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Sunday, October 12, 2008

ah.........why is the promise of freedom from morning sickness eluding me????

i'm still puking....i'm so not free from it...... this week, i've puked every other day.......and it's no longer food that comes out, but lots of water....... seriously, i feel like the merlion...... totally sucks......

i no longer find joy in food.....coz i get full after eating a little, and before my stomach is even filled, i can't eat no more, for fear that it comes back out.......and less than 2 hours later, i'm hungry again......

sighz...... are the bad days returning to haunt me??? i really hope not........

grandpa's made the decision of not going for the op....... my dad and me were giving him our two cents' worth of advice...... felt that there was no point in going for the op....i mean, just leave it in God's hands...... pray, and have faith....that's the best we can do when he's already so old.....why tempt fate??? after all, the op might only make things worse than they already are.....

hmmmm....rushing all my assignments out now..... it's the crux of the sem.....and, i hate the fact that i'm procrastinating so much to do my work...... based on the normal ol' me, i should have completed them already....but no...i'm still haunted daily by deadlines because i'm procrastinating and not doing them when i'm supposed to.....

darling and me just did a calculation on our finances...and we're so so so stretched. seriously. it worries the crap out of us.....and it doesn't help that expenses are going up with the monthly doctor's appointments, the parking and petrol for the car, the higher intake of food.....sheesh.... we're unable to save as much as before............ a cry of help to those who still owe us money..... we really need the cash asap......not for us...but for our little baby's savings fund.........

sighz...i'm tiring out really easily lately.......... only on thursday, darling and me went to sleep at 8pm, and we didn't wake up till the next morning. it was sheer madness. i don't even know why we were so tired. it scares me really how tired i can be....... i can't even seem to stand on my feet stationary for more than 10 mins......by then, i'd be feeling really dizzy.....

can't help but look at my fellow pregnant colleagues and wonder why they are so full of life. i wonder if it's just me and how my body is reacting to it....

ah well...... sorry for the depressing post......it's just my hormones and the fact that i'm feeling absolutely horrible after puking today away.......... darling's on duty again tomorrow....i totally dread the day already.........not sure if i'd be well enough to make it for curia on my own.... we'll just have to pray and see........

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