♥ Eternity

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Just found out where I'll be teaching for my Teaching Assistantship.....my first practicum attachment.....5 weeks of Term 3......my alma mater, SACPS....it was my dream. It still is my dream. But an evil witch marred that dream...I just hope I don't end up getting her as my CT. And if I do....maybe God has better plans. Maybe He wants me to touch her heart. Any how, I am just gonna leave everything in God's hands, and just do the best i can...... Hopefully I turn out to be a good teacher to the children. For this is the school I'll be returning to for my second and final attachment. sighz...just hope my CTs are nice, and that my teachers from my primary school years love me enough to guide me along the way.....

Had a super duper long day today....actually, ain't really that long, come to think of it....but the officers' meeting sure tired me out.....so much to plan for the next half of the year.....just hope it all falls into place. what with the recruitment activity-cum-da xing kang le in June, the Retreat in August, and our camp in December....all these are but the tip of the iceberg......

sigh....come to think of it....we, the curia officers have been in position for almost 2 years now.... 1 more year till election. Have we done enough? I really have no idea. All I know is that we saved it from something that was dying, and injected life into it. Yet, all our hard work may come to naught if the old fogeys do not see how much we want to make this work....our passion to keep this fire burning. That's why we came back. To save a dying Army....so that new soldiers can be recruited, trained, and prepare these new battallions for future wars, for more important wars that we were meant to fight. Yet, they choose not to fight against evil, to fight against touching the lives of those whom we were meant to touch, but to instead fight against themselves, to save their stupid pride of the language. Is that really more important? Or is the work of God more important? I really have no idea. All I know is that we have given half our lives for this cause..... and it's up to them to realise that......

But, the ball is now in their court, not ours. We will attempt to fight our last battle come the next meeting on August 24....if we fail this battle, all I can say is, unless they find a better successor, or rather better successors who are willing to make Legion conform to their ways and methods, this will be the last battle ever fought in our time as a Legionary. The Mandarin Youth Legion may or may not see its last days.......all that will be up to that fateful meeting....

Of course, it's still God's will. If we fail, maybe it's coz He knows this plan will not work; maybe it's coz He does not see its point; maybe He knows that our departure will bring better days for Legion. All I know is that we, the current reign have done all we could. I once vowed never to leave Legion, because it is Legion that brought meaning to my life; it is Legion that gave me my soulmate; it is Legion that gave me my friends and so much more in the spiritual aspect. But if it has to come to this, I would say that I've done all I could for this cause.......and I have to choose to leave because the changes that I see are essential for the flame to continue burning will not be recognised because old fogeys are not willing to try and see the changes that must be made. Then, it's sad to say this but, our future looks bleak....... should u read this fellow Legionaries, I urge you to pray.....not so much for our success....but for God's will for this ministry....He has His plans.......He knows what is best for us..........

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