♥ Eternity

Monday, June 15, 2009

I'm tired.

Lately I've fallen in love with cooking once more.. not that I ever stopped liking it! But it's just that i was ever so lazy to cook ever since I got pregnant... but my vibes for cooking just came back again, and i've been at it non-stop.. =)

these few days we've been bringing Baby Faith out a lot.. in a way, i guess i'm sick of being cooped up at home.. .yet on the other hand, we also want to bring her out more often to let her get used to being outdoors. I guess going out also helps us to spend some small family time together.... =)

She's becoming super super playful, and always looking for people to play with her... and she no longer fusses as much these days... she's such an angel.... =D sometimes i can't help but wonder what Darling and myself did to deserve a child as beautiful and perfect as she is. Many a time i still can't believe that she's the product of us.... no doubt God created her.. but... i still can't imagine that she's our child... that i carried her for 9 months... and that i gave birth to her....

Life is really a miracle... =)

Anyway.. Darling and myself 'hosted' our last Curia meeting yesterday.

For the first time in 3 years there were sOOOO many people. All because of the election that was to take place after the meeting.
Baby Faith came alone coz my mum wasn't free. She was perfect throughout the meeting. =)

My prediction for all the posts came true... i do wonder if i influenced some of the votes... but oh well.. i guess it's God's will.. =)
it feels weird to know that we're leaving.
it feels weird to know that our Sundays will no longer be tied down by Legion activites....
Even though we did leave Legion back then in 2005..... yet this time, it feels different.
I asked Darling why.
He told me that back then, we left on impulse and out of anger and frustration.
This time... we are leaving because we have given everything that we can possibly give.
We've sustained what was a dying ministry then.... in fact, we almost brought it back to life.
We've tried to change it for the better, to give it a brighter future....
But it seems that things wouldn't go the way we wanted it to.
Plus, we have a new life in existence now, and we can no longer give the same kind of time and committment that we expect from ourselves as officers of a ministry we both love and owe everything we have to....
Maybe it's for the better.
God probably has His own plans.
Plans that we humankind are still yet to be aware of...

All we have to do is to trust that this is all for the better.
To believe in His will....

Darling and myself may no longer be physically there... but emotionally and mentally we are still striving on with them..... that's our promise...
Nigel, Darling and me... we 3 are the last existing souls from the 1998 era.
Can't believe that it's been 11 years already....
And our time is now up...
We've given everything we could possibly give, and now, with our other committments, it ain't gonna be easy for us to hang on.... so all we can do is to let go..

All I can say to my fellow Legionaries reading this is,
Remember that each and every one of us has been chosen by Mary to be her soldiers...
We didn't choose her... she chose us........
And in times of difficulty, never forget to turn back to her to ask her for her guidance and intercessions........
Whatever she asks of you, just give it all... and you will get your due rewards.....

11:31 PM