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Tuesday, June 28, 2005

28 June 2005

hmmm....would have written over the weekend, but i guess time with my darling was really far too important for me.... =) spent a wonderful weekend with him......we've grown so much in our relationship.........it's different now....we no longer need to express what we think or want to say.....our emotions for each other has surpassed everything...we can feel how much each loves the other just by being around each other....i guess my fears were all for naught.....it was all rubbish...guess i was just feeling so lonely that my thoughts just kept running wild.....but we had a great time together...........watched Batman Begins, as well as Initial D....both were really good shows......worth the money......

so yup.......i actually kinda decided.....probably going back to the canteen to work permanently.....location, working condition, people.....i guess....those 3 criteria really mean a lot to me....and that place has scored in all 3......chef asked how i found it there, and whether i wanted to extend my internship at the place...i take that to mean that i'm more of a help than a hindrance!! =) haha......at least it's both ways.......told HR already.......after all, the next 3 places i'll be going to is at Dunearn, and logically speaking, it's REALLY too far.....so.......it's too out of the way for me to even drop by, i guess.........

had a really lousy day today though..........kept injuring myself.....felt so out of sorts...coz obviously nobody "sayang" me after i injured myself so many times........and plus the frustration of work...sheesh........coz the counter fridges spoilt yesterday....and weirdly enough, it's when these things happen that everything else goes wrong......everybody seemed to be asking for a la carte orders today instead of the set lunches......causing me to have to run in and out of the chiller so many times today........sighz....dunnnoe how to put it...but it was just a really tough day........

hmmm...know how people always say that moths are actually souls of the ones who've left before us??? there seems to be a moth near my home everyday now that my granny has gone.....it's quite funny.....and it's always leading the way for me to come home......from the lifts to my stairs...each night.........kinda feel my granny's presence with me.......even though she's gone....and i feel kinda comforted...especially since i'm always feeling so alone now that darling has gone back to camp........ =)

my dear looks so cute with his hair all gone....but he looks good...just really young...like a small little boy..... =) at first, seeing him in a Number 4 took me quite some getting used to, as the only other person i've seen in one lately was zhiqi.....and the fact that both of them are almost of the same height...(robin's taller), and with the same spectacles and all.......i was really in a state of shock.....but after a while.....guess he's the same old darling after all.....the change was brought about due to a sudden change in environment...and i guess, he was like me when i first joined SHATEC, and the guys' vulgarities got to me, and it became second nature for me to curse........he's in my shoes now...and seeing how he accepted it, whilst not condoning it, i guess i should do the same for him.... =)

oh well, got to go now........really need to get some rest.......don't think i'll be writing again till sunday, after darling books in once more...........

baby....miss you so....feel so lonely still..........but i love the way our relationship has grown...come out quickly.........before i die from missing you.... =)

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