Saturday, May 19, 2007
Saturday May 19 2007
disappointment. I hate it. Hate it when those I love disappoint me. No. It's not darling....but it's someone I hold close to my heart....I'm relatively cynical. I try not to expect anything of anybody, because I believe that way u get less disappointed and more easily satisfied. It makes life much easier to go by. I expect close to zero.....but if u can't even meet my most minimal requirement, I have nothing to say. Prioritising your life. Responsibility. Attitude to work and life. I find all that important. Because without all of these, you can go nowhere in life. And, he still doesn't know how to do that. At his age. I don't think he even cares how I feel anymore. I don't know where he has placed his priorities. Once again, I shall step out of his life. I see no point in worrying and trying to change him, because this is not the first time this has happened. My hopes shall be placed on people who are more worth it. If he does not even show the least bit of concern about how I'm feeling, then it's over. It sucks to throw a friendship away just like that. But I guess he's disappointed me in more ways than one. And enough is enough. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
On a separate note, went to hospital yesterday to visit Darling's uncle.....suffered a mild stroke.....his B.P. was at like 198 for the entire Thursday night...and yesterday when we went to see him, it was still at 160++...that's like super high...coz our normal is supposed to be 120...and he still asked for coffee...sighz.....am worried that his condition will just get worse coz of his lifestyle....darling's family has a history of strokes.......it worries me........his great-grandfather got it, his grandfather died of it, and now his uncle got it.........sheesh...i really have to take good care of darling.........
anyway, after that, we went to Simpang with Angela and ate our hearts out.......haha...... had a good time...and we just sat and stoned.....and talked and talked...funny how we've grown so close to her in the last few months.....but it's a great feeling...after all, she's someone we both know we can count on........=)
oh well, have spent the entire morning just sleeping in darling's arms...feel so xing fu...hehe.....been so long since we could sleep in on a weekend.........the next few weekends are packed to the max....got Pre-camp next week, then the Recruitment camp after.....then it's Curia the week after that, and then our Engaged Encounter.....ARGH....I feel stressed thinking about all these already.......but the week after would be our getaway weekend....still thinking of where to go...but yup......
gonna keep calling MOE so that I can keep asking for my letter to be sent to me.........darling's got duty tomorrow...so i'm gonna spend my entire day just doing my work..and sorting things out coz I think my room is a mess!!!
Monday am gonna go design my gown le!! I so can't wait...hehe......and yup.....my cows are now ready for collection!!! YAY!!!! =) hehe......
oh well...have to go already coz got to go attend their prep meeting...hope this time the reports will look much better than last week!!!
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