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It's officially been 20 days since my last blog post.

Those of you who haven't heard from me yet are probably wondering why I haven't posted in such a long while. You're probably also wondering about my health, and why i've been sounding so moody and unlike Pet in the last few posts.

Well, today, after telling/disclosing what I've been "hiding" for the last few weeks to the people who would read my blog, I guess it's time for me to post my "news" here.

I am officially 12 weeks pregnant.

shocking? yes, I know. It's totally unplanned for, but well, we've decided right from the start to leave the family planning up to God because He has better plans.

am I happy and excited? I really have no idea.

Maybe coz I'm not exactly having an easy time out of it......what with having to deal with school and the deferment of my practicum due to baby being due in March next year........ plus the interruptions with camps and stuff......and most importantly, my school assignments and travelling time, and add to that, the fact that I'm suffering from vomitting spells almost every day........ motherhood sure ain't an easy road........

I'm just hoping the toils on my health takes an easier road soon.....because it is quite unbearable..... Plastic bags are now my new best friends..... because they are my puke bags.

But i'm just hoping things take a turn for the better soon.......darling's super super excited though, and i guess Baby is his new motivation in life.......many worries in my mind though, and i guess i just have to keep reminding myself that God has better plans, and having entrusted this gift to us, He definitely has His reasons for this timing, so I just have to trust in Him.........




hmmm..... long time since i blogged.......... many things to say, but shall be limiting and censoring some items......because the time is not ripe yet.

I am still feeling relatively unwell. It's a challenge finding food I can eat....sighz......... I just hope this gets better soon..........

Anywayz...it's been an eventful first week at school. Kinda hard trying to get back on study form after not doing anything since april.......it also sucks travelling from tampines to boon lay every day........sighz....do u know a 2.5 hour journey to school really kills????? Of course it don't help either that I'm not in my best of health right now. But I guess I've to hang in there don't I? This semester is gonna be a tough one......lots and lots of assignments, and I already have a group presentation in full mode.....sighz....

ah well...... a short brief on the whole week......

I think retreat went rather well, albeit a little short..........I guess we didn't expect everyone to turn up on time for us to start at exactly 1.30! But, I think that we, as organizers, think too much of how our participants will react, so much so that we sometimes forget that we want them to learn something.......on the other hand, I guess the participants often come to a program with so much expectations that it's a little hard to live up to it........... as I said in Curia today.....come for every activity with an open mind, and an open heart, and be ready to accept what will be offered. Only then can you benefit from the activity most.

Watched the opening ceremony of the Olympics the other night...... it was FANTASTIC. I didn't expect anything this much. But I guess China really pulled out all the stops for this event....... and they really do have the manpower to carry out such a large scale activity. I think it's really really nice.....they really helped to make the Chinese proud, and create a name for themselves. A combination of their rich history together with the abilities of their modern technology produced a superbly breathtaking opening night............

NDP was....alright. I had expected more. But I guess that is largely due to the spectacle from the Olympics opening ceremony. I guess the whole feel is missing now that they've shifted the entire ceremony.......I feel that the focus has somewhat changed.....but, there was a lot of work going on backstage....and I guess it's the work of the people....... =)

Hmm...had Curia today. Dismal attendance, as has been the case lately........I guess my health is zapping energy out of me, and it really took a lot from me today to pull out energy to attend today's meeting. Just kinda discouraging when you see so few people. Ah wells.....I really don't know what to say..........

Went for lunch after at Sakae.......didn't eat much coz of lack of appetite....... then went to watch Love Guru with Nigel and Angela. I actually think it's a not bad show. If you're watching it at face value, then ya, it probably is lame ass, overly crude sexually, and rather shallow.......But, if you take into account the wordplay that Mike Myers tried to work into the plot, the puns and innuendoes that he weaved so cleverly into every single part of the show, the jokes which required some thinking to actually laugh at, well, I think it's a bloody good job........ He was funny in his own right, and it took a lot of thinking to concoct up such plays on words...........so, I do think it's a not bad movie.....definitely deserving more than the 1.5 star rating it had received.....

hmmmm..... will stop here for now...... don't think i'll be writing much anytime soon.........not until time is ripe....




it's been a week since i last posted.

have been feeling extremely extremely lousy lately. my tummy's acting up like no one's business and i feel super miserable. this entire week has been hellish. i have no idea how i'm gonna last through tomorrow, or even monday, when i start school again. Just the mere thought of the train ride to boon lay makes me feel sick already.

i try to think happy thoughts, to keep my spirits up, but i just can't.

i'm really feeling miserable.

doesnt' help that darling is getting busier at work with the ndp only a week away and all........ i only feel safe when he's around...... so today has been super terrible for me........

pulled myself up to go for novena.......and i was fine.....until i came home, and once again, i felt like crap.

sigh.

i can't even last the walk to TM, or even stand to complete a full rosary. That's how weak I am right now.

i wish this was easier for me, but i know it's my cross to carry, and it's something i have to work my way around.

on hindsight though, because i'm home in bed all day, i've been praying a lot.

been reading about the miracles of the rosary, and it kinda makes me sad and guilt-ridden to know that people all around the world place so much importance on this beautiful prayer, and that it has worked so many miracles for them, yet to us, we almost see it as a chore, something we need to complete as quickly as possible, for it's just a part of the meeting. Am trying to ddevelop my love for the rosary once more, for Mary has truly helped my family in more ways than I can imagine.............

right now, i just hope i last through tomorrow.........