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27 more days to go.
I dunno if I ought to be freaking out! =D

There's still some stuff left to be confirmed, but we are otherwise more or less prepared.....gonna be spending the next few days doing the wedding favours, and preparing some decor.....Darling and myself have decided to do quite a fair bit of the decor for the banquet as well as for the car ourselves coz it'll save us more money, and will be far more personalized.... Just hope that everything works out though.... We went to Ikea yesterday to get more ideas for the decor, and it sure was a fruitful trip. We sourced out plenty of stuff...which is real good.

Collected our rings, and I can't wait to put them on!!! haha....

We'll be confirming our decor tomorrow; the church caterer, and the table layout for the dinner.
Will be collecting the first part of the wedding favours on 1st Dec.
Food tasting on 2nd Dec.

Lots of DIY stuff to be done from after the camp till 15th Dec.
Need to re-colour my hair....do another session or two of manicure/pedicure...

I've done like 10 checklists coz I don't feel secure enough when there's so much to be done!!!

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On another note, it's Mama's birthday tomorrow.... was supposed to go to St. Michael's for Mass today so that I can visit her niche.......but I'm not feeling very well....was plagued by a very bad blocked nose the entire night, and I couldn't sleep....my nose is still annoying me....... have decided that I'll go for both the morning and evening Mass tomorrow to pray for her.....

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Camp is in 3 days?? I just hope all goes well for the YGZ........Darling and me are still unaware of our roles during the camp...Much as we want to be involved.....the thought of the amount of things that we have to get done is another daunting factor.....I'll probably be bringing lots of things to do over there during the night so that I make full use of my time in camp....

The YGZ seem to be rather well-prepared.....and so far...they have been doing well...it's all up to the execution now....and with the fact that both their Camp Chief and Vice-Camp Chief ain't gonna be around 24 hours each day, it's really gonna be a big test for them esp since they are all new to this.......

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Really have lots to do......so.....shall continue working on them and not procrastinate!!!




I can't believe it.
Though I know my wedding is nearing....but counting down the days just makes everything seem much more real....and much more scary!

Am I supposed to get pre-wedding jitters??
In all those movies you see....the bride is often awfully anxious and jittery before the wedding.
But what are those jitters about??
The life ahead? The day itself? Wondering if you're making the right choice??
*shrugs*
I really don't know.

All I know is....I definitely do not feel jitters about my life ahead....because we are contented, and we've got everything that is under our control planned.......neither do I feel jitters about whether I'm making the right choice.....because I know I truly am...
As for jitters about that day itself...well, that is somewhat overwhelming me every now and then.

Those of you who know me personally would know that this is all only too normal.... I worry about anything and everything....=D But I do worry if everything will go on fine....as planned.... to say the truth.....much as I can't wait to say I do....to be overwhelmed with the multitude of emotions when I walk down the aisle to Darling who's waiting for me at the other end......I truly can't wait for 22nd of December to be over and done with......
Angela thinks I'm mad. I think I'm only sane. There's so much involved that I can't help but feel that way.......As I so often quote the apt saying of the Engaged Encounter, A wedding is a day, a marriage is a lifetime. I await not the day...but the life ahead....

Granted....I am anxious and eager to put on my gown and look stunning. haha.....I do want to be the centre of attention for the day. I do want to hear the oohs and aahs from my loved ones and friends. I do want to see all the preparation that Darling and me have been going through for the past 1.5 years to all take shape and present themselves in a perfect, beautiful and wonderful package.

Yet....all these are nothing compared to knowing that I can spend the rest of my life with the one I love most.






Exams are finally over.....sighz....really don't know how I will fare.....I spent like 90min on 72 MCQ questions...and at the end of it, I feel confident only for 37 questions...which is like 51%?? Just hope that everyone else doesn't do very well...haha..then they will probably moderate.....hehe....

Although my holidays have officially started...but it sure don't feel that way...not when there's so much to be done!!! I still have my GESL activity to carry out this Saturday, after which I'll be officially clear of NIE activities until next year at least.

The invitations are finally ready....Darling and me are busy writing the cards.....

Darling is down with some mild food poisoning.....ate some wrong food...got some intestinal virus...poor baby...am keeping him on a diet of porridge and macaroni soup, yet his stomach is still churning.... I think it is quite bad....Doc gave him quite a fair bit of medicine...... really hope he gets better soon........

Hur....please keep us in your prayers for the wedding prep....really getting ourselves in a muddle over some of the things.....those who are majorly involved, you know what I'm talking about...... sighz...it's just so hard to please everyone, yet everyone still wants to be pleased....I really don't know what to say.... Just hope everything works out somehow.......

Gonna finish up the videoshoot tomorrow....I can't wait to select the wedding photos!!! It sure is gonna be some fun....... =D




It's been a busy weekend.

Miss the feeling of going to camps as a facilitator, yet, I have to say that I am glad for the break. To say the truth, I really wonder how Darling and myself would have managed if we were to be camp facilitators this year!! But I do enjoy watching them grow, watching them bond.....after all, these people are the next era of leaders...and if they do succeed, it would only be for our good!! =)

I haven't studied for my Science test tomorrow. I think I'm not gonna do well. I can't bring myself to study, coz it's things that I not only lack interest in, but things in which I don't really understand despite all the lectures and tutorials on them.....

The wedding preparations are getting insane....yet, things are falling into place gradually bit by bit.....my wedding invites are coming tomorrow.....i hope my parents will have a change of heart whilst writing them and not invite the entire world... Luke thankfully gave me lots of ideas to make my dinner a much more beautiful and lovely event....I do hope it works out though...have to pray very very hard.....

The first thing everyone does when they see me is to ask me about the wedding. I don't know if they are interested, or if they are just curious?? haha..... but it was nice to see that my extended family took so much interest in it yesterday...after all, I'd always been the odd one out in my extended side of the family......

I can't wait for tomorrow to be over....then I can finally let go of school stuff, and focus 80% on the wedding prep, whilst spending another 20% on legion stuff.....It's time to start exercising, start tanning to get my healthy golden tan....=p of course, the other minute details that still have to be attended to........as for Legion stuff, much as we're supposed to start leaving them alone, but I guess Darling and myself are still pretty much worried about them..not so much about the camp, for I guess we don't really wanna impose ourselves on them during the camp... but the other events that would be coming up shortly after that....

I now understand what an ex-colleague of mine whose wedding was in July meant when she said that once the wedding is over, you can't help but feel a sense of emptiness coz all that you have spent the last few months worrying about is finally and really over....... When January arrives, I think I'll really feel a little bit lost coz I no longer have to think about the wedding stuff!!! Guess that only proves I'll have to spend much more time worrying about Legion things.... =)









Just got back from my English final term test.
I don't know how I made it through. It could only be possible with His help...His hands guiding me through, telling me whereabout in my book to search for answers relevant to the questions in my test.

Was on my way to school this morning. Had wanted to reach school early so that I could get a warm drink before i went for my test. However, on my way there, I felt really sick and like I was gonna puke and faint.

The train was only going to reach Eunos.
It was 7.20am.
My test was at 9 am.
I had no bag.

I decided to get off the train, but i could barely walk straight or even see what was in front of me. Thank God the benches on the platform were straight ahead.
I walked right into one.
I sat down and asked the person next to me to get help.

The staff at the station came up, and brought me to their office to rest.
Walking there, the world suddenly began to blur...my legs had no strength.
I nearly fell.
They brought me to their sofa, and I closed my eyes.

I didn't know what I was feeling.

After resting for awhile, they made some Milo for me, and gave me some biscuits.

I contemplated whether to go home or to go to school
Darling was on his way to work. I didn't know who to call. There was no reception.
I worried coz I didn't dare not to go school as I didn't want to take my test another day.
I worried coz I feared that I would be late for the test.
I was afraid that if i got up, I wouldn't make it to school.

I rested till 7.45am.
I decided to leave for school...and I prayed really hard that God would help me......
The train came.
It was packed.
I nearly died from the thought that I might have to stand all the way.
I called Darling. I cried.

God helped me. At the next stop, someone got off.
There was a seat, and no one else wanted to sit.
I quickly sat down, and prayed that I would last the journey, and that I wouldn't be late.

I got to school on time, and my friends helped save me a seat.
Thank God.....

Went to see a doc....he confirmed it is a viral infection of the throat.
Am supposed to rest....
For the first time, I'm voluntarily taking my medicine. *smiles weakly*




humph..... my voice has totally changed....i'm coughing like no one's business and my nose is constantly blocked. Feels like crap.....

really lots and lots of things to be done......kinda glad that i only have 2 more weeks of school.....monday's my english final term test....next tuesday's my science final test......kinda worried abt both coz I don't have much confidence for either...but.....will just do my best......

today and tomorrow is kinda packed.....darling's gonna be recalled back to camp...where he'll mark his attendance and come back....then we've got to go help my "daddy" do some packing..i think coz he has some stuff he wants to pass to me......gonna meet Maria later tonight to do some discussion about the weeding stuff.... Liverpool vs Blackburn tonight at 1.10am.....

then yup, tomorrow morning, we'll be heading down to st. michael's church for mass, then I'll go pay my respects to Mama.... and then we'll go pay respects to Darling's grandpa...may have to teach the YGZ their camp dance tomorrow....so...... it may be another full day out......

Btw.....the final lindy 2 class was fantastic...our original instructor wasn't around, so this other guy came in....and he was really nice, helped to clean up all the tiny mistakes that we had unknowingly picked up over the weeks......so now we look more smooth and pro as compared to what we were..... =)

will probably continue going for lindy 3, since I don't see why we should stop...haha....we went for swing fling after our lindy 2 class, and darling and me danced 3 songs, after which another guy asked me to dance...so it was quite fun.....hehe....looking at the pole dance instructor whilst we were there, am really tempted to take up pole dance next year once everything is over!! haha...either i'll take up pole dance or exotic dancing...but am still thinking!!

taking much advantage of my time at home now...so am reading non-stop..doing what i loved best once more....haha......love escaping from my world into the world of books and just block everything else out......=)




Darling's great-grandma's funeral is finally over. yet, we can't help but feel that she didn't go very peacefully nor happily.

We watched over her for the last night.... and many many weird things kept happening. Even when I pray the Rosary for her, I can't help but feel uneasy...as if she is very unhappy.

It's the first cremation I went for where no one shed a tear when she was being cremated. Even at the last look of the corpse... it was the maid that cried the most. *shrugs* if I were to die, and this is what happened, I would be very very upset. I would think that my entire life on earth was just a waste.

It's sad that things like that happen....when people can't let go of unnecessary emotions to just do their best for the dead person.....they kept no remnant of her in the home...every single thing was thrown away. That hurt even more, for the great grandmother has lots and lots of antiques.......I helped to pack.....she has calendars from 1969, 1975, 1988, 1989....lots of newspaper cuttings, and many many more things........not even her photos were kept.

I couldn't help but compare the difference between my grandma's funeral, my nanny's funeral, and this one....the difference is so so much....

Sigh....it's just a pity that things like that happen...............

On a different note, we've almost completed our wedding MTV already....we still have the lip-sync to be done, coz we finished much later than expected due to many unforeseen circumstances.......

Now, we're just waiting for the invites to be done, and a proper menu from the caterer for the church reception.......the favours to be confirmed, the floor plan and decor for the dinner to be confirmed...deciding on specific persons for helping roles...... and i believe other minute details....

It's only 51 more days!!!!!