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Thursday, July 24, 2008

hmmm...... this week has been amazing....... really........ as time goes by, i'm convinced this is what I was meant to do.

Teaching is a job i'm cut out for.........

Not that I'm saying I'm great at it.....but how fulfilling it is.........

All those "complaints" I had about staying up late? Seriously, I think it's all worth it when you see how much the students enjoy their lessons. I don't mind wrecking my brain cells, killing a million of them just to ensure that they have a lesson in which they are able to bring home something more than just information they are supposed to learn from the textbook. That's what teaching is all about. It sure ain't all about the good grades only, but the all-round education, and seeing how much they appreciate it all at the end of the day, is beyond words.

It has only been 5 weeks with this bunch of girls, and yet I feel I've bonded with them so closely already. I may not have touched all their hearts, but it feels good enough to know that I've touched the hearts of those who have not been popular all this while.......to know that the ones who never raised their hands before, are now the ones who raise their hands every once in a while just to try to attempt answering the questions I raise........to see the ones who tried to disrupt lessons and not bother about what the teacher is saying change into the ones who now try a little harder to listen, who welcome my lessons, and to give me a smile and a shout whenever they see me.

These are the things that make me smile.

These are the things that make me feel that this is all worthwhile.

These are the things that make me want to give a little more to them.

Some teachers have shared that teaching girls is a little harder than teaching boys because girls tend to hold grudges slightly more than boys do. I do not disagree. Yet, I also feel that if we do care enough, and if we do our part to show them that we do care, and that it is not out of anger at them as a person that we are scolding them, they learn even more from us, from the fact that they learn that it is the action that is being reprimanded, and not the person, and through this, they learn to be a better person, who thinks before she acts.

I have not been a pushover in class so far. In fact, I do try my very best to uphold discipline. People who know me in Legion know that to be true of me, for I am the disciplinarian in our little ministry. I may not be as loud in class, but I sure am harder in class. And though the fun and caring side of me is portrayed more often than not, yet, they know better than to cross the line. And this is where I feel I've bonded with the class.

5 of them came together to bake me a cake as a farewell gift. That is so amazingly sweet. I didn't know what to say.

Each time they see me in school, they scream my name as if they've never seen me before. They wave frantically for my attention, even when I am going to the hall to collect them to do their corrections. They amaze me.....truly. I never expected this kind of impact on them. Not in 5 weeks.

And i'm also aware that another bunch of them are frantically folding stars for me, hoping to complete something to give to me before I leave. And they are so eager about it, telling me each day that they have a surprise for me. I can't help but smile.

Seriously, is teaching far worse than my previous job?

I really do not think so.

The rewards are endless. The joy you get through the children is amazing. It's an undescribable feeling when you see the light in their eyes.

This is something I could never get from my previous job. And this is what is making me more convinced that this is what I'm cut out for...............

On another note.......

Just watched Dark Knight with Darling and Angela.

Extremely fantastic show. Totally worth the money for action, plot, acting, and everything else.

Going deeper into the storyline, it's about what is truly moral, what justice really is.....how human we really are............. how two-faced we all can be, because when the chips are off, which side will you go for? How noble are you going to be?

When faced off with a decision in which you choose to save yourself or to save others, which one would you choose?

When your loved one is stolen right before your eyes, and there was nothing you could do about it, what would you become?

How truly strong is the human spirit?

These are questions that this movie makes you ask yourself whilst being entertaining and totally intriguing.

Excellent show, and a totally must-watch.

11:40 PM