Monday, June 25, 2007
Monday June 25 2007 part 2
Now on to school report....
So...I went back to school, not knowing what to expect or what I was supposed to be doing today... then...at 0725 hours, 5 mins before flag-raising, I found out that I was going to teach a Primary 4 class as their adjunct teacher had given last minute notice to leave...and as such, the school couldn't find a replacement, and I was now assigned to them.......
I didn't know whether to be pissed or shocked or upset....I don't like not knowing what I had to do.....and it doesn't help that I've never taught their class or even their level before, so I don't know what they are like. The worst thing is that I am gonna be teaching them English, Math, Social Studies, Health Ed and Science, as well as a P2 class for Health Ed, and a P3 class for Social Studies! The sudden onslaught of so many different subjects at different levels did not make things much easier for me! I mean, at P1 we can just use common knowledge to teach, coz it's so simple....but at P4, you really have to know your stuff and what you are talking about..and it's like, you really have to prepare your lessons to make sure that your kids know and understand.... Sighz....the class was disorganised...and I couldn't find their books nor their papers, etc....I felt so utterly lost, and yet I couldn't show it at all, coz the kids are after all testing me, trying to size me up as to what kind of a teacher I was...... though it's probably only going to last 4 weeks at most, before I leave...yet I believe it's gonna be one of the longest 4 weeks in school....and I had thought that I would want to actually handhold the new teacher into my previous P1 class.... Now, I'm in a far worse state than she is!!!
I miss my little monsters and babies...I really do. Much as i complain about them sometimes, but, they've really grown on me.... i miss knowing and expecting everything that they are going to say....I miss them clinging on to me.....I miss being part of their lives, and watching them mature.......Despite their nonsensical ways and rubbish turmoil they put me through....yet..they really are adorable.....
Sighz....................
I know I ought to embrace the challenge posed to me....coz this will only add on to my experience, and knowledge of how to handle the children...... Yet.... I don't know....I wouldn't mind having more notice of what to expect...but I guess shit happens every now and then...and rather than to sit there moaning about things like that, I should really take things in stride and whilst learning to let go of fond memories, at the same time, I should also rise to the occasion and to do what I ought to do......
A few of my darlings were really upset when they saw me....and I guess that they are really feeling very very lost......some of my parents have actually called me to ask me why..and to tell me that their children are upset that I had to go....and....i really don't know what to say....should I be satisfied?? *sighz* It shows I've made an impact on their lives...but I guess that after a few more weeks, they would more or less have forgotten me and moved on........much as I wouldn't want that to happen, yet I know it's a fact of life, and that only by doing that will they actually be able to do better........
Oh well.....I really have to go read up and do lesson prep for tomorrow already.....
5:14 PM
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