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Monday, May 04, 2009

one more week till i head back to school for nonsense programmes.

so much for Compulsory Enrichment Programmes. the programmes planned don't even look enriching in any sense! =(

i really don't feel like being away from Faith at all. I may not want to deal with her cries all day long and all, but I definitely do not want to be away from her so soon and for such long hours! the programmes last each day from 8-5... if i add in my travelling time, it'd be from 6.45 - 6++!!! And the programmes aren't even gonna make a difference in my teaching. sheesh.

it really is a waste of time.

all my teaching peers who've come to visit Baby have been complaining about their practicum. ALL of them. and that makes me worried. I asked them why, and they said it's not about writing lesson plans, but coming up with ideas to impress their CTs and Supervisors for all the lesson observations.... it's worrying.

I'll be starting on mine in July.. and with a baby to handle each night, i'm not sure how i'd handle it and how i'd fare. there'd be so much to do and think about. What also worries me is that I know I'd be teaching a P4 class... and last year I was teaching P4 at around the same time... which means that the topics covered would be about the same. As I'd be observed to see how I've improved since last year, it means i'd have to come up with even better ideas and ways of teaching the topic as compared to what i did last year!!

Coming up with ideas and ways to teach is one thing. Trying to surpass what I have previously come up with is a totally different thing!

I really hope I can manage.

But I won't think about that for now.. i'll just worry about handling the 2 weeks of nonsense programmes.

Swine Flu. Sigh... I do want to bring Faith out for fresh air, take walks in the park... spend time with her.. but with the virus, it's really not very safe to take her out....

we are in a way quite blessed though... coz we'd wanted to do her first month party on the weekend that just passed, but we did it the week before because Darling's gonna be busy at work this week...... with what happened at Aloha... i'm really thankful we did it last week!!!

then of course, with the Swine Flu... i know Faith will have a less traumatic baptism coz she probably won't get immersed in water with the fear of spreading of the virus... they'll probably do it the traditional way of pouring water over her head.... so... it's not as scary.. =)

the last few days have passed by in a blur... Faith seems to have her sleeping hours all messed up... i think her night starts anytime after 12 midnight or later and lasts till 10+ in the morning... sigh.. .so it's quite tiring trying to get her to sleep at night.

But, we're surviving.

Did i mention that Faith has my temper?? It's madness.... she has it... and she's so irritable when she's angry... just like me. Oh no....you all know my temper... so just imagine it in a smaller body!! hee...

when we're both in a happy mood or either one of us is calm, it's not so bad.. but when she gets angry for no rhyme or reason, that riles me up too.. and then... it's a clash of characters!!

as one of my friends told me, it gets easier as each day goes by....i don't feel that... not at least until 1 week has passed, then i look back on the previous week, and realise that it is easier... all of us at home are more familiar with her tantrums and needs now... though there are still times that we are puzzled as to why she's crying, or if she's really hungry... but... they are far lesser as compared to when she first came home...

ah well... i need to chill a bit.. nap a bit... darling and me have resorted to using medicated plasters on our back coz we are so tired from carrying her! but it's worth it...

11:12 AM