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Darling's great-grandma just passed away yesterday.....

I don't know what to feel, coz I did see her before, this Chinese New Year....i just didn't expect her to leave so suddenly. It's not like I was close to her and all...but...i don't know.......Darling's grandma is very much affected, but I guess it's only normal..... and well, there are quite some complications with regard to the proceedings and all...but....it's not up to me to say more....

Anyway....am supposed to be doing the video shoot tomorrow....gonna get the help of Angela, Nigel, Luke, Christopher, Monica and Joycelyn...thanks in advance ya?? Just hope everything goes smoothly tomorrow.. =)

We had the Rosary Procession yesterday at St. Mary of the Angels too. It was my second time there...and I still don't really like the church...Maybe coz I'm a purist at heart....I still love the old architectural grandeur of the old churches.... as compared to this modernistic kinda feel...there's like no history attached to it... and...it's just too cold and unfeeling for me.... Had quite a good time with the younger ones yesterday, and I do feel like i'm kinda more able to click with them after this experience.....so..... maybe it is a good thing after all!!! =)






Just had my PBL presentation the yesterday. I think we did well...*shrugs* We had assumed that it was better to actually focus more on the scenario than the theories, because it is of no use to teach the audience what they already know. But our tutor thought differently. Worst part is that the other 3 groups who were presenting their scenarios next week did not print the hard copy of their eportfolio, and our tutor gave them an extra few hours to print it........ by right, we all ought to hand everything in yesterday, so that it would be fair to everyone. But, they gave excuses, and he let it be..... and it's truly quite unfair coz they can make changes..... but, there's nothing to fear. I told my group mates, that even if they do take one week to read up on all the theories that we did present, it would still be insufficient for them to really know it thoroughly, and thus, if they do try anything unfair, I'd really question them all the way to see if they do know what they are talking abt......

sighz....it's just funny the way some pple are.....sometimes I just don't understand they way they think and all.....

Anyway, on a lighter note, had a rather relaxed day with Darling and Angela today.... we went shopping for her dress, and to check out our wedding rings...which is gladly coming along fine. =) I cooked pasta for us, so we had quite a fulfilling lunch.. this is in a way a post-celebration of our 58th monthsary which was yesterday........coz Darling was at duty, so we didn't get to celebrate.. =)

All the wedding prep is being set in motion now, and I'm just hoping that there will be no major screw-ups in the process... our video shoot is on Monday, and I'm really looking forward to it....hoping it'll be lots of fun.......the rings are set to be collected next week, and we should be collecting our tickets for our honeymoon tomorrow.....

Much work to be done, and it's that time of the year where all the Legion activities really peak, in addition to the school work, it's really juggling between work, church, and my wedding stuff! Praying real hard that God will guide me through this entire period so that nothing really goes wrong.

Second last Lindy lesson tomorrow....it's scary how time flies..... I just wish the Lindy lessons wouldn't have to end, coz they're the one thing I really look forward to....yet, we may just continue with Lindy 3, which is paid for by each class that we attend...so there's no real committment, which is good.......

with 59 days left to our wedding.....not only am i counting down to the days.....but counting down to the fact that it will all be over, and we can regain our normal lives for a little while again..... told darling that we'll probably like pause our saving plans for one or two months next year, so that we can relax and indulge in our own wants and needs for a little while after having controlled ourselves for so long!! haha....am already writing out my wishlist...........after fulfilling these wants though will be time to save for our next big expediture, which will be the house!!

Tonight will be the Liverpool's Champion League game....hope they do well...gonna go try get some work done now.... then probably continue again tonight when i wake up to watch the game....




It's 65 more days to the BIG day...

I think darling and myself are really feeling the stress....
Had a discussion with both our parents last night....Goodness, it lasted for more than 2 hours...yet, didn't get much done.....there's still some traditional things to be done...like the dowries and stuff like that, and we're gonna have to go give out the wedding invitations by hand to the older generation.... of course they finally shared some disagreements with us over some issues....which, is exactly what i had predicted in one of my previous posts.....really felt quite crappy.. coz it's like they could have shared this with us earlier...but no...they had to wait till now when things are more or less confirmed...and it's gonna be harder to change things.......SIGH......

We also realised yesterday that our wedding planner has not been doing lots of stuff for us...so... i dunno...we kinda emailed her and stuff....just hope that she'll help to take some of the burden off us.....

There's really so much to be done.......and my organizer is seriously packed to the brim...I dunnoe if that's good or bad....i only hope i manage to handle all these well!!!

English Mock test on Monday 22nd Oct;
PBL project presentation on 23rd Oct;
Wedding Videoshoot on 29th Oct (and we haven't got any details yet!!!)
Attempting to hand in 60% assignment on 30th Oct;
ICT project due 30th Oct
Invitations to be ready by 1st Nov
English Final Test on 6th Nov
Science Exam on 13th Nov
GESL project on 17th Nov
Invitations to be sent out by 19th nov
Legion Camp 28th Nov to 2nd Dec
RSVP date 1st Dec
Future parents' in-law coming to give wedding gifts on 2nd Dec
Legion Christmas Party on 9th Dec
To go to ROM and collect solemnization forms on 18th Dec
Big day 22nd Dec

I feel like i'm drowning...and these are merely the items whose dates have been set.....I still have my favours to do, food to taste for both the church and evening reception....sighz..... I really hope everything just falls in place gradually......

Had a sudden rush of emotion just now on my way home of absolute longing for Mama, my late babysitter.... I don't know why.....I just pictured my Daddy going to the columbarium every single weekend alone, just to spend some quiet time with her, and him going back to their home all alone, and I couldn't help but feel a total sense of loss once more. Much as I have gotten over it, and seemingly appear to be alright, I guess it just inevitably hits you hard every once in a while. I just miss her.........

Hopefully our Lindy session later will help to lift my spirits up a little bit more....it's our 6th session, which means that it's only 2 more sessions before we complete Lindy 2. thinking about it, we've really come quite far in the last 20weeks.....although we're more well-versed with Lindy now, but I guess that if you do ask me to dance socially during Swing Fling, I'm still not confident enough.....but I guess that this kind of confidence comes with time....Darling has definitely improved though, and these days, when we practice at home, we usually manage to complete a whole song, with few mistakes of misinterpretation on my part.....and I guess that's really good.......

Ah well...have to go start on my assignment....much to do.....and no time to waste!!




I think there has been a miscommunication......it was my nanny who had passed away......not my mum...

thing is...i call my parents Mummy and Papa......and my babysitters Mama and Daddy......

don't ask me why...i've been doing that since i knew how to speak..... =)

hope that clears the shock...






God is never on time, but He's never too late.

I think the above is a wonderful quote.... it really makes you think, and it makes u appreciate the fact that God is truly aware of each and every moment in your life, and all He's waiting for, is for us to offer ourselves to Him, to trust that He will ensure everything works out for us.... after all, He does everything only coz He loves us...... =D

It's been a pretty hectic week, and am really bogged down with lots of things to do...to say the truth, this entire week just zoomed past me....and it seemed that it was only yesterday that I was whining about Darling being on duty.....

Anyway, Paul and Angela have flown back to Melbourne today, and to say the truth, i'm really quite worried about my Daddy...I mean, he's always wanting to be strong for us and all, and I guess it's mainly coz this is the first time that he's truly alone ever since my Mama's passing. Much as I do not doubt his faith, and his ability to cope with the difference in his life, yet, I know that he's only human, and sometimes, I wish I could help him take away the pain that he must be going through...however, he has to face up to it on his own....and that's God's way of helping us heal..........if up till today, I still can't accept Mama's passing for real, what more her soulmate?

Sigh.....

Many things have been happening to the people around me lately...what with pple with stable relationships breaking up and all....it's getting quite stressful and worrying really...... I only hope it's not some kind of weird sign!!

Anyway, taught the JXY YGZ the first part of their dance today, and surprisingly, they took it far better than we expected!! haha...thought that they would hate it and make fun of it and all, but they really enjoyed themselves, and had a great time...and I guess that that's what Lindy is all about....having fun, and enjoying yourself... =D

I'm drowning in my workload right now though....what with the wedding prep included and all.....sighz....I really hope I manage to cope with it all........got a presentation (worth 50%) this week, and another presentation (worth 40%) on 23/10, got 2 reflections due (worth 10% each) this week, an assignment (worth 60%) due by 6th Nov, and 2 major tests coming up!!! ARGH.... i'm really really drowning....

it doesn't help that there's still many loose ends for the wedding...really hope to tie all of them up by the end of the month, or at most mid-Nov......please continue to keep us in your prayers.... =)




Darling's on duty again... feel weird to be sitting alone at home without him here with me... that i'm not "fighting" with him for the use of the computer....I miss him....i really do.....though it's only one day...but it means a lot to me..... of course it also means that I have time to really sit down and focus on my assignments and projects...but...I guess it just don't feel right...

weird to feel so lost when it's only one day? I sometimes think so too...but... aren't i supposed to...


Lately, the stress of the wedding has kinda been building up.... and it's caused us to have quite a few minor disagreements....i guess it's coz expectations are mounting up on us....and I can't help but feel sometimes that all the others are just standing close by, waiting for us to fail; looking for a small little spot at which they can criticize, then tell us, "I told you so!!" Maybe i'm insane...maybe i'm thinking a little too much...but with the things others say when we share what we've done with them....or the way they express their comments, I really can't help but to feel that way... Funny how it's not about us....it's not that we have disagreements about what each of us want...that's clear, crystal clear...but...it's all the comments and the ideas they inject into our minds that makes things worse sometimes...

i really don't know. I mean I don't object to comments from other people... what irks me is... you either put your finger in the pie, and give a hand, help all the way, or else, if you're not gonna bother, then don't give so many comments?? I mean...you can' give your two cents' worth, we're gonna listen.....but don't say it like we HAVE to follow your suggestions??







Just took my photoshoot yesterday with Darling, and we had an absolutely wonderful time! Of course, we are suffering from the effects right now, co we're really tired, and feel like we're coming down with a cold and all.....=p But I think we should otherwise be fine........had 6 hours of shoot in Andrew's studio.....but I love every single shot we took coz it was all so much fun....and I believe the photos in the studio will come out perfect.....we finally left Purvis Street at about 4pm...headed off to Fort canning and Upper Peirce Reservoir.....took quite a few nice shots there too....really can't wait to see the pics and all.... Upper Peirce Reservoir is so beautiful and untouched....I think it's a very nice place to go to.....If we had a car, I wouldn't mind going there often..... =) Had no time to eat at all, so darling and me only managed to eat our lunch and dinner at about 9.30 pm last night.....I dunno how we managed to survive...we were dog-tired...and we were lugging so many things home.....really, it's crazy....after yesterday, I don't envy the life of models!!!! =) My make-up artist thinks Darling and me are so unusual...it's rare that the bride is more tanned than the groom....and it's rare that people wanna use such bright colours for their entire wedding...but I guess that's what makes us special!!! =D

Really can't wait to see the photos...but dear friends, sorry to disappoint you...we're not gonna show anyone the photos we took until the actual day..... guess we kinda wanna keep it a mystery and all...haha.....must keep some surprises for that day...otherwise you guyz will have nothing to look forward to!!! =D

Andrew said we took like 500-600 plus shots......was worried that we'd have a hard time choosing the best ones out.....then Darling reminded me that we'll get all images back in soft-copy, but in low resolution....so we only have to choose the best ones for the album...which, I think is really good....hehe...at least we don't have to die selecting those we wanna keep...it's easy to choose the best...but not easy to choose the ones you want to keep.... =)

Anyway......had my English test yesterday...was a little tricky..but....I guess I did the best I could.... =)

Went shopping with Darling and Angela on Sunday to get Darling's shirt, tie and suspenders...I think he looks really cute.....brings out the entire mood that we wanna create for the wedding dinner...hehe.....we got shades too....supposed to use for the wedding, but ended up not taking them out at all!! Still have to buy our shoes for the dance, coz we really wanna carry the entire mood across....

They both then forced me to go for a manicure and pedicure...the first i've ever done in my life...call me a country bumpkin if u may...I just never saw the need for it......though I like how my nails look neat and nice, I seriously find it quite a torture when waiting for my nails to dry!! Don't understand how some people love it.....I guess...I just don't have the patience to sit still and do absolutely nothing.....

Luke's helping us think of ideas for the wedding car....so we'll really have to put our heads together to come up with something......i like his idea though...

Oh ya......dear nigel, thanks for your wonderful idea of getting Robin that special gift of the blue and yellow fish for us to look after...but i guess it's really not feasible right now...Not when I don't even have space anymore....but the thought is really special and sweet...sorry we couldn't keep it.... =D

Can't wait to get home to see Darling again...missign him so......don't know why but the shoot seems to have invoked all the wonderful "honeymoon" feelings of when we first got together.....haha....never used to miss him so much...even when I'm only not seeing him for the day!!!