In the blink of an eye, i've already finished my one month term at AJ....time passes so quickly......funny though, i guess i won't really miss the place.....it just feels so.........foreign...even after i've been there for a month...it doesn't feel like a family to me, as much as Les Amis does...sigh....really don't know...this last week stay there has kinda convinced me that i most likely wouldn't go back there.....the fact that i've to walk so far in makes it kinda unappealing to go to work every day......maybe it's coz my darling is going in to army already, and that's why i'd rather spend time with him than to go to work...but the distance i've to walk each day kinda adds to my unwillingness too....
Been crying a lot lately, much because of my darling......don't worry...he didn't make me cry....i'm just sad that he's gonna be away for so long....i've promised him to stay happy though...even though i know it's gonna be an uphill task.......how can my days possibly be happy without him around..he's the love of my life, and the light in my days....he's everything that puts a smile on my face...at the worst moment, and also at my happiest moment...i know i sound obsessed......we both are...with each other.....sigh..........already i'm planning what i can do whilst he's away so that the moment he's back, he'll know how much i've missed him over the days that he was away.....what makes everything worse is that i'll be working...and i'm so afraid that when he calls me each night from camp, i won't be there to pick up the phone coz i can't.....sighz.......i'll practically live on hearing his voice....so i don't know how i'll survive...i probably will, but i guess i'll barely get through each day......hmmmm..it's not making me feel better that he's not feeling well at the moment...been feeling feverish all day long...and i've been so worried about him......now he's lying on my lap as i'm doing this......my poor baby......
gonna be signing off soon as i wanna play sims...hehe...got to sleep early too...coz gotta go church tomorrow......then go shopping for my darling's stuff...spend some time with his family....then come home......gonna prepare pandan creme brulee for my darling and my parents, when they return from malaysia tomorrow evening..........such a dilemma soon..hope my mum will let me stay at my darling's house on wednesday night........coz he's leaving on thursday morning...my parents will also be leaving for Greece on thursday evening...sighz.....double loss for me.........have to decide if i'll be staying at home, or if i'll be going to my nanny's place.......really dunnoe.....the biggest headache if i go is that my dad's plants would be jeopardised.....and secondly, how i'll transport my squashybabies there as i wouldn't want them to be alone for 2 weeks, parentless.....i could stay, but i'd already told my nanny beforehand that i'll be going to her place to stay.....and i also haven't seen her in ages...but her place is so out of the way from Shaw Towers.....and...sighz.....but i guess i'll have to make a decision soon,....just finished a bood by Barbara Delinsky, "An Accidental Woman"....not a bad book...decide to put off reading until my darling leaves...wanna give him my fullest of attention over the next few days.......
Baby...i wish you didn't have to leave...nothing means as much as you do..........and no day will be bright now that you're leaving....
1:44 AM
Life is Beautiful
I love you not only for what you are
but for what you make of me.
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