Sunday, December 10, 2006
December 9th 2006
talking to my darling just now, over MSN, we've finally solved our problem..at least, theoretically.... =) i voiced my fears to him..my worries that things would never be the same again....as well as everything i mentioned in my previous post.....and in discussing that, we realised something very crucial.....ultimately.. we're feeling the way we do not only because of assumption and the fact that we've gotten so used to the way things are.....but also very largely because, we have lost ourselves in each other. We love each other so much that we want so badly to fulfill all the needs of the other party, and to us, spending time together seems to be the best way we can fulfill each other's wants and needs....whilst that is true, but sadly, in the process, we ended up losing ourselves.. because we compromised too much of ourselves...we gave up other things we needed, and we ended up adopting so much of each other's habits and character that at the end of the day, we lost ourselves..and we became confused and unsure of who we really were inside.....and in that process, we ended up wanting more out of the other party, expecting them to give us the assurance that we needed....but... of course, how could we give that assurance to each other when we didn't feel it ourselves...so...it became a vicious cycle...and we just got more and more dissatisfied...leading us to where we were...... also...due to the lack of time we had on our own, we had less time to do special things for one another to show how much we really appreciate each other.....even in our month-saries, we no longer gave gifts....instead, we just wished each other, and just had a meal together......we no longer had the chance to do special things..... and indirectly, we ended up feeling unappreciated...so now...after discussing all of these, we've decided that once a week, we need to take time off..to discover ourselves, to make us miss each other more...and to find ideas and things to do to surprise each other......and also to spend time with our own families and do what we need to do. hmmm...sounds good....i just hope it all works out in the end...... =)anywayz, ian, angela and myself are now planning our curia legion christmas gathering....everything sounds great and fun...and i just hope everything will go fine..... =) hmm..it's really late.......really need to go sleep.....can't wait for my darling to come back home..... !!
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