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Saturday, March 07, 2009

These last 3 days have been bad.

Sigh.

I have no appetite to eat anything at all.
Not craving for anything, don't feel like putting anything in my mouth.
And when I finally do eat, I feel like puking.
It sucks.
And my mum keeps reminding me that I've to eat cos I'm pregnant.
I know I am.
But I can't help it if Baby is causing me to not want to eat.
It's not like I'm dieting or anything....

Ah well.......

I can't fall asleep either.
I think I'm suffering from insomnia.
Really really sleepy.
But I just can't fall asleep.
And when I do fall asleep, I awaken super easily.
I'm just thankful that I'm not teaching right now, or both me and the kids would be suffering.
As a result of the lack of sleep, I have a constant headache,
And I get super emotional.
But I don't know what to do about it.

When I get real frustrated coz I can't sleep,
I wake poor Darling up.....
And that's the only way I manage to sleep in the end,
On his arm/chest.
You'll probably be asking, "Why don't you just go to sleep like that in the first place?"
Well, it ain't that easy.....coz he'll end up getting cramps in his arm from the position.
Secondly, he likes to sleep on his side....so when I do sleep like that, he's uncomfortable too.
So I try to do it only when I really can't put myself to sleep.

For those of you who are wondering, Darling is getting better.
He's out playing soccer now, even though he shouldn't be exercising considering that his chest is congested.
But I believe he knows his own limits.
And it's been a year or so since he played soccer, and it's something he enjoys.
How possible is it for him to do so in a carefree manner after baby is born?
I decided to let him go anyway.....

On a lighter note, his 2 day MC has allowed us to spend some quality time together.
I really appreciate it.

Hmmm.......

Baby has been acting up lately.
I'm not sure if what I experienced two nights ago was only a kickstart to the full experience of contractions.
No one seems to be able to fully describe to me how it feels.
It sucks to know I'll be experiencing it and that that is usually the one that tells you you're in labour, and yet, not know exactly how it feels.
All my friends who've just delivered have been induced..... meaning, it wasn't exactly unplanned, if you know what I mean.
By the way, for the record, only 11% of all pregnant women ever experience their water bag bursting before they reach the hospital. So all those nonsense drama we see on TV is unreal.

Anyway, the other night, it was real bad.
Not a sharp pain kind of bad, which is good, coz I can "tahan" this kinda pain better than sharp ones.
My whole spine felt like it was cramping up.....
All my leg muscles felt weak and strengthless.......
Baby felt like he/she was moving downwards.......so my whole stomach was hurting.....
And in addition to that, Baby was kicking in all directions, so it felt like my stomach was being pulled in all 4 corners.
I cried coz I didn't know how to ease the pain.
But they were silent tears.
If it's gonna be this bad, I'm kinda thankful.
Coz I know I'd probably kill something if it were sharp pain instead.
But then again.....
I guess I wouldn't know until the time comes, would I?
*shrugs*

Ah.... random post once again.

Can't be helped.
I just woke up.
Shall go rack my brains on what to eat for breakfast/brunch/lunch......

12:21 PM