Friday, December 08, 2006
8th December 2006
I'm feeling very very very lost today. I have no idea why...i feel like in the whole process of my life from camp until now, I really don't know who i am anymore........ darling and me have had 2 fights...yesterday and today....i feel it's coz we've drifted apart....coz we assume we know what the other person wants, we assume that the other person is not doing enough for us.....and so, everything just seems wrong.....in a very large way, it's all my fault. I don't know if it's coz I haven't been having a proper social life since I started SHATEC, so now when i'm once more back in a circle of friends, i'm so eager to embrace it that i neglected the one most important to me. Of course, i didn't totally forget him..it's just that I somehow see him and my friends on the same level, esp Winson and Nigel....I keep thinking of the 3 of them together...somewhat like we are really a family, and, i guess in the process, darling felt super lousy and all. sighz....we've talked things out....and i sure hope things get better and all....anyway, ya, the really crazy thing i did? I actually spoke to Wan Jun, Winson's girlfriend....told her about my point of view and all, try to get her to understand Winson's position, etc, etc, etc... yes, i know, i'm a busybody...but that's just silly ol' me....i can't just stand in a corner and wait for things to happen...coz i need to see things happen......anywayz, it was all for the better...they have patched up, and i just hope that they will work things out...that he'll stop lying to her, and at the same time, she will try to understand his situation and feelings......hmm...work has been super busy these days....have been putting in 10 hour days since i came back to work...and i'm one of the least already....everybody's super busy coz of all the cake orders and christmas prep..and it doesn't help that the new outlet at Centrepoint just opened today.......sighz...am really super tired.........darling's also going for duty tmr....it sucks...it really does.....ARGH.....I really need some direction.............
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