♥ Eternity

Monday, March 02, 2009

Working without a dream is treacherous.
Dreaming without working will always leave it a dream.

I'm scarily melancholic and deep in thought these days.

I also happen to relish time with Darling more and more.
The fear of losing our freedom is really getting to me.

At the same time though, I can't wait for Baby to arrive. Neither can Darling.
It's not only the anxiety of wanting to see the being that's been lovingly created and nurtured in the last 9 months, but also the want to spend more time with Baby before I have to start work once more.

Many people want to exclusively spend the first year with their Babies....how many have that kind of luxury?
I wish I did.
Did you know my ultimate dream in life is to be a housewife?
Now you do....
Which is why I keep questioning the occurrences in my life together with my dreams.
But God has His plans, and I have to stick to them.
I do want to be the kind of Mummy and wife that's there for the family....
after all, I am a workaholic.......
But, I know I'll manage and survive.

Busy working on the invitation cards for Baby's first month.
It's a lot of work.
But it does save the cash......
And well, it keeps me from being ever so bored.

Being pregnant gives you weird dreams.
I'm serious.
I get weird people appearing in my dreams....people whom I rarely think about.
Having them appear is one thing. They do weird unspeakable things in my dreams.
*shudders*
Thank God dreams are not real.
But the memories of the dreams are..... and they haunt my mind during the day......

Ah well..... super random post....
this is what happens when you have too much time on your hands,
and nothing you can do about it.
There's so much housework waiting for me......but none I can tackle due to Darling and Mummy's nagging that I ought to be resting......
*rolls eyes*
Didn't our grannies survive just the same, doing housework when they were pregnant and stuff?

Anxiety for labour day scares me.
Fear of the healing process after labour scares me even more.
But what scares me most is learning to be responsible for a whole new life....
A life that I have to be responsible for, for the rest of my life.
Yet, I can't help but still wonder,
"Baby, when are you coming out?"

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