♥ Eternity

Sunday, January 07, 2007

January 07, 2007

Isn't that such a nice phrase? I fell in love with it whilst at Mass on Saturday...it's so beautiful, and so meaningful. It's so true. Life can just be so tiring sometimes, and when u just wonder why, just remembering that it's going to be worth it at the end of it all, just makes everything seem so much easier.... =)

I've just returned from our Officers' Training Camp for the whole weekend. Well, turnout was expected, and I guess we all grew closer through the camp, coz it was such a small group and all, and I guess everybody learned something new or another.....my recons session was good, I made many people cry..haha...may sound sadistic, but it's not....I just wanted them to remember the importance of having people you love so much in your life again....coz we all take everyone else for granted.....

Anywayz, am feeling relatively tired...came back with Darling, and we slept until 8plus.....that's like super super terrible....coz I have ONE TONNE of things to do for tomorrow!!! Dunno why I'm still writing when I have so much to do, but, I guess I just need to clear my mind and relax a little..... We went to Popular to get more stationery for myself and my class, and also went to have dinner......

So...for the update on school!!! haha...It was good...not too bad.... realise that there's a lot to learn from dealing with children.... up till now, I think I am doing alright....not very well, but still manageable...I've gotten them to "respect" me and my position, and they understood it. They're playful, cannot sit still, and well, just mischievious, but, it's just kids...I don't blame them...in fact, if they ever do get out fo control, I would just blame myself for being unable to do what I should do. It's not their fault...it's mine, coz they don't know anything.....I am the one who's supposed to be moulding them into something better.... =) anywayz, yup, I guess my major fear would be trying to get them on the same level...coz of all the foreign students, all of them are at different levels right now.....they are all intelligent, and know what they should know...it's pretty much the language difficulty that is not making things easier for them and myself.....

Haha.....can you believe I actually forgot to bring a waterbottle to school? I almost died coz I was so busy I had no time to go get water!!! Man, I tell you, that's a mistake I must not repeat!!! Didn't have time to eat as well, coz I was trying to get settled down, and there was just so much admin to do. If things carry on like that, I would definitely lose weight without having to try! =p

Anywayz, now am focusing on going to plan my lesson schedule...will have to start teaching officially tomorrow...I just hope all will go well.......also got to start on doing my class decor....there's just so so so much to do...and I'm just feeling overwhelmed at the amount of work...but I guess that with time, things would get better.......it's funny...but dealing with the kids, and having to lower myself to their level, I realise I'm gradually becoming more patient, and I know how to use my voice to control the situation, to get attention, and I'm speaking slower too. It's weird since I've only been at school for a day.......even when I was in camp, I was inclined to talk to them like I talk to my kids!!! It's just an occupational hazard I guess....but..not a bad one, coz it's making me a better person!!! hahahaha

so....all has been good.....darling and me are trying to hard to be more understanding towards each other...and so far, we are doing quite well....I guess...well, with time...it's been 4 years.... we actually got carried away with ourselves.....but...the love for each other is still there, and we are very much still crazily in love....=)

nigel has not been feeling well, but I guess he's just not used to the amount of dust in the room we were sleeping in....coz it happened the last time we stayed there as well..and well, the symptoms he has are pretty much what I go through every morning.....so...it's not really serious...

hmm...okay then...it's eleven..i better get down to doing my work..... have to sleep early coz I need to leave the house by 6.15 tomorrow!!!!!! I hope I get enough sleep.......

I never said it was going to be easy.
I only said it was going to be worth it.

10:46 PM