Saturday, February 28, 2009
Just caught the show Marley and Me....... had originally wanted to catch it because firstly, it's about dogs......and the trailer looked good too.... but then, the reviews in the new paper was quite bad....so, I was a little reluctant as to whether to watch it or not...... But then again, how bad can a movie about dogs be? So, Darling and me decided to catch it anyway........We definitely were not disappointed at all......I guess, the movie was so much more meaningful to us because we could identify with the main characters of the show in so many ways....... starting a family, venturing on untrodden ground, the fear of having to give up our dreams for the family, the possible sleepless nights that awake us, and having our lives border on the brink of insanity because of the child....... it's things I've been thinking about and fearing all these while as Baby's due date inches nearer........ of course, Darling's dog is also aging...... she's 10 this year, which is really quite old in dog years....... so, I guess the fear of losing her is also present....... All that just made the show so much more real...... and that's what made it so much more impactful on the both of us..........it's been an hour since the movie, and the both of us are still shaken by it....... I think we both spent the last 15 mins of the show tearing........something common for me, but really rare for darling....... Although the show obviously paints a pretty picture of how the couple survived all the nonsense they had to go through whilst coping with the demands of a child...... yet, it just reminded the both of us that we need to be really patient with each other, and when things really do get bad.... we just need to take a short breather and clear our heads because exhaustion can get in the way of clear-headed thinking......... I guess we really have to remember the mantra taught to us during the EE, which is to be life-giving to one another, and to make decisions out of love for the other person..........Sigh..........Anyway, I had my first bout of 'practice' contractions today....or so I think.....I'm not really sure myself....I've read so so much about it..... but, not one person can tell me exactly how it feels like, so I'm not sure myself..... Darling was so worried that it was the real thing...... but, my heart just tells me it's not today....I think! But my tummy is truly feeling weird today....... and my back was hurting like mad last night....... Is it gonna get worse? I should think so...... I just hope I have the mental and physical capacity to go through it. Seriously, that's all I'm praying for right now...... I really hope I don't have to make use of any medical help to get through the pain that I'm anticipating..... I mean, so many women have survived it before us...... our bodies were designed for this natural act...... we shouldn't need any medical interference...... but, it's all easier said than done...... and I'm just praying for strength..... A couple of things have occurred in Legion lately that makes the possible path ahead for this ministry I so love so much clearer....... Darling and me seem to be able to see where this is all heading........ apparently plans and steps have been taken in various directions to come where it is today....... but it's all speculation on our part..... though we may not be 100% sure, but it sure appears to be that way.... I dunno if it's the best way out for Legion....but then again, I'm only human...... and with our priorities on our family..... I guess we both just have to let go, and trust that the Lord will lead it in the right direction. Whatever it is, I believe that the both of us have done what we could in the last 3 years......... the road ahead for this ministry, though uncertain, yet I'm sure God will guide them through.........
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