♥ Eternity

Saturday, June 27, 2009

This is so so so so so disappointing.

i've read a couple of blogs in the last hour or so as i'm doing other stuff..... namely, those who had some outing yesterday.
(Those of you who don't know me well enough probably think i'm super kaypoh to read all your blogs...but to me, I read only coz I care about your lives.. and about what is happening to you...)

i have ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA what were the exact contents of what all of you talked about.... but from what I gather through your words, Darling and me more or less got the idea.

We are speechless.

Speechless beyond words.

Your fight hasn't even BEGUN.. and all of you are thinking of giving up?

Is this what you've gained from us in the 3 years or more?

You haven't even taken the first step, but already, all of you are lamenting how tired you are... how much you all can't take it, and wondering if it's all worth it.

If this is the general feel of all of you who are remaining, then we really are fearful of the road ahead.

Ian is still around to help all of you.... Angela, Mark, Nigel, Darling and myself... despite the fact that we aren't physically around any longer, yet did we not offer our help to you? All of you taking over are close to at least one of us stated above.... we are not strangers, and we've all been through thick and thin together. Which makes it such that you all shouldn't even be afraid to ask us for help or advice!

What you are taking over is not in shambles. We can even be your 职委 if you really want us to be. You have to realise that we are quitting not because we want to wash our hands off Legion, but because our personal committments are not gonna allow us to give all of you our very best... and none of us want to shortchange any of you. You may feel that you are not ready... but God is there for you.. and so are we... He will guide you through... all you need is faith and trust...literally.

When we took over. We had NOTHING. Curia attendance was crap. No one bothered about anything. There had been no JXY for a year... we were in ruins. And we had NO HELP at all. In the first year, we had to get everyone back, we had to find a spiritual director all by ourselves, we had to get the Legion spirit back, we had to come up with a far better system and way of doing things, we had to hand in our annual report with ZERO guidance.... yet we NEVER EVER gave up. All because our love for this ministry was so so strong.

And before we knew it, 3 years has gone by.

It's not been an easy road, and we definitely did not do a perfect job. There's so many things that can be improved on, so many things we could have done better.

But one thing for sure. We gave our all. And we NEVER gave up.

And that is what matters.

You can only give your best, and trust in God to do the rest.

He has His plans, which may not be what we planned. We only can trust in Him.

There are so many things I wish I could have done to save this whole situation.
So many ideals.
So many wishes from all of us.

All these aren't fulfilled.
I ain't happy about it.
But I remind myself that what I want may not be what God wants.
And that maybe, our time is up, and that it's up to you, the new generation to take over.

But we did hope that we brought the message across well enough for you all to understand that we ain't going nowhere... and that you'll only be rid of us if you want to.....

Apparently, the message ain't clear enough.

You seem to think you're fighting this journey on your own, and that the future looks bleak.

If that is how all of you are thinking, then I have nothing to say.

We can only be your support.
You all are the ones who must fight on and take action.
But if that alone seems an impossible task to you before you begin,

Then, you have already lost the fight.

We started with no support but ourselves, with many dreams and ideals of others that we had to fulfill.
Yet we didn't give up.
Not for 3 years.
The road is now yours.
It's your decision to make as to whether the battle can still be carried on.

It's your choice. Not ours.
It's not a matter of can or cannot.
It's a matter of will or will not.

As God said,
"I never said it was gonna be easy. I only said it was gonna be worthwhile."

9:33 AM