♥ Eternity

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

22June, 2005

Finally....after 2 weeks of extreme loneliness, my darling will be coming out to keep me company already......another off day for me today.......how i wish it had been tomorrow instead of today, then i wouldn't have to be rushing tomorrow....sighz...had planned to be cooking a really nice meal with all of my dalring's favourite foods tomorrow....but his mummy called me yesterday to inform me that she would be off tomorrow....asked if i wanted to go over for dinner as she would be cooking for him.......sheesh...kinda spoiled my mood, but, i believe his parents miss him too, so why should i fight with them over him....darling said that he'll be eating my food for supper since his mummy's cooking!!! =) hehe....my sweet little darling....

Lately, i've been helping out at the cold side...mainly because my head chef not around...that side is his baby, and he's quite reluctant to let me move over to that side........i guess i would have been helping out there by now if not for the fact that i had been away for 5 days due to my granny's funeral....sighz...but these last 3 days, there's been so few people in the kitchen that i've been helping out every station.....whilst i may not be well-versed with every single area, but still, i can more or less handle the areas with a little bit of questions asked....hmmmz...i kinda really like this place, and hopefully they give me a good rating when i leave......it's very likely that i'm gonna come back here.....unless i really wanna pursue fine dining........life here is relaxed, yet on the other hand, has a family sort of feel.......everyday's business has its ups and downs, with its busy and relaxed moments....pple here are also very willing to teach me stuff...so....who knows, i may end up working at the canteen/lazy gourmet permanently??

Since i'm in the area, i often drop by to LA to see my old friends.....really miss that place...and Gunther really is quite poor thing......whilst i really dislike the way he talks to us sometimes, but, it's really sad lately, coz nobody talks to him anymore, unless necessary...and i guess it's quite a sad life, especially when you spend such long hours working together....but i don't blame my friends for doing that to him either, coz i know that sometimes the things he says can really cheese them off.......

really dunnno wat to do.........i wanna fulfill my dream of getting married in 4 years' time...but then.....i wanna pursue my studies so that i can achieve my career goal of working as a restaurant manager in the end.....maybe even higher if possible....sighz...so many thigns to think about before i make such an important decision..but i guess it'll all depend on whether i win a scholarship again....i hope i can...... =)

spent my entire day off going to buy groceries so i can bake some stuff for my darling to bring in to camp.....at the same time, also pamper him with food whilst he's out.....spent so much money lately buying gifts for him...sighz.......so worried that he's changed whilst he's inside.....though i talk to him on the phone each night, but lately, his change in language has really shocked me......although i knew that spending this much time with that many guys would definitely change him, i guess i wasn't ready for it yet.......hmm....whoever u are that's reading this, please pray for him to stay true to himself, and not let idiots in the camp change who my darling really is k??? i may be oversensitive like i always am...but i guess i'm worried that even if now the change may be insignificant, that sooner or later, everything will be different........ i guess i'll just have to put my trust in him............

hmm....one good thing about my day off.....i got more rest than i usually would have.....and i finally got in contact with some of my friends....bumped into angela, liza and edmund 0nline......i finally am speaking to friends.....do u know how rare that is lately?? with the hours i'm spending at work, life's almost reduced to only contact with my family.....i feel better talking to them.... =)

k then.....have to go do my stuff or i'll never get to sleep again....wish i didn't have to go to work tmr though..............but...oh well....what choice do i have?? I just hope the day passes quickly tomorrow.....

darling......i hope u'll stay who u are.........but even if u change, i'll still love u anyway.........do come out quick though...before i drive myself crazy waiting for you.......

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