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Thursday, April 30, 2009

it's been quite a while since i last posted... the entire week since my last post has been total madness....haven't been so busy in quite a while....

All the prep for Baby Faith's 1st month - the food, the minimal decor, completing the video, arranging her photos in order.... these are things i usually wouldn't have found difficult to do.... but with a baby in tow, it sure makes everything different....

She went to church for the first time on Saturday evening. Darling and me thought it would be a better idea to 'traumatize' her on two separate days, rather than to cram it all on Sunday..... tried going to the 'children's' room to sit.. but it was insane. I don't understand the parents these days. The room is meant for toddlers and infants, but the place was filled with many other kinds of people!!! all the adults and siblings of the toddlers/infants, and they were all making so much noise!! Eating, laughing, talking, screaming. It wasn't even like a mass-going atmosphere. I saw kids of almost 10 years old eating chocolates and handing them around to her friends! Sheesh.. I really don't know what to say.

Faith was extremely traumatized by the loud noises in the room. Darling and me then decided to attend mass with the normal congregation instead, since people there are quieter. Even then, Faith was scared... the throngs of people she saw... the loud noises and being surrounded by people singing.... the voice of the choir and the priest coming through the speakers.... she was scared... but she didn't make any noise.. it was only after we left the church that she started wailing.

Darling and me had wanted to go for dinner...had called Angela along... we chose to go the airport, assuming there wouldn't be as many people there as compared to TM. once again, we were wrong. Children screaming everywhere.... and all the places were chock full of people. We ended up resorting to eating BK.... sigh... but the poor girl was kicking up such a fuss, I decided it was best to take away the food.

She hadn't slept all day.... and not until 2am did she even lull herself to sleep. The poor girl was tired and hungry... so she was too hungry to sleep, but too tired to drink her milk... =(

Sunday wasn't any better.... there were so many people that came... talking to her, seeing her, touching her... she was scared once more... plus the environment was all different..... she cried from 10++ all the way till 2am once more... it was a nightmare.. both for her and for us...

Having to entertain guests whilst watching over her caused us to not be able to take any pictures of the whole event at all..... =(

We spent much of Monday trying to get her to feel better.... and the last few days were also for us to recuperate ourselves....

One good thing has happened... hehe.. she gave us her first gurgle.... It was so nice to hear... and she has now begun to make her own noises in her attempt to communicate as well.. =)

hmm....... for our clique of friends with whom we always meet up prior to Faith's arrival? Thanks so much for watching over her whilst we tried to entertain the guests. We owe you a treat..... =) Whilst we are trying to get used to the changes in our life now that Faith is in it, I guess it is also time for all of you to adapt to the idea that things will no longer be the same. I believe the idea is shocking... that your friends now have a kid. =) haha. But we are no longer as free as before, so our movie, dinner and coffee dates would likely be impossible... That is something all of you have to understand and try to adapt yourselves to.

Our lives now revolve around her.... and she is our main priority. Bringing a child along when we go out is not an option we want to deal with, especially when she is so young. (and with the swine flu swarming around!)

Others may be content to leave their kid with others whilst they go out to continue their lives as before.... but that's not us. It's not that we don't trust anyone else... it's just that she's such a big part of our lives that we don't wish to leave her out of anything... and right now, she has needs that need to be fulfilled... warmth, security, food and sleep... all of which is best to be fulfilled at home... so... I guess it's nowhere in the near future that we'd be running out to meet you up for dinner or coffee.... much later maybe... but definitely not now... and that's something that we both hope that everyone else can understand. After all, we both are family-oriented people, and our family unit is extremely important to us. Her upbringing is something we view as 1st priority, and something we will not compromise... =)

Anyway, enough talk for now... here's more photos, taken prior to the weekend!

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