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Just did a personality test.............here's the results...

Extraverted Sensing Feeling Judging

Provider Guardians take it upon themselves to arrange for the health and welfare of those in their care, but they are also the most sociable of all the Guardians, and thus are the great nurturers of established institutions such as schools, businesses, churches, social clubs, and civic groups. Wherever they go, Providers take up the role of social contributor, happily giving their time and energy to make sure that the needs of others are met, that traditions are supported and developed, and that social functions are a success.

Providers are very likely more than ten percent of the population, and this is very fortunate for the rest of us, because friendly social service is a key to their nature. Highly cooperative themselves, Providers are skilled in maintaining teamwork among their helpers, and are also tireless in their attention to the details of furnishing goods and services. They make excellent chairpersons in charge of social events. They are without peer as masters of ceremonies, able to approach others with ease and confidence, and seemingly aware of what everyone's been doing. And they are outstanding hosts or hostesses, able to remember people's names, usually after one introduction, and always concerned about the needs of their guests, wanting to insure that all are involved and provided for.

Providers are extremely sensitive to the feelings of others, which makes them perhaps the most sympathetic of all the types, but which also leaves them rather self-conscious, that is, highly sensitive to what others think of them. Because of this Providers can be crushed by personal criticism, and will work most effectively when given ample appreciation both for themselves personally and for the service they give to others. This is not to say that Providers are afraid to express their own emotional reactions. They are quick to like and dislike-and don't mind saying so-tending to put on a pedestal whatever or whoever they admire, and to come down hard on those people and issues they don't care for.

In their choice of careers, Providers may lean toward sales and service occupations. They have such pleasant, outgoing personalities that they are far and away the best sales reps, not only regularly winning sales contests, but earning seniority in any sales group within an organization. Observing Providers at work in a sales transaction reveals clearly how this type personalizes the sale. They are visibly-and honestly-concerned with their customer's welfare, and thus the customer is not simply buying the product, but is buying personally from the Provider. This same characteristic causes them to be good in many people-to-people jobs, as teachers, clergy, coaches, social workers, office receptionists, and so on. Providers seldom become a source of irritation in the workplace; on the contrary, they are unflagging in their devotion to their company, and show such personal loyalty to their immediate superiors that they make invaluable personal secretaries.




Am suddenly feeling very melancholic.....feeling very very deep in thoughts.....so many things that I am thinking about.........much as i seem sure of the path I am taking in my life, I can't help but be aware that there are actually many many "what ifs" in my life.......purely because I've taken so many drastic decisions that change my life so greatly. And sometimes, when I'm alone, when I get into moods like that, I can't help but think about my life...and all the "What ifs" surface............

throughout all the changes that I've come across......I guess the reason why i'm so stuck to my legion friends, is coz, they are still there regardless of how drastic the changes may bring to my life. my secondary school friends, i've lost......my jc friends, their path of life is so different from all the paths i've taken that i don't know them anymore.......the only people that still remain are those from legion.....sometimes i look at these past friends of mine, come across them in the street, read their blogs, and then i ask myself why their lives are so carefree, so free of responsibilities and commitments. And i wonder what my life would have been like if i had continued in that path....would I still be who am I today? would I still already know where I am headed? would I be preparing for my marriage right now? so many questions...........

much as I believe that each one of us has to live our lives without regret, I guess i'm just contradicting, because I have so many of them. Regardless of me being happy and contented in my life, but because there were, and still are so many wants in my life that I am unable to pursue, it thus causes that minor dissatisfaction. I know I ought to be happy with what my life is currently, for I've been so blessed, yet, I can't help but think...........




Saturday March 31st 2007

Sigh...Darling's on duty again....The amount of duties that he's been doing is crazy.....He seems to enjoy it now coz it gives him an opportunity to escape from work the very next day.... but sigh...that only equates to us having lesser time together....take today for instance, it's a Saturday, and had he not have to do duty, we'd be enjoying the day together....sighz....i'm almost starting to get used to him being away from me whilst he does his duty, and that's not good at all. I'm not supposed to be used to being apart from him...I'm supposed to long for him every single min he's not around...the way i used to. I'm supposed to feel lonely and lost......like a part of me is missing....and I used to feel that all the time.....but I dunno why now it isn't this way anymore....maybe coz he's away too often, and i'm learning to be independent; maybe it's coz i'm growing up, and becoming more independent and not so reliant; maybe it's coz work is taking up so much of my brain space that I have not enough time to think about it.......I dunno what it is...I only know that it's not good this way.............

Darling....explain to me what is happening.....why am I like that????????????

sighz...with Good Friday and Easter coming....I'm becoming more reflective......I'm thinking a lot....in fact, there's a lot going on in my mind......so much so that most of the time i have no idea what i'm thinking about......

on a lighter note, Darling and me seemed to have found a far better place than Galley by the Straits.....yet.....we're still unsure....still dunno if things will work out here....however, the place looks much better, and the package offered by them is much more pleasant to the eye.....it's the Republic of Singapore Yacht Club....it looks really really good....and well, we're in the midst of talking to them.......most likely next Tuesday we'd also be visiting Moomedia......just to get an idea and feel of them....coz...they do seem a little pricey...but Darling seems to like them better...oh well, we'll see how.........tomorrow's already April...so......I guess we really have to work much much faster!

Gonna meet up with Russell in a while........and then i've got a tonne of work to complete...so....well...will probably write again later....




Tuesday March 27 2007

Feeling very en vogue now....haha....coz just finished visiting Tucky's Photography.......he's good man......I dunno......when I first started doing my sourcing, I had already picked him out as one of the photographers whose work I really admired...... but then, at that point, I was worried that he'd be too pricey for me....and thus, i didn't dare to consider him after that....

however...after yesterday, we realised that it really don't make much difference after all...so today, we went down....and his packages are really quite okay. I mean, looking at his quality of work and prints, I seriously feel that it's very very worth it... he actually showed us pictures of various couples at one location, and not one looked the same...u may recognise the venue, but the angle of the photo, and everything else just makes it look different.......every one is personalised with their own touch, and each one was unique and individual........most importantly, he remembers something special about each of his couples, which proves how important he views them.....and he does all sorts of quirky shots, even if it means having to go rock climbing with them!

His packages don't offer much, but what I found that I really liked is the fact that a CD-rom of ALL images will be given back to the couple, which many photographers do not do...In that sense, I'll always have a copy of all of my shots, regardless of whether they are in my album or not....

I won't deny that he is quite pricey, but because I feel that all his pictures have depth to it, I think we'll consider him quite seriously....anyway, Darling still wants to look at Moomedia before we decide.....


on another note....darling drove me to and from work today.....haha...though it was a longer wait...but well, i had time to do all I needed to do......and i could sit the entire journey!! =)

my lesson observation went quite okay, and in fact, my supervisor was there more to see how she could help me to overcome some of my difficulties in handling my class than to judge my teaching skills......

anyway, my mum fell down in the kitchen today...whilst i was at tucky's.....sighz...got me so worried....am so pissed with my second bro's reaction when I told him to go and check if she was okay....he sounded so irritated and not in the least bit concerned.....*rolls eyes*.....he just makes me question every single thing he does....anyway...she has a big bump on her head, and she was telling me that just now she felt like puking, and that she couldn't remember anything for a while....I am still quite worried..thank God i've a short day tomorrow, so at least I can come home and take care of her.....

sighz...okay then.....shall prepare to go sleep.....darling's super sleepy and so am i........till then...




Monday March 26 2007

I cannot stand adults in Legion, period.

Had a super bad experience yesterday.....so cannot stand them...sighz.....was supposed to be chairman of our swearing-in ceremony yesterday, an annual event....3 other groups had other stuff to do....but it all ended up in the Youth's hands! man, and to think they're supposed to guide us along......Bulls**t.....I think it was more the other way around!


Everything was shoved into our hands last min yesterday.......I had to take charge of every minor detail...and they didn't even care....I can't even be bothered to go into details coz it'll just make me so mad....sighz......I really don't know what to say about pple like that.......and darling and myself are so determined to shoot them down at the next Curia...they are so dead man...... seriously...the next time they wanna assign us a job...please give us sole responsibility...otherwise, don't even bother asking us to help, coz we'll just end up doing everything!


on a lighter note, the after activity at Fort Canning was good...haha....though I was ravaged by mosquitoes, but it seemed to me that everybody had fun...on the other hand, I simply felt like I was back in school! oh well.......shan't write more...jsut read my next post on my visit to Golden Horse Bridal Shop!




Monday March 26, 2007

Super tired today......darling's still not home...he's taking another drive to Tengah......sighz.....my poor baby..he's already so tired.... I just hope he'll be in a good mood when he comes back....

Anyway...had a really tiring day in school today.......though it's supposed to be one of my most free days, I had so much to do coz I'm thinking of my lesson observation tomorrow.....and I'm really really worried......ARGH....I really hope all goes well.... then of course, had to do the medal prep today....spent almost two hours doing it...thank God I had someone to help me! =) Sighz...on a not so happy mood, I failed my PPT again...stupid tester gave me 0 for my run....he did not even consider that I had a sprained ankle...I'm seriously thinking of crossing over to General Education instead.....

Of course, today evening I went to Golden Horse Awards...had a terrible experience there..and well, it just proved to me that Silhouette is the one...Thank You God, for making the choices so clear to me....=)

1. I tried on gowns for an hour or so, and i didn't even see one I really really liked as compared to Silhouette...

2. We were supposed to meet one of their designers for an appointment today at 7pm...but we only got to meet her at 8.45! And not once before that did she even acknowledge our presence!!! I'm sorry man, but I'm a stickler for service quality, and I think she sucked......

3. I was comparing their package of $3188 to Silhouette's price for gowns at $3600....big difference...but then she added everything else...and man, did I get a BIG shock! Here's the breakdown for you to see yourselves!

Silhouette ($3600)
made to measure bridal gown (rent)
" evening gown (keep)
" groom's suit (keep)
makeup

GHA ($3188)
made to measure bridal gown (rent)
" evening gown (rent)
Groom's suit (keep pants)
Makeup
studio & outdoor shots
Album + canvas piece
flowers
[at this point, GHA looks one million times better right? now u see it again....]
so....is the choice more clear now? Silhouette's package may have nothing, but what they give me, they give the best.....GHA gives everything, but the minimum of everything! once I add what I want, everything adds on prices...so at the end of the day, I'm paying the same price for both, of which GHA is equivalent to me shopping at Isetan, whilst Silhouette is like me shopping at Tangs.... World of difference in service and quality man!

Sheesh...anyway, ya.....gonna go visit Tucky's Photography tomorrow...shall see what he offers...actually the choice for photography is majorly up to Darling.....as long as he's comfy with the person, I think I should be okay......


okay then...I have to go prepare my stuff for tomorrow already...it's 11pm....got much to do.....darling come back quick...i miss u already....




School sang this for Community Singing on Friday....think this is such a sweet and beautiful song.............gonna put it in the Legion Song File so we can start singing it.....

A little faith brightens a rainy day,
Life is difficult you can't go away
Don't hide yourselves in the corner
You have my place to stay

Sorrow is gonna say goodbye
Opens up, you'll see the happy sunshine,
Keep going on with your dream,
Chasing tomorrow's sunrise,
The spirit can never die

Sun will shine my friend
Won't let you cry, my dear
Seeing you shed a tear,
Make my world disappear
You'll never be alone in darkness

See my smile my friend
We are with you till the end
You have got to believe
You are my destiny
We'll always be your friends
That's what a friend should be.




Saturday March 24, 2007

Well well, went for Darling's group activity this morning....we played badminton...and I sprained my ankle, and my shoulder.......hope I get better by this evening, or i don't know how i'm gonna last through Monday! My entire left arm feels so strengthless right now...and it's my master hand,......sighz.....

Anyway, yesterday was our 51st month anniversary...I dunno if it's because we both are so so busy with church, work and our wedding stuff that this was the first monthsary that we did not really celebrate together.....maybe it's also coz we are super broke right now, with $300++ to last us till our next payday......never felt so broke before....sighz......we only wished each other...and well, we really didn't do much........Darling took a drive to Tengah Air Base yesterday...sighz....and I just slept through the journey...coz I was really really so so tired..... there's still so much to be done......... my to-do list are as follows:

- Song Booklet for activity on Maundy Thursday...

- Label bags for medals for Sports Day this coming Wednesday, 28 March

- Mark worksheets

- Prepare worksheets for filing and corrections

- Prepare for Legion Activity tomorrow!

- visiting Golden Horse Awards Bridal Salon on Monday 26/03/07 at 1900hrs

- visiting Tucky's Photography on Tuesday 27/03/07 at 2000hrs

- Darling's duty on Wednesday 28/03/07 and Saturday 31/03/07

i know i'm just gonna be so so drained again next week....sighz.....but i guess this is how work is gonna be like from now.....with church stuff and our wedding stuff to share the little time that we have......am really looking forward to the 14 and 15 of april when darling and me put aside our work and other stuff to spend some time together........




Tuesday March 20 2007

I am so so sleepy right now that I could just fall asleep right at the computer like my Sims......=p
anyway, did so many things today.....

1. Visited Silhouette.....tried on like almost 8 gowns......though I was like super duper self-conscious in them, and constantly thinking that i look like crap, but Maria, Darling and Marilyn all think that I look great in a bustier-mermaid cut gown....never once thought i'd look good in a mermaid cut gown coz it so emphasises one's hips...but it turns out that i look perfectly fine....in fact, coz it was a corset, i ended up having a perfect hour-glass figure!! haha....then coz i'm absolutely crazy about low-backs, they decided that i'd have a low-back halter neck short dress for my evening gown..hehe....i think it'll be nice.....*dreams* =) service there was wonderful..but they're a little pricey......$3580 for my made-to-measure rented bridal gown, made-to-measure evening gown and groom suit to keep, + hair and make-up.........so ya...will keep them in mind, but will keep visiting other bridal shops to see what I think...gonna be visiting Golden Horse on Monday.....=)

2. Then we went to Galley by the Straits....it was everything we expected...only thing is, the boss himself feels the package provided is quite screwed up, so he offered to revamp the entire package and give us a better one...however, it will only consist of venue rental, food and drinks....hope it won't be past $50-$60 per pax coz well, it's only those stuff...besides, he knows i used to be of the industry, so he can't cheat me!!! hehe.......then ya, that of course means that Maria has to outsource everything, including the decor, etc......gonna be a huge bombshell......

hmm....oh well, it's really been a tiring day...gonna go take a shower then plan for school tmr........it's gonna be another long day, and darling's gonna be on duty too.....sigh.............




Monday 19 March 2007

Am feeling super duper relieved right now.....have just returned from SGH.... I tell you...though it's miles away from home...but the attention and concern you get from the staff there is 1 million times better than at CGH....We spent less than an 1.5 hours in the A&E, yet, the doc managed to successfully allay all of our fears....

Stepping into SGH, we could already feel the tension in the air....right from the entrance you could tell that they receive many many emergency cases.....there's so0 many people around with worried looks on their faces, and all their staff are moving at quick but purposeful paces....watching them, you don't even mind having to wait, coz you know that everybody is busy attending to somebody else.....anyway, at the Triage room, where they do the initial questioning to see what's wrong with you, the nurses there are super direct and straightforward....i got told off for trying to help Robin describe his pain....=p, yet, they were super concerned about his condition, and tried to do what they could for him....we felt that....she questioned with so so much detail, asking for description of pain, pain score, etc. and darling and me were SUPER impressed with them......

Then, going to the doctor's room, he was patient, detailed, focused, and did everything he could to explain to us WHY this was happening, to allay our fears, to reassure us that nothing was wrong....yet, he did not dismiss our fears and worries like the rest of them did...instead, he did all he could to explain and show to us how he came to such a conclusion that nothing is wrong, even going as far to explain the X-ray to us, and to check in every way he could physically to further understand Robin's pain...then, he helped us do a referral for the Heart Centre to ensure everything was really alright.....

When we left, we felt so much better, and Darling was smiling from deep down for the first time...I think he's really been weighed down by this whole issue, and been very bothered by it... but now, a weight has been lifted off, and he feels so so so much better....you see what a little more attention could have done? It would have saved us so much money and time........ anyway, we commended them in our feedback form coz i think they really deserve it......=)

But like I told Darling, I guess that because of the degree of seriousness that has to be faced for every case here in SGH, they treat everything with lots of care and concern, and do what they can to immediately check out the cause of the pain, so that they can treat the problem more quickly, thus making room for other patients that would need equal, if not more help. Whereas at CGH, I would say that almost 80% of all cases there are probably minor cases, and thus, all their staff end up feeling irritable, and also start to assume that as long as a case is not of major seriousness, they treat it lightly.......i guess environment really makes a difference....and....so i conclude that I'm super glad i'm the guarantor for Angela to be trained full-time at SGH...because I know she's gonna be trained properly there, and that she's gonna get a great deal of hands-on experience.... =)

Anyway, 300 was a good show...thought it was gonna be all gore and nothing else.....and true enough, it was gory, but the storyline was good, and the entire thought of the whole show was not bad......it definitely wasn't a waste of money....=) bumped into Sheena whilst buying the tickets, and she had wanted to watch Hearty Paws, but couldn't make it...... =)

Hmmm...gonna be visiting Galley by the Straits tomorrow, and then going to go to Silhouette.....gonna be trying on a wedding gown for the very first time!!!!! I'm so excited...wonder how i'll look...hehehehe.......i'm anticipating going to Galley too...I just hope it lives up to my imagination...and that this place will finally work out for us.......I really wanna use this place, feel a very strong pulling towards it...just hope my sixth sense will be able to match the practical side when it comes to discussing everything else.......hope God will guide us in the right direction.........as for gowns, really don't know what to expect...will just see what they offer, and see the whole feel of the place, before we can decide....everything is still very tentative, but we have to discuss lots of things with Maria tmr......

School was alright today....I just felt very unprepared for it, coz i didn't have time to focus on my schoolwork at all the entire holidays....of course, I was also very worried about darling, so I couldn't focus on teaching....my kids had a very relaxed day today as a result..hehe...but anyway, i feel that the holiday did them well coz many of them seem more alert and more aware today.....most importantly, I think they did extra work during the holidays, coz they are also more sure of their work right now......hmm...but there's so much to be done for Term 2, coz exams will start in week 6, and we have like 3 chapters of english and 4 chapters of Math to finish before that and do revision at the same time!! argh...my poor kids...just hope they master the concepts in time....

hmm...okay then...will update tmr after my visiting of venue and bridal salon...till then.....




Sunday, March 18 2007

YAY!!! Thank you Sheena!!! Thank you for changing my blogskin!! It's so so so beautiful, so me, and Darling helped me to choose the design.......so happy and cheery...hehe....

Anyway, yup, I went to watch Stomp the Yard on Friday night with Darling, Sheena and Nigel.... it was good man.....as predictable as the story may have been, but the dance was absolutely exhilarating and entertaining.....i just fell in love with their dance moves......it's not just street dance and/or Hip Hop....it's more than that.....i just loved it, and i'm glad i watched it.......sighz...don't think we can manage to catch Pursuit of Happyness or Hearty Paws coz all the screenings are in the afternoons and evenings.....will probably have to get the DVD then.......

darling finally got the Sims 2 Seasons for me......it's so so so cool can....man...i'm just in love with the game! and well, we bought another PSP for darling........just hope that this time we don't lose it again..........I ended up writing a complaint letter to CGH...will see what they do.....and well, Darling will be going to get a referral for the Heart Centre on Monday.....coz his chest is still hurting like crazy.......poor baby.......

hmmm..gonna be watching 300 tonight with winson and angela......and well, i've to get back to finishing my wedding stuff compilation to share my ideas with my wedding planner when i meet her on tuesday! and most importantly, gonna play sims with my darling!!!! =)




Sigh.....today simply sucks...bigtime......i dunno how else to describe the day..... I don't even know what kind of mood i'm in right now....

Firstly, the entire day at the hospital sucked......although Darling has been discharged...and we're now at home, but even at this very point in time, we still don't know why he had to be admitted in the first place. The doctors have run tests, but not once did they even speak to us......they sent Darling for a stress ECG this morning - to run on the treadmill whilst they do the ECG...he came back with chest pains, and he told me that after the run he felt giddy and nauseous. And what did the dear hospital do? They finally decided to give him 2 painkillers. the first time he's taken medicine in the entire time he's been in the hospital. How ironic is that?!!! Then suddenly, 2 hours later, some person came in telling us his ECG result is normal, and that he's likely to be discharged...but she first had to check with the consultant before she could get back to us.......that's such an indefinite answer..... we waited and waited again, until we fell asleep, and suddenly we got woken up by the pharmacist who came in with his medicine. I asked her what his diagnosis was, and she told me to wait for the doctor....WAIT...AGAIN!!!! I'd been waiting all morning for goodness knows what! man..........then, shortly later, robin's dad called to tell me that Darling can be discharged...hello, i'm like sitting right beside the patient...couldn't you at least have the courtesy to inform us that he was going to be discharged? Then the nurse came with the discharge form.. darling realised that he was prescribed Anarex, the previous mediciation that had been given to him by his camp M.O. that caused him more pain......so I questioned her abt it, especially since the A&E doctor the other day had given him panadeine.......sheesh...and you know what she said???!!!! "You don't have to eat it if you don't want to...." excuse me! What kind of an answer is that????!!! you're supposed to be helping him get better, not give this kind of F**ked up answers!!! and when I ask her about his diagnosis, she tells me to read his discharge forms.........when we finally got through to her about the medication, which was like 10 min later, she asked Robin to sign the forms......Robin took sometime to look through the forms and she said, "You don't have to look, just sign here." Hello, we just want to make sure can......and Robin refused to sign....until he saw the doctor to find out what he had been admitted for.........the nurse then came in with a phone, rather than the doctor itself.........sighz....i really don't know what to say lor.....

As if that was not bad enough, Darling and me finally left CGH....and when we reached Eastpoint, we realised we had left his PSP behind!!!!! We called the hospital, but they said they didn't find anything.....we rushed all the way back, and searched high and low to no avail. Sighz....i'm not even angry about losing the thing....I just feel so lost....I dunno wat to say....I dunno wat to feel...this has just been an absolutely lousy and horrible day......




Thursday March 15, 2007

Sighz....my Darling has been admitted into hospital....I have just gotten home after spending an evening there......had originally wanted to cook dinner, but upon receiving his call that he was gonna be admitted, I had to rush down..........it's nothing serious actually....still the same old chest pains that are bothering him.........originally, he had wanted to go see his Medical Officer at camp earlier this week, after his visit to the hospital on Sunday night......but as he was on course for the last 3 days, so he postponed it till today...... After doing another ECG, he was sent to the Paya Lebar Air Base to do a stress ECG........so he came home to get his PT kit, and then went down there...upon reaching there, his chest felt very ucnomfortable...so he ended doing an x-ray instead......upon which, he was sent back to Changi Air Base, and then he was sent to CGH in an ambulance.......the ECG taken in the hospital was not normal...so he's now warded........ sigh...the poor boy.......hate having to leave him alone in such a circumstance....I only hope he can manage to sleep well tonight...... will be going over early in the morning...and I shall cook porridge and seaweed soup for him........ will probably be there all day.........had wanted to go to school to do some filing...but I don't think i'll be going now...will probably go to school super early on monday morning......and hope i can finish it up......... =(

hmmmmm......it was so sweet of the "guyz" (nigel, sheena, winson and angela) to have come upon my informing them of robin's condition.... thank you my dears for the priceless company you guys provided....I believe robin really appreciated it........and thanks for bringing us dinner too..... it's with pple like you guys that really make even the worst of situations seem better.... =) thanks a lot....... *hugs*

really hope darling gets discharged tomorrow...but then again, I want him to be declared fully alright before he gets discharged.........so that we don't have to worry anymore.......just hope all the tests come out alright.....my poor poor baby..... I miss you.......





Wednesday, March 13 2007

Yesterday was a fun day.... =) I woke up only at 10.....then I went to the market to get the stuff we needed for our tom yam soup.....also bought groceries to cook dinner for the rest of the week..... it's so rare that I get to cook proper meals lately, so I must really take advantage of it! haha.....anywayz.....I dunno, shopping in the market, I suddenly miss being there...coz I really haven't gone to the market in a very long time....I miss shopping for ingredients, just walking around, looking at fresh produce, and deciding what to buy.......what's more, they're all so cheap.... =)

Anywayz, Sheena and Nigel came to my place only abt 12........we prepared food, and then we started on our cookie-baking mission....I used the Canele choc chip walnut cookie recipe...and sighz........I only used 1/5 of the recipe...but it was still so much! man....I think if we had stuck to the original size we would have made enough cookies to feed an army!!! haha... anywayz, I helped her make the dough, and she and Nigel baked the cookies.....they ended up from the normal Famous Amos size to that of the Subway size!!!! somehow, at night, as I looked through all the rest of my recipes, I realised that maybe I should have used my other choc chip cookie recipes for her...but oh well, i believe that there'll be more chances........ we had tom yam soup, carbonara and shrimp paste chicken for dinner......and I think we all enjoyed ourselves!

Later on in the night, Darling and me went for a game of badminton...haha...though we both play like crap, but well, we exercised, and we had fun together...think we're gonna continue playing again tonight!!!

anyway, Darling finally started playing with his PSP... =) then yup, whiilst he was doing that, I was planning for questions to ask Galley By The Straits when we go there next Tuesday..... so much to plan for our wedding, but all of them can only be decided once we have decided on the venue...I really hope everything works out for Galley...so that we don't have to think and source for another location......

hmm...Sheena got me started on a baking mood......hehe......as I'm free today, I think i'll do my work, then after that, start baking and preparing for dinner tonight....it's gonna be watercress soup, egg with minced meat, and fried fish........gonna be baking butter cookies..... =)




Monday March 12, 2007

It was a scary sunday evening..........had to send Darling into hospital coz I got worried about his chest pains. It has lasted for so long, and yesterday it was bothering him all day long....I didn't wanna take the risk, so I sent him to CGH....man...it was so super packed......and...the docs just kept saying it's a muscular thingy......sighz....but i'm not convinced..I dunno why......anywayz, they set him up for an appointment with the cardiologist for 18 April.......it's so far away...I only hope he can wait until then..if not, I'll just take him to the National Heart Center as Angela suggested......

Anywayz, finally bought my Microsoft Office, so now I can do all my work at home, and not need to stay back in school till so late every single day.... =) Also bought Antivirus...but..it don't seem to be able to install........just hope it all works out....hm....turns out I got sunburnt from Saturday's beach outing...it's so rare that I get sunburnt...I think it's coz I've been out of the sun for too long....sighz....but i got an ugly tan....so am trying to go to the beach this sunday to even it out.....I hate ugly tans.... =)

So......went out with Nigel and Sheena today to Canele where we gorged ourselves silly over cakes...haha...we spent a total of $71.....i can't believe it.....but they enjoyed the cakes...so that's good....then, we went to buy groceries for our cooking lesson tmr.........I finally got a PSP for darling......though it's caused my bank balance to be reduced to only 2 digits, but I've been wanting to get one for him for like forever........so I decided to get it today.......I just hope he enjoys it...... =)

Hmmmm...darling's still having chest pains...I just hope it doesn't continue to bother him.....anyway, tmr, after cooking lesson, will be going Darling's house...then at night will meet Winson to have a round of badminton...(am so into the sport after my PPT!!!!)...........On Wednesday, will be doing my planning at home......then at night will meet Angela to have dinner, then play badminton again.......

Thursday will be at the zoo....and Friday will most likely be meeting my wedding planner.....Saturday, we've to go with Angela to do her scholarship thingy, then Darling has got church activity.....Sunday, I'm hoping to go to the beach/swimming pool with Darling after church, then at night, we've to go to Paragon............. gonna be a busy week....just hope everything will go as planned, and that my darling will feel better............




Saturday 10 March 2007

It's been a nice weekend today.....went to school for my TAF activity walk to ECP.....we walked from the Mcdonald's all the way to the Food Centre....quite a long walk...considering my broken ankle......then I spent the rest of the time waiting for the kids to finish playing their games....during that time, watched this group of people having a sandcastle building lesson...quite interesting..and it proved to be useful for my Legion activity later on in the day!! haha....marked books in school until about 12, then came home, and rushed off for the activity.....

darling and me had lotsa fun at the activity....it's been long since we could actually be participants and not have to worry so much about what the organisers were doing, and as a result, the both of us really got into the game..... =) my team built a really nice sandcastle......too bad my pics are with nigel...shall upload them once i get it.....haha, I was so dumb....brought a camera, but it had no battery!!! man, so wasted........

Anywayz, wanted to go down to Suntec with Nigel to pick Sheena up....but she had a bad bout of diarrhoea...hope it's not food poisoning...so...ya, darling, me and nigel ended up going to KFC to eat.....then, darling and me bought the Music and Lyrics soundtrack, and the Dreamgirls soundtrack.......Just love the songs from Music and Lyrics so much, and they're stuck in our head.....hope you like the song that's on my blog right now....it's just so so so so nice........ *dreams*

hmmm....the songs are just being played over and over again on our computer now......feeling so much in love......darling, you were the one who helped me find a way back into love 4 years ago....and now....we are promising to stick with each other till the end.......I love you.........
Thank you..... *hugs and kisses*




I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed.
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past i just can't seem to move on.

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case i ever need them again someday.
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind.

All I wanna do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oh....

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs.
I know that it's out there,
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere.

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night.
I could use some directions,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I wanna do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if i open my heart again,
I guess i'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end.
Oh...

There are moments when i don't know if it's real,
Or if anybody feels the way i feel.
I need inspiration,
Not just another negotiation.

All I wanna do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if i open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me decide again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end.




Friday March 9th 2007,

5 days since I last wrote..........and today marks the end of Term 1 of the academic year......Tomorrow, the holidays begin.....and I should be able to get my much-needed break! YAY!!!!!!! 5 days of sleeping in........hahahaa....i'm so looking forward to it already.......

Hmmm...went for my PPT (Physical Proficiency Test) today.....I hope I'll pass this time round....I feel better about it....however, during one of the stations, I fell and sprained my ankle (AGAIN!!).....and that was only my second station....had no choice but to continue....I think I may have aggravated it a little.....it's been almost 5 months since I last killed my ankle.....so, it needs some time getting used to...=)

Hope i'll be better in the morning coz I have to go to school tomorrow....got to bring the pupils to East Coast Park for activity....it's from 7am - 11am.....after which I've got to go for Legion activity...sighz...if my ankle's not feeling better, I really don't know how.......yet, I know I'll still survive even if I have to attend these events...after all, it's something I'm already familiar with...

sighz...although it is the holidays, but i'm still swarmed with tonnes of work to complete....i wanna clear up lots of stuff before term 2 starts...so tat when I leave in June, I would not have so many things to clear from my table.........these few days have been crazy with my kids....sighz....they're just so hyper, so petty, so inattentive......sometimes I really don't know what to do with them........ I just hope they'll improve next term...if not, I pity the teacher who's gonna take over me once I leave..........

Darling and me went to watch Music and Lyrics today......really really really nice show..... the songs are really nice too...they're still stuck in my head...am gonna buy the album...coz i'm so in love with their songs.......=) I think anyone who loves romantic comedies should just go watch...it's really nice...therefore, Nigel, i think you should watch with Sheena....... =) Also saw trailers of a few movies I'd wanna catch.....sighz...there's so many shows I wanna watch....

1. DreamGirls - another movie linked to music.....i think it'll be nice...
2. The Pursuit of Happyness - think it'll be an inspiring film...
3. Stomp the Yard -new dance movie........
4. Hearty Paws - about a dog......cried whilst watching the trailer...i'm so gonna watch it.
5. Because I Said So - looks good......quite a good cast.....
6. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles - darling's favourite cartoon characters....must watch!! =)


sighz...darling's been complaining of chest pains lately...and we're both very worried..... dunno what is causing it and why he's feeling this way...he's been to see 2 doctors, and no one really knows why........i just hope everything's okay......my poor baby......

hmmmm....my schedule is already jam-packed for the whole holiday week and even after that....I don't know how I'm gonna manage.......I just hope everything falls into place and that I can do all I need to do........

Saturday - TAF activity followed by Legion activity.
Sunday - Curia, then we're going to the IT show.....
Monday - going to school to do work, then to meet Sheena and Nigel to go Canele and to buy
groceries for her cooking lesson.
Tuesday & Wednesday - cooking lesson for Sheena.
Thursday - P1 teachers going to zoo to plan excursion, then Legion mtg at night
Friday - finish up work and to plan wedding research
Saturday - Darling's legion activity.
Sunday - Darling signed up to test out a shoe...so will follow him......
Monday - Term 2 begins............

hmm....seems like a long week ahead....just hope I'll be able to do what I need to do and also get the rest that I really really need..............Baby....hope you get better soon..........


















Sunday March 4, 2007

Well well.....we've reached the end of the Chinese New Year....had my family reunion today... we had porridge at Quality Hotel...not bad, considering we paid only $9.80++...there was a wide variety of food..and though some of it could be much better, but when I look at the price, I guess it's alright.......had lots of bonding time, and all of us just talked, and enjoyed time together, the way it always should be......this is how I want my wedding to be like...everybody at their own time and target, mingling, sharing, bonding..and well, we'll jsut fit in certain programmes at certain times..and it'll be so nice......at the end of it, it wouldn't have been just somebody else's wedding, but one where you got to spend time with people you usually are unable to spend time with, and at the same time, meet old friends and relatives, and maybe even meet new people.... a wedding is about the celebration of two people beginning their lives anew, but it is also a chance, where everybody gets to meet up and gather together once more....

Speaking of weddings, we went to GardenAsia to take a look.....actually, we quite like the place where the dinner would be held...however, walking in to the place, you actually see the rest of the whole GardenAsia, which gives a feel that everything is very congested, squashed up and very very messy and distracting, disruptive.....considering the price and everything...sighz...I think we're gonna end up going for galley by the straits...I just hope everything works out there...got to pray like crazy and ask for guidance to make the right choice!! After all, it's already March..and we only have less than 9 months to plan!!!!!!!!

Finally got the chance to watch Protege yesterday....it's quite a good show....I think the whole plot and storyline were good...and the acting skills of all the stars were super commendable....They played their roles very very well, looked exactly like the part that they were supposed to portray...and they gave a very good portrayal of the drug industry....to say the truth, I think it even helps to deter young kids from wanting to take drugs...... it had its fair share of suspense, action, and story....I just think it's super good....... =)

We went to the travel fair with Nigel and Sheena today....they have quite a lot of not bad deals.....darling and myself were trying to figure out about where we would want our honeymoon...though we would very much want to go to England and UK, but we are super unsure about whether we would be able to afford the place....and I guess that we would end up settling for Australia.....also because we would want Sheena and Nigel to go with us....(Winson and Angela...you both said most likely cannot go right??) yes, I know....a honeymoon should only be for 2 pple...but...Darling and me agree that it'd be far easier and nicer to take photos when you have friends with you..of course, we would each have our own rooms and all, but when sightseeing and all, I think it wouldn't do much harm to have friends around....and thus, I think we'd have to go to a place that's affordable.... =)

After that, we went to the Toy Museum at Bras Basah.......though it cost us $10 per entry, but I guess it actually was quite worth it..though I wouldn't go back a second time......it's really quite nice, seeing all the toys from 1920s till 1970s....see all the original toys in mint condition.....from Mickey Mouse, Popeye, Felix the Cat, Tintin, Betty Boop, Tom and Jerry, Archies, and all the Walt Disney cartoon figurines.....it's just so so so nice....will load the photos for you to see....we took so many shots there....and I just enjoyed myself there... =)

Hmmm...it's actually been quite a wonderful day........one more week till the end of Term 1.....time just passes by so quickly.....will be taking my Physical Proficiency Test for the second time this coming friday...just hope all goes well.....the much needed March holiday will be very much welcomed!!! hahaha.......during that week, will be giving Sheena some cooking lessons......so, well, I can recap my cooking skills.....hehehehe......yupyup....waiting for Darling to come back from his place where he's having his reunion dinner with his family....next year...we'll be having it at his place, and I would not have a chance to have it with my family le....sighz....things are gonna be so different.........but...i guess we'll work it out, and get used to it.....