♥ Eternity

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Next week marks the last time we'll be running the Curia meeting as officers... it's scary how 3 years has gone by....

After July... we'll no longer be directly part of Legion anymore. It's scary... hard to imagine even. I do fear the future coz even all the older ones who are remaining are having their major exams this year.... I wish we didn't have to go... I don't exactly wish to turn my back on them when it's on such uncertain ground... yet, both Darling and myself don't like to be part of something that we can't give our 100% to.... we don't wish to shortchange anyone or anything... and in any case, I believe that God has His plans. After all, it's not like we're walking out on Legion... as I've told the younger ones many times before.... we're just absent physically... emotionally, mentally, spiritually, we are still there, and all they have to do is ask... and we'll gladly lend them a hand, a listening and discerning ear... and advice if they need it.

Right now, the politics are really getting to us... plus.... Faith truly does need all the attention and time she can get from us.... charity begins in the the home... we bought her into this world, we're responsible for her upbringing.....it's only fair that she gets more time from us.... if we stayed, we'd only be shortchanging Legion as well as Faith... and everyone would be miserable....

My darling baby is now 11 weeks and 2 days old. She'll be turning 3 months soon. It really is scary how time flies past you without you noticing it at all...

I look forward to each morning I spend with her, awaiting the brightest smiles and grins from her the moment she opens her eyes.... and when she realizes I'm going to bathe her, she gets all excited and starts kicking her legs in anticipation of the water... All these moments are priceless and I treasure them so because I know that with each day that passes, the time I have with her gets shorter and shorter before I have to go back to work once again...

It's been a long long weekend with Darling away on duty...... I used to fear these times when I'm all alone with her, because I fear that I can't handle her if she gets fussy and cries non-stop.... but now... I just keep in mind what one of my friends said to me, that sometimes, all she wants from us is just to be held and cuddled.....

It's getting slightly easier to look after her with each week that passes.. .and lately, she's been real wonderful to us, always sleeping through the night.... thus allowing us to have a good rest...

Nigel and Sheena dropped by on Saturday to see her.... It was real nice of them, considering that Nigel has already been away for 3 weeks, and would be out of camp only for the weekend.... before he even suggested dropping by, I had wanted to ask if they could come over... then I kinda felt that it was more important for them to spend couple time together, especially since their time together is so precious.

Yet even then, they still bothered to come over.... just to see Baby Faith and to spend some time with her.... it's nice to see them interacting with her, playing with her, and trying to entertain her... I really appreciated their presence... =)

Baby Faith is a very interesting child.... she doesn't mind people around her, but yet, she dislikes everyone else talking in the background, or when there's too much attention focused on her.... what she loves is for people to strike up a conversation with her, one to one... I guess that's the best way to bond with her... =) She's such a talkative child, yet she responds to you only if she wants to... haha... what character she has... =D

She somehow enjoys the television though... yet Darling and me strictly forbid her from watching the tv...at least not until she's much older... considering we both are already myopic, she doesn't have very good 'eye' genes to begin with....so we're gonna protect her eyes as far as possible... plus, the moving images aren't exactly very good for her development either... =)

hmmm...this month is gonna be the last month I receive my paycheck... after which, it'll be 3 more months before my next paycheck arrives. It's gonna be a torture trying to survive only on Darling's salary, especially with the increase in our monthly expenditure with Faith's necessities, as well as the car... I still remember how we both could survive with less than $800 to spend between the both of us when we were trying to save every cent we could for our wedding... with the drop in income for 3 months and after deducting all our fixed expenditure, we have less than $600 to spend each month. It's insane.... when it's just two of us, I guess it's possible... but with Faith... it ain't gonna be easy... but I guess we'll just have to make it work.

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