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Yay...the Legion Blog is completed. Many thanks to Monica! haha...it's still a bit plain la...due to the lack of posts...but..we'll do wat we can to spice it up....=p

Anyway, had my second last fitting for my gowns yesterday.....I think I lost somemore weight...*jumps in glee* coz both my gowns now feel a little loose. Am quite worried I'll lose more weight though...so will be going for my final fitting next monday.....=)

Then I went to re-colour my hair....didn't do much la...just that the highlights are far more obvious now....Darling's promised he'll be doing his hair highlights for the wedding too! Yay.. it's been like 3 years since he's had highlights coz he's in army and all.......=)

We met Angela, and went for Sakae....haven't eaten so much Sushi in my life before.....and to think they were all $1.99 plates....we spent like $53!! But it was good fun....chilling, talking, just enjoying one another's company. Talked about lots and lots of stuff. We left for home quite early though...coz Angela's on morning shift today......

so....came back..got more prep done for the wedding.....then Darling and me had a VERY long talk for like an hour or so? It's been so long since we talked like that. Not thinking about anything else, or looking at anything else......and our main focus on one another. I love it when we have talks like that......coz Darling totally lets down all his barriers, and talks to me wholeheartedly, and everything I hear is truly from his heart. We talked about our fears for life after the wedding, our insecurities about everything else around us, as well as the knowledge and security of our love for the other person.

Maybe that's what is keeping us strong. =)

I think it's absolutely necessary for any relationship (whether friends, lovers or families) to have talks like that once in a while... where you let all guard down, be yourself, and talk to one another from the heart...there's no fear of judgement or fear of rejection, coz you know the other person is as vulnerable as you are.....it's at these points that you know you truly love and have affection for the other person.

on another note.....had a super long talk over MSN with Chan on Sunday night...... he said many things I never thought he'd say, but it just goes to show how much he's grown and matured in this entire year. =) It was good having someone with no prejudice or subjectivity actually giving you his real view...and I really appreciate it, coz no one else has been giving me comments like that...comments that really made me think and reflect about my own actions, and not the other person we were talking about. Though I've only really known him in the last 2 weeks or so, but I somehow feel that we are similar...maybe it's coz of the birth order (which actually really makes a difference in the way you act and react!), in which we both are the youngest of 3 or 4 kids.....his determination and patience, and cool-headedness really impresses me, and is something I truly admire........For a guy his age, he sure seemed my age when we were talking that night.........haha....shall stop praising him though...anyway... yup... because of what he said, I've tried to do something about the friendship. I don't know if it'll work, but I've tried.

Thanks for giving me the courage to try...I really do appreciate it. Whatever happens now, i'll leave it in God's hands.

Funny how I've so much less confidence these days. Much as I appear to be without fear and very very confident, the truth is I'm actually far more timid inside....and it's only those close to my heart who know the real me. Yet, it's actually worsening. Ha. I haven't gotten better over the years, but instead, am becoming worse. I think being with Darling actually made me become less confident coz I no longer rely on my own decisions but his as well. Maybe it's coz I'm no longer responsible to myself for my own actions...but coz any actions of mine will have a repercussion on him as well. Is that good or bad? I really don't know......=)

Ah well.....much to do today.......I really hope everything turns out for the best.........