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28th May 2005

It's a Saturday evening...i ought to still be at work but here i am at home once more......so many times i've been on MC this week.....my leg is killing me...hurts like hell..seems worse than when i first sprained it...the fact that i'm using my dad's medical ointment is actually helping to make it better as compared to the stupid gel provided by the doctor......so what can i conclude? That Chinese medicine is still more effective when it comes to stuff like that....... =)

Tomorrow's gonna be my off day and i'm gonna watch Madagascar and Monster-In-Law with my darling......sighz......it's only a week more before he goes in, and I'm getting "sadder" by the moment....if there is such a word! sighz.....these days, i cry very easily, especially when i think of the fact that he won't be around much after my first week at my new place.....the worst part is i don't even know if i can see him when he's out on weekends....really trying hard to treasure every single moment i have with him...each second passed is so important now...sighz....i don't doubt our relationship...how could i, after 2 and a half years together, and all that we've been through? But i doubt my strength to live on each day, because he's become such a huge part of my life, being there beside me at every minute that i'm not at work, and i guess that that's gonna be the hardest part to get used to.....not having someone there to share my days and nights with, or my thoughts and feelings with is gonna be so difficult, but i have to try....guess i'll definitely have much more of a life on my own with his absence, but somehow, i'd rather not have a life than to have him away from me.......

Anyway, on a lighter note, i went back to LA yesterday, cos i finished early, and also had to collect my paycheck from the head office....sighz....felt such a great sense of homecoming when i went back...so happy to see all of them....especially Regina.....and even Gunther....they were all so happy to see me, and it's such a nice feeling to know that others were thinking about you, and how you were doing....Gunther spoke a lot to me, and so did the rest, interested to find out about my "new" life at AJ......told them what i could...and somehow, sighz......i know that i'd definitely lvoe to have the chance of working with them again.......and yet, i know that i prefer the working style of those at AJ, coz they kinda trust me to do things for them, as compared to them at LA... so....it's kinda people vs working style....i still dunnoe.....will be going over the Canteen soon...back in Orchard once more........gonna face so many changes within the next 2 weeks...dunnoe if i can cope, dunnoe wat to expect....i only know that i'm gonna treasure every moment with my darling............




26th May 2005

This will be a short one as I just wanna express my joy! hehe...watched the game last night, and it was absolutely wonderful! I didn't even fall asleep!! hahaha.....but it was a totally entertaining and exciting match....Liverpool played extremely well, and they really fought with all their lives.....Milan played super good too....i think both sides are winners in their own way...it's just that somebody had to win in the end....i'm glad that Liverpool won in the end though.....happy happy......... =) great game.....and my darling's so wonderfully happy..who wouldn't be...i've to suffer with the after effects of lack of sleep though...hope i don't create any accidents in work today, especially with my injured leg!!!




25th May 2005

sigh.....not again...i've sprained my ankle once more.....was walking to the mrt, and then i fell....sighz......it's quite bad this time.....couldn't even walk properly after that...decided to go to the doctor to see how bad it is, before deciding whether or not to go to work..waited for like ages there.......the doctor's weird...feel like lodging a complaint against him...asked him if he advisedme not to go to work, but then, he told me it's all up to me...sighz.....what a doctor, i should be asking him that question!! Anyway, ya, the obvious decision is of course that i'm not going to go to work...it hurts to bad, and thinking of the long walk i've to take to AJ just gives me the shudders....so yup.....feel quite bad actually, coz I really wanted to go to work today..but......

added a new "family" member to my already overflowing collection of toys...yet another cow...he looks so cute though..hehe.... =) came back and watched the American Idol finale, quite a close one...wondering who will win, but can only find out tomorrow........will be watching the Champions League finals tonight....it's gonna be late, but i believe it's gonna be a match worth watching....think it'll be an exciting game, and yup, i guess, that even if either side loses, i feel that lose gracefully, and that there'll probably be no tears shed because i feel that they're both gonna play their best tonight, and both have already won in a way, so yup....whilst i do support liverpool since they're the underdogs, but even if milan wins, it'll be alright i guess.... =)

yesterday was my first day at the fish section...sighz......cut myself whilst opening a packet of tempura flour.......can't believe it......did quite a lot of stuff, and am still learning the dishes...sad part is that the menu should be changed by the end of this week, so.....i probably will get quite mixed up...sighz.......will just see lor.......somehow i feel that maybe i should have taken up pastry after all...i'm so interested in everything i'm learning from them.......and all the desserts just amazes me sometimes...but then again, it could just be a case of how the grass always looks greener on the other side of the fence...so.....i'll just learn everything i can learn... =)

hmm....it's already the 3rd week at AJ...time passes so quickly..soon i'll be at the Canteen....and my darling will be gone.....sighz..then it'll be a real new experience for me......life without him there to keep it constant for me, and also no one to share my life with........really hope i'll be able to adapt to it..in the past 29 months, i've become so attached to him....he's such a big part of my life, and i spend every waking moment with him, that any minute without him seems almost unthinkable......but i guess it's just something i'll have to get used to..........sighz..he wanted to give me a surprise today actually...was supposed to go out with his friends, then come pick me up from work tonight...sighz...but my fall spoilt all the plans..how clever can i get right?? but, who cares, i now have the whole evening to spend with him... =)

star wars was good, and i kinda enjoyed it.........story wasn't too complicated, and it was quite interesting.......may try to catch up on the other 5 episodes some day.....fell in love with R2-D2, C3PO and Yoda....such cute creatures....the robots never fail to make me laugh..... hmm...spent my anniversary quite simply actually, but it was one of the best i've had with him.....woke up at around noon coz i played Sims 2 the entire night...haha......the characters we created after us apparently have 3 children now, and they want to have 10 children!!! can u belive that?? anyway, we then went to Killiney Kopitiam at Simei to have kaya toast, coffee and tea, then went to the Pet Safari to look at dogs.....saw a collie, a husky, some retrievers and two baby malteses....decided that we were either gonna get Malteses or Retrievers in the future......hehe...then we went for the Rosary procession...spent time with friends we haven't seen in ages......then went for supper at KFC.......had great time catching up with them, and then we came home........we spent the whole night talking, reliving the events that led to us being together, and the moments we'd shared...........talked for about 2 hours...it was such a simple day, but one that i know would live memories in my mind forever.......so satisfied, so contented...hehe...

sighz...right now, he's just taking a nap......and i'm gonna cook dinner soon...my little baby really is such a cow.....ever since he started working out, he's eating lke crazy! such a hungry bum....hmmm...15 days till he goes in...better cherish every moment......same for my parents...they're going on some trip on friday, coming back on tuesday, then going to malaysia again on next friday to see my granny.....and 2 weeks from now, they'll be leaving for another trip....hmmm........better spend more time with them!!




22 May, 2005

it's almost 1 am on a Sunday morning...........enjoying the night, tomorrow's my day off....so shiok..hehe.....life's been pretty hectic this week..........discover that maybe I oughta have taken up pastry after all.....i'm so interested inpastry and the things they do, and i think it's especially so after my stint with the pastry for a whole month at Les Amis....learning so much from them, and still very interested in some of the things they do...have concluded that in the future, when I have my own home, i'm gonna be baking my own bread for my family....and also, when i do have kids, will teach them how to bake, and this will be our family programme every weekend..hehe..i think i'm crazy.....

digressing far too much already....anywayz.....ya, this co-worker of mine, sighz....the poor guy. he was opening oysters, and he got his fingers clamped by it......then, he's been on MC since middle of last week until next wednesday coz of infection to the wound....sighz....although i'd welcome the rest, but the pain he must be going through......i don't even wanna think about it....and in our line, wat's most important are our hands...if the infection gets so bad that he loses his fingers....sighz.........

anyway....kinda been comparing the 2 outlets this entire week....concluded that well....AJ is really far more disciplined, and the chef is also nicer... (of course!!) but at the same time, because it's so disciplined, i somehow feel that the people have masks..they aren't really who they seem to be coz there's this other side to it.....maybe it's just me.......and yup..i still haven't really spoken to the chef even though i've been here for two weeks....feel really awkward....i feel somehow, that the family kinda feeling at LA suits me far more than this almost fake feeling i get from here.... also, the food is simplistic in its design, and really classic, which is nice, but at the same time, i find it a little boring after a while..and the taste of the food somehow can't compare with LA's..... and although Gunther is really hard to bear with, but he does try to strike up conversations, which can be irritating if you don't wanna talk, but at the same time, it makes me feel more at ease...sighz....just for an easier understanding, basically, today i made my soyabean for them at AJ...and even after they drank it, there seemed to be no sign of appreciation or even comments from them unless i asked them what they thought of it...sheesh..... i felt so.....like no one even cared..........not hurt..but unappreciated...and besides, because i'm working here, i end up having to have lunch first, and sometimes bringing food coz the staff meal sucks..and sighz....because of that i spend more money....but then again, i definitely have more life...coz my off day is scheduled, and also coz i have more time with my darling....sighz...i'm in such a dilemma....but i guess it's gonna get worse with 8 outlets to think about in the end!!!

anyway, did i mention how nice my dearest mummy is?? she actually prepares food for me to bring to work each day because i told her about my sucky dinner at work......and then, she ensures that i have supper to eat each night when i come home...sighz...i'm so touched..but dunno how to express my thanks to her.........

gonna be watching star wars with darling's family tmr..this despite the fact that i haven't even watched a single episode before.....don't really like sci-fi movies...but somehow the storyline for this one kinda intrigues me..and the fact that the person chooses evil instead of good makes a difference instead of the usual.......gonna be watching amityville horror too i think...sighz....have such a wonderful schedule next week, have today and monday off, and morning shift on friday and saturday, then off again on sunday.....hehe...so lucky..my colleagues are all so jealous of me......

hmmm...2 weeks till my parents go on their holiday.....should be going to my nanny's house to stay coz i'd otherwise be alone at home..but then, here is far more convienient for me to travel from work, coz i'd then be at The Canteen...which is at Orchard again......and also, my dad's plants need to be watered, and most importantly, i can't bear to leave my babies alone at home...sighz..in a dilemma tooo......have to make up my mind soon.......

hahha...arsenal won the FA cup.....lucky man u didn't win......looking forward to the Champions League final...that's one game to look out for man........monday's my 29th month anniversary with my darling.....the last one before he goes in to Army....have to celebrate well man....sighz....gonna miss him so..........




14th May 2005

Finally......i receive my first off day from Au Jardin.....haha...after a whole week at AJ, I can finally conclude taht life is truly different here. Galvin, the head chef, really works differently from Gunther....he's very quiet and very serious when it comes to work, and during service, no one is supposed to tlak really loudly, or anything like that. He's quite a clean freak too, and is actually very very fussy in terms of what he does....in a way, he only expects the best, i guess..still trying to get used to him....

Had my first split shift with them yesterday, and got my rest only at about 4 plus...slept in the restaurant...sheesh..did i ever mention the food??? it sucks big time lah.......man..even dogs wouldn't want to eat the food that we are given for dinner....the catering company that is in charge for providing us with food really cannot make it....i end up not eating at work, and only eating when i'm at home....sigh....and i thought the food provided at Les Amis was bad....boy was I wrong!! Quite sad ya?? Cooks that can prepare food that is so nice, have to end up eating disgusting food like that....it's really food that's not meant for humans lorz....

Tomorrow, i'm gonna be on morning shift...got to leave my house really early....got to get up by 6.30...sighz...the shift is really something i've got to get used to.......been taking the cab home for at least 2 days in this week already....it works like that....whenever we work past 11.30, the company will sponsor the cab home...so ya....but i still end up reaching home at like 12 plus every single night.......

Oh ya...yesterday, i saw how they cleaned up a pigeon.....it arrived with like it's head, and the feathers all the way up to it's neck!! so sick....but it was interesting to see how they do things......and the presentation here......it's really really nice...totally different from Gunther...where Gunther emphasises on the natural, and play of colous with his veg, and making use of a meat's natural juices and all, Galvin works on the simple, and classic taste of food. He doesn't over play the colours, but tries to make use of what he can from the plate to bring out colours. He also is a ticker for details......makes sure the plate is entirely clean before it goes out.... so ya.....it's quite nice lah, both of them, the way they do things.........hmmm..next week, i'm gonna be attached to Pastry, then moving on to fish side and the meat side......so, i'm really looking forward to learning more from them~! hopefully, i learn how to make the warm bitter chocolate cake that i love so much!!! hahaha......gonna go out with my darling already~~~

28 days till my darling leaves me!!!!!!! =(




11th May 2005

Today is my squashybabies' birthday......2 years old already...so fast...hehe.....don't have the time to get them a present or to celebrate for them though....have to wait till my off day on saturday....yesterday was my parents' wedding anniversary...didn't bump into either of them at all until past 12 last night....so i couldn't wish them either...felt so guilty...

sigh...my eyes are so dry these days, and i can't seem to see clearly......it's either my eyes are too tired, or my degrees has increased....i hope it's the former........have maintained this degree since i was 12.....sure don't want it to increase any further.......

hmm...so how's life at AJ? It's quite interesting........the walk at night to the bus-stop gives me the creeps though...thank god my present working partners take the route i'm taking.....thus allowing me to have company....i'm attached to the gardemanger at the moment...and should be rotating around stations for the enxt 3 weeks....they have shifts here, and am on afternoon shift this entire week until friday, when i'm doing split shift, and morning shift on sunday....this shift thingy somehow gives me something to look forward to. The people here do go to work early....but there's no fixed time......apparently, as long as you reach before 3pm, you are considered early already......so..yup....and they do wash the place really clean too.....time passes quickly here, there's tonnes to do.....which means there's no time for resting...which is quite good....at least i'm not bored..hahha........however..they all tell me that this scenario in which everybody can talk happily will end today with the return of the chef.....that's really a sight......i haven't seen an entirely quiet kitchen before, so i guess it'll be something new for me......

My new partner's name is Simon...and he's very friendly....taught me a lot of things, and is very willing for me to help him...so yup...just yesterday alone, i've learnt to make 2 dressings on my own, and have learnt to dress their salads.........also made the canapes with them.....really intereesting place.....can't wait to see more....







8th May, 2005

It's Mother's Day!!! feel so bad...this is the first year that i never helped my mum with her flowers at all...not with the wrapping, nor the selling at all.... sighz....but really no choice lor...these few days i've been ending work really late...just last night, i only left Les Amis at like midnight...so super tired today........went for 9.30 am mass instead of my usual 8 am...but i got to go for mass with Russell, my bestest guy friend ever...and my darling..so.,.... haha...i went for mass with 2 of my favourite guys....so lucky..hehehe..the flowers sold really fast today though...by like 11 am, we'd finished all the flowers le...and yesterday saw all the bouquets sold out....this year's flowers are really fresh.....so that must be why.....

Went to my uncle's house to celebrate mother's day...saw my little nephew, Asher....he's SO SO SO cute...and he's the splitting image of his father.....carried him for so long today....hehe......he's so funny....sighz...just love little babies....the poor thing though....he got woken up just as he fell asleep...must be so grumpy..sighz...my cousin's gonna be going to france for like 2 years in september....gonna miss Asher so much....

oh ya....got off today in the end because we ended up not having any reservations for today...so happy...coz at least I have the time to spend with my loved ones......yesterday got outside catering......so Regina and Steve went...Regina got her friend to come and help, and turns out that she used to go to TKGS to play softball quite a lot...so she actually knows quite a few of my friends...this is like so cool man...... hahaha.......

hmmmz...bought a pair of bedroom slippers for my mummy....hope it'll help ease the pain for her feet....then bought my nanny, godma, and my darling's mummy this cute little piglets......so so so cute lorz.....bought myself an elephant to add to my huge "family"....as a companion for my other elephant too.... they're so soft and squashy...

gonna start work at Au Jardin (AJ) tmr already...really dunno wat to expect..heard from this part-timer who works at AJ too, that the kitchen there is more strict and organized.....food comes out fast too...sighz.....heard that the chef loves cleanliness too...and that they wash the kitchen twice a day....apparently the floor is like so clean that you can sleep on it lahz......hmmm..but i guess i'll just have to find everything out for myself, coz that's the best..hearsay is only hearsay...it may not be the real thing..and in the end, it's how the environment is in my point of view, and how i adapt myself to it.....jst have to prepare myself though.....have to go back in the morning to let Steve sign in my logbook though...hmm...dunnoe if i have enough time to get there or not.....so gonna mis Les Amis and the style of working already, coz my fellow colleagues are really nice people, and the place is so convenient...save for the new guy, who i still cannot geet used to, and my chef, everything's great...sighz...i think the new guy needs some shaping up from Gunther...but we'll see.....who am I to judge anyway....

oh well........need to go sleep now...i'm falling asleep already......barely had enough sleep last night....tonight got 2 big games........AC Milan vs Juventus and Liverpool vs Arsenal.......my darling's so gonna catch it, and i guess i'll take the time to do my cross-stitching, or catch up with my dearest Sims 2 family...... hope Liverpool wins tonight....so that they have a chance of going to play the Champions League next year......

exactly 31 days till my darling goes into army......how will i get enough time to spend proper time with him?????




4th May, 2005

This feels so so good...if only life could be this simple...hahha....but it's all wishful thinking.....I finally woke up from a much-needed sleep after sleeping at 2 am last night........why am I off today? Because we suddenly got notice that Les Amis is open on Sunday evening due to it being Mother's Day......and because I'm going over to AJ next week, they have no choice but to give me an off by this week....sighz....and I thought I could really spend Mother's Day with my Mom...but oh well, at least I get to cook dinner tonight........

hmmm....didn't write on Monday coz I went out with my darling's family for their celebration of Mother's day....went to Din Tai Fung at TM to eat....waited for an hour...but the food ain't very fantastic...somehow, I feel it is over-hyped...what with the seating and all....still feel that Crystal Jade is somehow better with its variety of choices and service.... then we went to Gelare to eat...still enjoyed myself....................haha...it was a great day lahz.....then I went to work with my pot of Lotus soup for Regina to drink...and it's so dumbass...we only had 9 guests....but because the last one came in at 9.30, we didn't finish until 11 plus....cannot make it sia.....

Oh ya...on sunday night, i ended up having pizza with my darling for dinner...haha...indulging myself in food everytime i'm off...somehow feel that my tastes have become more expensive after working at Les Amis....but it can only be expected lah....with all the good food that they have.....

Called my nanny on Monday......she kinda missed me....think i'll probably go stay with her when my parents go on their trip in June...it's nearer to where i'll be working then anyway...and surprise surprise...Mr Teow, my course tutor for my first half year in SHATEC, called me up last night....hehe...talked to him about work and all.....did i ever tell you that out of our entire existing kitchen brigade here in Les Amis, 4 of us are ex-SHATEC graduates?? So weird rightz.....haha......

Sighz....a sudden off, and I don't know what to do for today..except to try to enjoy myself today since my weekend is all gone...catched up on this week's CSI last night.....then my darling watched the Liverpool vs Chelsea match alone....sighz...wanted to watch with him, but I couldn't even keep my eyes open.....anyway, LIVERPOOL WON!!! hahaha.......i'm so happy, i even dreamt of it last night after my darling told me.......finally...Chelsea's ego has to be reduced....but seeing as they won the Premiership already, I don't think it really matters anyway......

Will probably go for Ascension Day mass tonight, so that I don't have to wake up so early tomorrow to go for the 6.30 am mass...wonder if i'll finally see my big brother today......

Few more days, and I'll be leaving Les Amis.....dunnoe wat to expect from AJ, but at the same time, also sad to leave this happy group of pple...life's great at the moment without Gunther.....and am left on my own much of the time now, coz I know mostly wat to do already....sighz......so gonna miss this place............

35 more days, and my parents will go off on a trip.......

37 more days..and I've to say bubbye to my darling.......

38 more days, and i'll be all alone..... =(

1st May, 2005

What a weekend.....sighz..the bruise on my arm got REALLY bad...and now my arm looks like I was abused by my darling.....It's so sore, and I can't even lift my arm up...couldn't be helped...Saturday was a busy day, and yupz.....had to carry lotsa stuff, something I'm not supposed to be doing a day after donating blood...but like I had a choice....

anyway, On Saturday night, I went to watch Coach Carter..and it was, as expected, a rather predictable movie...but....the storyline, and the screenplay was great...Samuel L. Jackson was perfect for his role...and boy, did he screw his team up....2500 pushups??? I think they're like STRONG man.......it's a great show though, and is really funny with good play between the characters.......did I mention that I watched the Pacifier 2 weeks ago too? It was like super funny lahz.......Vin Diesel is funny in that role...but I liked it coz it was action, family, romance, drama, all rolled into one...so ya...despite the rubbish reviews for both these shows, I feel that they are great films.......

Finally fulfilled one of my lifetime's greatest dreams...to watch Lord of the Dance...they're like WOAH man.........took my breath away with the show, and it was SO entertaining..the dancers were great...the audience was great, and the whole atmosphere was power!!! It was so so so good...bought myself a shirt...for memory....and bought the program too.....it's like so bloody cool...can't get it off my head...the sound system is wonderful too....but, it would have been even better if Michael Flatley himself had been performing........sighz...i'm still in "dreamland"...still can't believe i'd actually watched it already...........do u know how good Michael Flatley is? His record in the Guiness Book is like 35 taps per second!!! Just go count how inhumanely fast that is........

It's been a totally wonderful and unbelievable weekend...convinced my brother, Luke to go to Les Amis to eat someday....the food may be expensive, but man, it's a whole experience you're paying for, the atmosphere, the service, the food and the wines...and every single one of them is worth the darn money man.....so fast...it's my last week before I leave.....to go to Au Jardin.....sighz....my colleagues are all telling me funny stories.........I don't doubt them though....it's like the shift at AJ is 3-11 pm....but apparently, due to the large amounts of mise-en-place that they have to do, they are usually there by 11am....sheesh...it's really quite scary..and it's so inaccesible.......can u imagine if we were given a break? I wouldn't even like know where to go lahz......seriously though...everything is great at Les Amis...I'm already good friends with most of them there, we're close to town (even though that means things are more expensive) which makes it more convenient, we're off on sundays, and the split shift helps me to save money, the staff are all great....sighz....and there's not much to do coz everything is a la minute.....but......Gunther is the big headache....if I can deal with him, i tell you, life would really be smooth-sailing........but seriously...he's the only factor...the rest of the outlets, i'll just have to wait and see how things are like......but they already lost on one factor...location......so yup...i'll just have to weigh them out myself.....

Hmmm..dunnoe wat's for dinner, gonna be eating with Luke and Marilyn and my darling...... we'll just see....my parents just went for a wedding dinner......tomorrow, I only start work at 5.30pm!! Yeah....can spend time with everybody I need to...probably fill in another entry tomorrow.....before I go to work.....

40 days before you go into army........ =(