honeymoon Shots!! - Gold Coast, Australia

Well well.... first day back to school. I ought to be feeling happy and excited, all ready to begin a new semester here at school. Strangely though, I feel the total opposite. I dunno what's wrong with me. I'm filled with fear, anxiety, worry, and apprehension, as if every next step is a possible plunge down the shaky and unstable cliff that I am standing on.

Is it coz i've been away for too long in an idealistic world with Darling?
Is it coz of the current change in my status?

I really have no idea.

All I know is that there are so many uncertainties in my life right now, and there's so many other things to worry about with Darling that I really fear every single step and every move that I am about to make. I feel as if every wrong move will have someone scream down my neck, "CHECKMATE"....and I'm doomed.

It's weird.

My only source of comfort right now is in Darling, in my squashies, and in my friends.

I feel alone, yet I fear companionship...I reject advances that could possibly be made by schoolmates for a friendship, coz I want to be alone.

I have no idea what I am doing.

I sound like I'm going bonkers aren't I?
I feel the same way too....and that only serves to make me more fearful....
I don't know how to ease the tension......
u guys who met us last night may not have been able to feel this tension being produced constantly by my brain cells..but it sure is.

I hope it all goes away soon..........that the sun will come out again....shining and bright, with much promise of a new day....a new life.........to make me feel the way I'm supposed to be feeling right now........

Am glad those who received their gifts so far liked them..... =)
Am thankful for Darling's reassuring love and efforts to make me feel secure.....

I just wish I knew what was going on in my mind. I can't even list out in detail what is bothering me......and that scares me even more.

I feel very random. My brain does not seem to be functioning properly. Darling tells me that what I say does not make sense more frequently now.

Humph....I need to breathe......Right now, I'm feeling far more stressed than I did before the wedding......the only difference is that I'm not showing it as obviously....coz I'm still carrying the happiness and blissfulness from the honeymoon....which is probably the best thing that could have happened in my life thus far..........I just pray there are more good days to come......




First day back from Aussie.....am supposed to be in school right now, but just wanna take a day's break.....first time i'm doing that....=) Slept really late last night at 3am....coz had to do A LOT of unpacking and stuff......there's still lots to be done coz of all the unpacking that we hadn't done since the wedding, plus the changes to the room and all.....

The trip has been really fun....felt like we were in La-La-Land....coz everyday was so happy, and we had endless amount of time with one another......i truly don't regret any day that we were there..... took tonnes and tonnes of photos...bought mountains of stuff...not only for ourselves, but for other people as well..... =)

Can only upload the photos some other day coz there's really far too many!!!

Darling and me are still trying to get used to the notion of being a son-in-law and a daughter-in-law.......hehe...

Much to do with our personal lives, and then there's Legion stuff to be done.....so....it's back to reality for the both of us!!!

Will update again soon...till then, those who wanna view our wedding album photos, you can click on this link

http://moomediaonline.com/wedding/select/p&r

actual day photos are still in the process....and when they are ready, we'll let you know again......

so.... look out for my next update which will be SUPER long!!!!!=)