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Friday, January 30, 2009

Ah....... I cannot stand this.

Feeling really irritable these days... I dunnoe if it's my hormones at work, or if it's just me. People who know me and my style of work and preparation know that I'm NEVER a last minute person. I like my things organized and prepared, ready for anything to happen at anytime. This is how I approach my life and my work. Others can do what they like, as long as it doesn't affect me, and as long as they finish it by the deadline that has been set. But for myself, everything MUST be ready long before the deadline, as far as possible. I'm a tough worker, and a workaholic in any sense.... you can call me a perfectionist in some sense as well..... but that's who I am, and that's the way I feel most comfortable working.......

Baby's arrival is in 7 weeks. As of now, the room is still only halfway prepared for its arrival. I cannot take it. I need my room in full order as I imagined it, so should Baby decide to enter the world early, everything would have been prepared already. All was fine, and by end of Feb, I should get everything done already. However, my godfather just happily convinced my Dad that there's no need to buy all the furniture that I wanna buy so early.... because it's so easy, and anyway, according to him, we ought not to be moving furniture around. BUT...... I don't want to have to return from the hospital with nothing ready for the baby, and still having to worry about buying all the stuff! I want to come home a rested mum, with everything ready for my baby, so that all I have to worry about is to learn how to take care of the child in the best possible manner and not worry about such mundane and unnecessary stuff!!!!!!!!

*rolls eyes*

The suckiest part is that my dad couldn't even be bothered with listening to such superstitious things about buying new furniture in...... but now, he's completely bought over by my godfather's words. And once my dad has set his mind to something, it's almost impossible to change it!

I had planned to go buy everything with my darling today or tomorrow. I want to clear all these mess out of my head.... so that I can complete the rest of my assignments before the end of the semester....... just had to do what I can to try and secure my teaching position in SAC, which is 'threatened' because of a lot of disruption due to my pregnancy.

Everything's hanging in mid-air right now..... uncompleted, unfinished. I hate leaving things half-done...... It just leaves more things in my mind to be thought about.... and being the workaholic that I am, my brain can't stop thinking about all these things..... working things out..... sheesh.

humph...i sound like a crazy person right now, ranting and raving.....but I need a place to air my grouses.

Doesn't help that I just sprained my ankle real badly yesterday..... which makes walking much harder than it already was... I was waddling before....now i'm limping and waddling. Add to that my increased weight, my good ankle is really suffering from it all.....

I guess that just makes me a far grumpier person than i already was.

Sigh.

i really hope everything works out soon........ so I can stop thinking about some things.... and focus more on preparing myself for what lies ahead...........

1:20 PM