I'm currently feeling super drained...physically, mentally, emotionally......my mum's in hospital....has been there for the last 3 days, and she's still in.....it's been crazy this entire period....what with my kids having their exams and all.
sighz.......
Have been trying so hard to stay strong this entire time....much as I broke down on Thursday night when she was first warded......yet after that, i've been the one that's constantly been by her side ever since......darling too...and sighz....i think it's really taking it's toll on us.......
Mummy can't stop moving around, despite the fact that she just had a minor operation a week ago to remove blockages from her nose........on Thursday, she was travelling to Bukit Batok to visit sick people......she's not even fully recovered, and there she is, visiting others.......so on the way home, she was on the phone with my grandfather, and due to his being hard of hearing, she found it difficult to convey what she wanted to say to him, leading to her feeling irritated, which shot her blood pressure up....and the blood just started gushing out at 5.45pm on the bus......
She came home, and I told her to rest whilst I cooked dinner....By the time I finished at 7 plus, her nose was still bleeding non-stop, and by bleeding, I mean continuous bleeding.......got worried, called her doc.....who gave us instructions to try to stop bleeding....but after 10mins, it was to no avail....called Angela (I love you so much...thanks for your help and advice!), who told me to let mum gargle iced water.......after continuous gargling, she spit out a super huge blood clot that probably measured about 2cm by 5 cm.......after that....the bleeding subsided.....I insisted that she be sent to A&E to ensure that nothing was wrong....... but b4 she could even leave the house, the bleeding started once more...........I decided to stay home, letting my dad follow Luke and Marilyn there..........this was 8 plus, almost 9pm..........
on the way there, I heard that she started vomitting blood out...and when she reached East Shore Hospital, she had already puked a lot a lot of blood. Yet, not much medical attention was given...as I wasn't there, i dunnoe the whole story...but I know she vomitted all over her bed, and it was covered in blood......her blood pressure fell from 140 to 55 in less than one min, and according to my bro, she looked like she had died for that moment. It scared the shit out of him.......they called me, and I went looking for a priest to go bless her..........doc at the hospital stopped the bleeding by shoving something up her nose, which of course hurt like crazy......then she was warded into ICU............
after that, things got a bit more stable......she received blood transfusion the next day and all, and I was there straight after school until 12 midnight.......
as my bros and me didn't feel that she was receiving sufficient medical attention at East Shore, as well as from her doc, we decided that she be sent to SGH this afternoon.......sighz....I tell u, SGH is still the best....they really really care, and really really take the trouble to explain to you why things happen......which of course makes u feel ten times better......
So anywayz, she's now still at SGH...dunno when she'll be discharged.....but yup, I reckon tmr will be spent at the hospital again. Man...I'm super tired....came back home, and did housework coz ya, the house is in a mess.......tmr I've got to do reading still...sighz....am thinking of going to donate blood tmr, since I'm already at outram.......
won't be writing much coz i'm really very very tired........pls pray for my mum ya........thanks.......
nigel, sheena, winson, thanks for coming to visit her......really appreciate it...thanks for being there for me and my mum..........
angela, thanks for visiting her both days...and for providing much advice and help to us especially when we needed it most...goes to show our signature for you was not in vain!! =)
darling darling..thanks so much for being there for me...dunnoe what i'd have done if you weren't there with me to support me throughout....thank you for being so patient with me even when I was being unreasonable due to my lack of sleep......I really really appreciate it....I love you..
11:41 PM
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