I've spent two entire days inside a ward looking after Darling's grandmother. tending to her every needs, acquainting myself with the nurses that look after her. I am getting a clearer insight to Angela's job......and much as the nurses here are nice to Grandma, that does not kill the prejudice I have to CGH.
Sometimes I'm amazed at how I can stay cooped up for so long in one place........thank God for libraries....I borrowed like 8 books, and I have finished 3 of them already...haha....I guess in a way, it just helped to relax me.......coz I can then escape away to a more perfect fantasy world of mine.
Yet, there's still my conscious mind reminding me of the tonnes of things that I have to do back home!! ARGH..... I have not touched work for almost 2 weeks.....and there's all the other things I had planned to do.....it obviously does not help that Curia is this week, and that the Engaged Encounter is next week......... I am so so looking forward to the getaway that Darling and me are planning for on our 54th monthsary.....with a 60 min spa massage waiting for us, sigh...i can only dream...... =)
of course, i know that looking after grandma is all for a good cause...she's beginning to trust me more with each minute I spend with her, allowing me to tend to all her needs, and I guess it is difficult for someone to have to start learning to depend on others, especially one as independent and strong-headed as she is.... *shrugs*
ah well.........don't have much to write....in fact all I want to do now, is to cuddle up in bed......I dunnoe why....camp always makes me feel like i'm a young child once more, reminds me of the days when I first started going for them...haha....I guess that's why we all miss camp once it's over......subconsciously, it has become our sanctuary.....as much as we don't admit it is!! =) maybe the "youth" we now feel, has somehow injected itself into our relationship....the last few days have been absolutely wonderful with darling, and it's like we had started all over again..... just love times like that when I can choose to shut everything off...as if i had no other cares in the world.......
*sighz dreamily*.............................
8:19 PM
Life is Beautiful
I love you not only for what you are
but for what you make of me.
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