♥ Eternity

Sunday, July 03, 2005

3rd July 2005

Now sitting at home...waiting for my darling to call me back....it's already 10.20pm, 10 mins before his lights out at camp......sighz...really dunnoe why i'm so so so tired today......both darling and me felt so strengthless the entire day....didn't feel like doing anything at all except just lazing around....

Saw Asher today at my cousin Alex's 6th birthday gathering today....Asher is my little nephew.....and he's just oh so cute!!!! He's so playful at 6 months old, and he keeps laughing....sighz...i just love babies....can't wait to have one of my own!!! how i wish time could just fly by so that i can soon marry my darling....why do we always say that money is not important when all we need is money to do things sometimes? If not for money, i'd probably already be happily married by now.......

Just put down the phone with my darling.......sighz....i miss him so so much........tomorrow, i'm gonna be starting a new life at Sebastien's....i really don't know what to expect, and am in so much fear of what i might face there.....i really hope that i can fit in....

Now that my darling is "gone" again, i feeel such a deep sense of loss..........feel so stranded and so unsure of what i want to do.............at a loss for words.......anyway, that picture on top is of our 2 famous squashybabies....the blue one is the girl, and the yellow one the boy...... =) anyway, i'll sign off here.....think i'll go sleep....kinda early actually, but then again, i've to wake up super early tomorrow as i'm afraid i'll get lost on my way to work.....hope that i won't fall ill tomorrow....scared people might think lowly of me if i take an MC on my first day.......

darling, you mean so much to me that every moment i'm without you makes me feel as if i've lost a part of myself....

10:16 PM