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25 August 2005

Yay, it's a wonderful Thursday evening....2 more days till i get to see my darling again...I simply cannot wait......this week, i'm like missing him like crazy....I have no idea why....maybe it's coz I feel unbelievably lonely at Coq n Bull, despite the fact that I'm able to get along relatively well with my fellow colleagues...but ya, i'll talk abt that later.....and my poor darling is in the drill squad for his games day, so these past few days he's been training till like 10+, and thus he gets lesser sleep than usual...the poor boy....I've promised to pamper him over the weekend.... it's so weird, but, both darling and myself actually think that my brother, Luke, as well as my parents are actually caring for him a lot more now that they know of our plans......just last week, my mum bought a tin of Butter Cookies for darling to bring to camp...then, this week, she bought the Marriot Mooncakes, with the intention of letting him eat as well....sighz....i guess it's probably coz he'll be her only son-in-law!! haha....

Anyway, yup, like I mentioned, I do feel rather lonely here at Coq n Bull...maybe coz the politics is so strong here, that you can even smell it in the air....i'm so not kidding abt that....and ya, thus, everyone is like putting on a show....they don't seem to present their true self, and you can't help but feel that they're gonna be talking abt you and what you've done once you've left the place.....so, even if i do speak to them, i can't help but feel that I can't exactly trust them.....i've been popping round to Sebastien's a lot....and especially when business is slow, i really do miss the adrenaline rush over there.....it doesn't help that friends that i've found rather akin to my character, and people i find easy to talk to are there.....of course, there are similar people over at Peperoni's, but their thinking is somewhat different from mine, which makes it rather difficult sometimes to convey certain views and thoughts.....At Sebastien's it's kinda more open, and the friendship feels more real, and i can truly feel the concern from some of them.... *shrugs*

Ah well, wondering where my darling is...coz it's already past his lights out time......sighz...i miss him so.... told my nanny and her husband abt our plans, and they seem fully supportive as well....i still find it kinda hard to believe that our elders are actually taking it so easily.... =) whilst 2 years seem so far away....yet, to put it in months, it's like, in 28 more months, i'd actually be lawfully married to him!! it seems so much faster that way....i guess that things will seem even faster once he's actually "popped" the question...haha....i'm actually still wanting him to propose even though our plans are already laid out!! =) such an ass right....but...that's just me....hehe.... but not to digress, once he's done so, he'd have set things in motion, and we could actually start discussing things properly with both familes, etc, and see what we really need to do....hmmm....speaking of all these, i'm actually only missing him even more......can't wait for him to come home.....next week's gonna be a short week, coz he's gonna be booking out on friday...and then, it's POP on the 6th!! weehee!!!! 2 weeks with my darling....sighz..... just the thought of it is enough to place me in seventh heaven, and in total contentment........... =) till then......... =)





22 August 2005

I'd wanted to write yesterday, but, my goodness, it took like forever for the page to load up! so I thought i'd try my luck today morning, before i go off to work.... Anyway, life at Coq n Bull is like so weird. Business is really really slow.....during lunch, we can get like only 1 or 2 tables....and it's really quite pathetic.....even on a saturday afternoon, we got only a max of like 4 tables. And the restaurant space is so huge. I wonder how they even come close to breaking even. Dinner's not so bad...but....sighz.....and then i keep running back to Sebastien's to see them, lend them a hand if they need.....i told the outlet chef to kinda put in a good word for me to the area chef to see if i could be transferred back to Sebastien's soon since they don't exactly have enough people....and after all, Coq n Bull obviously have more than enough people...........whilst they are nice to me at Coq n Bull, I can't help but feel that it's quite a waste of my time sometimes.......sighz.....i really really hope the chef will be kind enough to grant my wish.....

Isn't it funny? The place I used to dislike most has turned out to be one of the places that I like the most....I'm even thinking of staying there permanently....now...the contest is between Sebastien's and Canteen...and whilst I really wanna stay at the former, it's like quite evil coz I'd already told the latter the last time round...... =( guess i shouldn't have spoken so soon.....but it's like both outlets are busy, which is good for me, coz I like an environment where it's challenging, and well, you've to depend largely on your "flexibility" and ability to handle sudden influx of a large number of guests....in the long run, you'd be more or less ready for any number......however, at Canteen, it's like when we're busy, i turn out more stressed, coz we've to handle both restaurants...in Sebastien's though, we take the customers as if they are playpieces...and welcome them....and at the end of it, we'd look back and say, oh, it lasted for only an hour.....and at Sebastien's, I've also grown quite close to most of them, and I've found myself a rather close friend....so, that makes working quite easy too...and politics isn't erally strong here either.....whist it may be present (just that i haven't noticed it much yet), the words of the ones who matter holds...so there's like relative respect given to them....and everybody kinda enjoys their job...besides the usual complaints...they take their job with pride....but, well, it's 2 more months before i really need to decide....so, we'll see... =)

So ya, darling and myself had a really wonderful weekend......coz i'm on morning on saturday, we decided to celebrate our 32 month anniversary in advance....we went to PS for dinner, and had Manhattan's Fish Market's food...it's a cheaper version of Fish and Co., but with more variety on their menu....however, the quality cannot beat Fish and Co.'s. But, we enjoyed ourselves, and then, we just window shopped along PS, and well, we indulged ourselves in buying 3 really cute stuffed toys..sighz..this is so bad for health..i can't help but think that our home will be filled to overflowing with toys!!! =) haha....it was really nice coz it's been so long since we had dinner on our own, in our little world, talking and spending time as if we had all the time in the world.....then we came home, i updated him on the research i'd done for our wedding so far....then we watched some tv together, and slept..... =) After church the next morning, we came home and took a nap and then had a nice lunch of my mum's Nasi Lemak.....had wanted to watch Must Love Dogs, but we ended up not going in the end...then we just walked around TM, see whether there was anything worth buying or that we needed to buy, then we came back to my place, took another short nap before we left for his home......at his place, we planned out the timeline from now until the big day, with all the things we needed to do and all, whilst he was packing......and yup, soon after, he had to book in again.......although i'm still feeling lost and rather sad about it, but this week was so wonderful, and i felt we'd maximised every min of our time together, that i'm also quite contented...and anyway, i guess the week will pass before i know it...and soon, he'll be booking out again....... =) 2 more weeks till he passes out from BMT...then we'll see where he goes....i'll just have to keep praying that God will send him to the place that's not only the best for his future, but also the most stable route for us.......




14th August 2005

Yep, you're right....i've just said goodbye to my darling....and here comes another week...sighz....i just miss darling so much today... so sad to have to say goodbyes....tears almost rolled down my cheeks...but i had to control them coz i was in his parents' car.... why am i so emotional, you might ask...but it's purely coz the feeling of love that i have for him is so so strong...any minute without him feels almost horrible...and the only reason i'm writing this now is coz i need an outlet for my emotions.... =( funny how darling was sms-ing me to tell me that he misses me so much too, especially this week.....i guess that all that talk abt getting married and all somehow made us miss each other more each time we've to be apart....SIGHZ.....

Yesterday, Darling told his parents abt our plans, and they took it alright....they look at all the research that i've been doing lately, and i would think that they were rather impressed, and coz of our calculations and all, it's obvious that we ain't fooling around and shows that we've thought through the whole issue very carefully, and they gave us our blessings too...even for the fact that we're gonna have to stay at my place after the wedding......all our parents have given us their blessings and all, and i guess, now it's time to really start saving, and at the same time, start the real planning....it's funny how the rest of the entire world are warning us against it coz they think we're rushing into it, (besides my dear friend, Russell, of course... =) ) yet our families are totally behind us.....maybe coz they've seen how we've both grown together, how we've brought out the best in each other, and kinda felt that it'd last......true...many might ask why the hurry to get hitched when we're already so sure that we are gonna get married in the end? But the question i'd wanna pose back to them is, have you ever really felt so in love with someone that you know that if anything were to happen to them or to their families, you'd wanna be there immediately to give them your fullest support? i feel that we can only give them this kinda assurance when we are a fully fledged couple..coz then we would be legally related.....how else could we simply throw aside all of our commitments and rush straight to their side? Life's so unpredictable these days...you never know when you need to be there for your special someone.... i'm sure he's the man i wanna spend the rest of my life with, and he feels the same as well....and since we're both ready to step into a whole new world of responsibilities and opportunities... together with the blessings of our parents, i guess there's nothing much stopping us now..... =) It's quite sad when i hear the cynicism and pessimism arising from others' mouths when i tell them of my dreams... i may be idealistic and optimistic, but, for every sad story, i believe that there's another happy one....and why look at the weeds when u can admire the beautiful flowers?? anyway, it's the lives of darling and myself...and we've entrusted our future to God...He knows of our plans, and the way we plan to carry it out...we'll leave everything else to Him, and ask for His blessings...hopefully, all will go fine, and we'll be able to fulfill all of our dreams.......




12 August 2005

I just love the dolls when they sing that song in the movie...it's creepy..but really adorable.. hehe....i caught the show on Monday, 8th August...the whole cinema was like filled with children!!! so so noisy....i was so annoyed..but, they didn't stop me from enjoying my movie!! Johnny Depp was really good, and i feel that he played the part really well... he wasn't eccentric at all....and he sure didn't remind me of Michael Jackson!! It's an amazing show.....a really good one...i believe i'll buy the DVD, so that i can show my kids next time.. =)

Anywayz, yup, it's actually my official last day in Sebastien's tmr, but i guess i really wanna stay there somemore....so, i'll be going over to Coq n Bull for one month starting this coming Monday, then i'll return for 2 weeks....funny how i hated Sebastien's so much before, but now, i'm growing to really like the place..... =)

I ended up going for Asher's baptism on Sunday..and he's so unbelivably cute!!! It's so nice watching children, or rather, babies get baptised....and i love it when it's done at my church....coz like Father Timothy celebrated the Mass, and all the babies were like stripped, and kinda went full-body inside the water.....they cried, of course, but i think the process was so beautiful.... =) Asher's grown so big, and he really resembles his dad more and more....i think it's sad though, that his dad couldn't witness the baptism, coz he's like away and stuff.....sighz...imagine the difference he'll see when he returns since he's been away for like 2 months and all.........

Time passes so quickly.....in another couple of weeks, darling would have completed his BMT..then he'll be on to further tasks.....we'll leave it to the Lord to decide where he's best fitted for.....i told my mum abt my plans on Tuesday night too...and she was really supportive abt the whole idea.....she's so cool abt it, yet, when i was telling her abt all the plans that darling and i have made, i saw the tears in her eyes...i guess it's like my bro said.....she still sees me as her little girl, and i guess the determination with which i was telling her abt my plans made her realise that i've grown up already...and i guess the feelings are overwhelming since she's like happy for me yet, sad to "lose" me..........but she's like telling me that Robin's a really good guy and all, so she doesn't mind.......... i did all my research, financial planning and calculating that day....... it's so exciting...but so stressful!! hahaha.....then i told my daddy on like Wednesday morning, and he was absolutely shocked.........after he kinda took in the news, then he asked abt our plans, my plans for my career, robin's career, and whilst he never like objected, he told us to plan our future very carefully......hmmm..this is so great...now we've only got darling's parents to tell this weekend...i hope they won't mind too much, and that they'll support our decision.... =)

Spent a good few hours catching up with Marilyn too coz she came on tuesday for dinner..... then, yup, we had a really good time talking...haven't seen her in like forever...and she hasn't seen Robin either since before he got enlisted!! Man, she should see the change in his looks....he's really lost a lot of weight....my poor darling..i better start feeding him somemore since he's not getting enough food from the army....hehee....k lah....got to go eat dinner now....can't wait for my darling to come back tmr........




7 Aug 2005

Hmmm....turns out that all my fears were for nought....apparently, life is not bad at Sebastien's. Somehow, i feel that in the start, i ought to have been posted to Peperoni in my official schedule. Coz that's the "gathering place"...it's in the middle...and the slicing machine and sous-vide machine are there....thus, everyone has to like go there to do their stuff, and in a way, coz i'm there, they kinda get used to my presence and all, so, when i do go over to either Sebastien's or Coq n Bull, they already know who i am and what i'm there for, so they are more friendly towards me.....so at Sebastien's now, i'm actually in the cold side, but helping out at the hot side and the pastry side whenever i'm free enough to do so....and in fact, they kinda are alright to leave me alone to do the orders during service already....which shows that they trust me!! hehe...dinner operations can get quite busy...even on my first day there...man, can u believe that on a monday night, we had a full house??!! it's crazy, the people here at Greenwood.... so unlike typical crowds, and so unpredictable.....

Anyway, HR called me coz i told them that i'd be at Sebastien's, and thus, i've now like 6 weeks more to go at Greenwood...I told the area chef, Paul, to put me wherever he likes....after all, he knows which place needs pple..so he can just put me wherever.....

Sighz....i had a big fat quarrel with my best friend, Nora, yesterday...and i'm really quite pissed, but i don't wanna post it here, coz i don't wanna bitch abt her to the entire world....the point is though, that i'm quite fed up of what's been always happening between us, and whilst i'm always the one to eat humble pie, i've kinda decided that since she always says it's my fault that these kinda things happen, i shall then agree that it's my fault, and i won't like apologize...i'll leave her to do it, and if she doesn't, well, then so be it.........yup...it's a pity, it's been 7 years of friendship..but then again, after i like "bitched" to my mum, and my 2 best guy friends (who've been around in my life for at least 5 years), they all felt i shouldn't waste my time on her anymore.......coz they know abt all my quarrels, and they feel that it's always been like that, so... why bother to make myself so miserable all the time? But wat the hell.....

Hmm...darling's gonna be coming back today, and then he's gonna be around till like tuesday evening....This week's gonna be a short week without him.... coz after he books in on tuesday, he'll be back again on saturday! haha...so i'm like taking today off, and tmr as my Public Holiday...i'll work on National Day from 9-5...then...rush home to send darling off...and then, have my sunday off again... =)

You know, regarding my wedding plans? There's been a change once more.....hehe..... we may actually go ROM like at the end of next year..... then prepare for our wedding ceremony when we are like 22....then...we'll stay at either his place or my place...and slowly save up until we get enough to buy our dream home, together with all its renovations done up.......in that way, we'll save all the big headaches that most couples usually get from having to spend on the wedding, as well as the home, and then be up to their necks in instalments and financial commitments.....and also, we'll kinda be able to get used to married life without having to pay for so many bills at the start of our marriage........my bro suggested that...and both me and darling think that it's not a bad idea...the only problem being that we've already told our parents that we'll only get hitched in 3 years time...so now that it's been shortened by so much......we're not sure if they'll be happy abt it....besides, darling's house is already very cramp, since there's so many people living there.....so it's obvious that we'll be staying at my place...and i'm not too sure if his parents will be unhappy abt that.....sighz.......i can only discuss it in detail with him later before making our decision, then telling our parents abt it...actually, i've kinda told my mum...and she hasn't really like agreed or disagreed.....i think she just thinks ii'm mad!! haha......sighz....will just keep praying abt it and see how things go.... =)

hmm...will probably be meeting edmund in a couple of hours......but then, asher's baptism is at the 6pm mass..and im not sure if i can go, coz i dunnoe when darling's gonna reach singapore...and i really wanna be there to pick him up coz i miss him so much....wanna bring squashygirl along to see him too.......such a headache... =) but a good one!! hehe.......can't wait to watch charlie and the chocolate factory...think it'll be so cool....like a childhood dream come true with all the chocolates and stuff...sighz.....contentment.....haha...k then...i'll like end off here...do the stuff i need to do...then go pick darling up!!!!!


darling...can't wait to see you..........miss miss you......