Sunday, December 10, 2006
10 December, 2006
today, we went for Curia meeting. It was eventful. but not good. i wasn't happy there. Many things happened. I got uplifted at first...then...i got disappointed...very very disappointed... by a person i had so much faith in......it was very upsetting. Nigel said words that really hurt me. He said words that would affect the discipline of everyone else. He disrespected us, his officers...and worst of all, he disrespected God. And i was very very disappointed. Darling wondered if he was too harsh when he dealt with the issue. I wondered if I had gone too far with my silent treatment. But as Darling and i discussed everything just now... i guess we did what was right. Whilst we were unhappy that only 3 presaediums turned up for meeting, i'm glad there weren't more....coz it would only make things worse. I don't know what caused nigel to say the things he did...to question what need there was in prayer...when his meetings and filled with fun and liveliness......but....there's a lot of wrong in that....without spiritual depth, we are all like plants in a drought....we have no food..nothing at all. That spiritual depth is what makes us who we are. It is what makes Legion special. We have fun....but we have a very close relation to Mary, to God, for we are their army, and we make it stronger through our spiritual life with them. How can you be something that you do not even believe in? If it were all about fun, then why do we even bother to have meetings? Why do we bother to do all these boring things? We might as well just meet up everyday.. have fun..and go back to lead our own lives?? Sighz........it hurt me even more because I had so much faith in him... I see potential in him...I know how far he can go.... but what he said...just caused me to fall back to ground...to realise that maybe..just maybe...no one else is ready... maybe God just wanted to remind us that our road ahead as Curia officers will definitely be rocky, and the road will be long....for our people are not ready as yet......and in telling us now, He wants to prepare us for the future.......Oh well.....anyway, i addressed the issue with Nigel later on....and...he apologised for acting the way he did....the issue is resolved. But that's only between us humans.....due to the close-knitted bond we have, i know that I would forgive him...and after a while, i'd probably forget abt this issue.....but....he has to resolve what happened today with God....ultimately... all things will have to be resolved with Him.....and we can't just regret....we have to do something abt it.....Hmmm...tmr's gonna be a good day. Darling and me are off. YAY! we'll be going to settle some stuff, and then probably pop over to Vivocity...haven't been there yet...feel so outdated already!! haha.....will try to source for ideas for christmas presents!! so stressful...... hehe....let's just hope our shopping trip is fruitful tmr!!!this is an interesting colour. i like it..but it still can't beat the happy feelings i feel when i see my blue and yellow colours.. hehe. happy happy evening with my darling....for the first time in forever, we just spent time walking around and around...not knowing what we are doing... not knowing where we're going...but just walking... enjoying each other's company... looking at things we wanna see...not caring abt the time, not caring what's gonna happen next....u know, it's so beautiful to have days like that.... i miss them so much....and we both just fell in love all over again.....i'm smiling as i'm writing this coz...it just reminds me how beautiful love can be...how lucky i really am to have someone who loves me this much next to me..... =)
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