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I am utterly exhausted.

the last 6 days have been total craziness for me. for those of you who already know, Darling is down with a really bad viral fever. The first 2 days he was ill, his fever ranged between 39 - 40 deg C..... I nearly went mad sponging him down, taking his temp, giving him medicine, preparing food for him. I am only thankful that Baby didn't choose to act up during this period and gave me some peace of mind....... his fever only really started to go down on Monday, but even then, his "normal" body temperature was at a constant 38 deg..... and he didn't have much appetite, so it was a real headache thinking of what I could cook for him. Thank goodness after his 3rd jab and blood test yesterday, his fever finally decided to take a U-turn, and drop off for a little bit....luckily the blood test results for dengue came back negative, and doc says he's on the road to recovery. Am so thankful la.... sighz.....

Because of all the worry and sleepless nights, my body has suffered in its own way too.... am extremely listless and tired now, with not much appetite to eat. somehow, Baby's asking for attention, knowing that Daddy is getting better slowly........ was telling the doc that I'm worried Darling's illness will be caught by me, and that Baby will suffer. He was reassuring me that Baby will be safe and fine.

Friday is our next appointment with the gynae, and Darling's really hoping to get better so that he can see Baby....that's his only goal in life right now. =)

Humph..... the peak of assignment due dates are here....at a really wrong timing, and due to my tiredness, I'm at a total lack of inspiration for all of them....had planned to finish them and hand everything in by Tuesday this week, but because I was so exhausted from looking after Darling, I had no choice but to take an MC.......

The peak of camp planning is also now...... and am rather stressed out with the way things are going.........everything's not up to standards and there are still programs missing.....sighz...so so much to do.....i wonder how it's even possible that people are telling me to let go, and let others do the job....right now, that seems near impossible. thank goodness angela's starting to step up, and nigel has stepped in. somehow, darling, myself and the 2 of them have done enough camps together to know that 4 of us can run any camp if things really get dire......and that's comforting enough, at least for now. In my current condition, there's no way darling and me can do it alone, so........it does seem kinda daunting......

I need a break. Badly. Want to get away from it all....our trip to HK may be dampened, not only by money...but also cos angela's mum is super against my travelling coz of my pregnancy. I react in sheer puzzlement as I've seen tonnes of pregnant mummies go on their trip and return just fine. I wish there were many other places I could go to that were equally cheap if not cheaper...but it doesn't help that it's the monsoon season, and our neighbouring countries are all out of the question. I really wanna go overseas coz it's the last proper trip darling and me can go off as a couple........come next year, we'll have one (or maybe more in the future!) little one tagging along for the rest of our lives! Our next trip in sight is Europe, but that will have to wait till this little cow is about 3 or 4, old enough to appreciate stuff....... and so........ i'm really praying that we can go on this one.........