To say the truth, I can't wait for Term 3 to be over. Then i'll be rid of all of these...... I love my job, I do. I just think my sup's expectations are ridiculous.
I'm not suggesting that being a full-fledged teacher is gonna be FAR easier than what I'm doing now, for there'll be many things to do....and i'll have far more teaching periods than what I have now.
But, i'll feel that my time spent on work will be much more worth it than right now. At the very least, most of my time willl be spent doing admin, dealing with children/parents, marking, etc..... and it's time well spent... rather than spending it doing nothing but planning.
Yes, I do admit. All this planning is making me do much more than I usually would, and I have evolved as a teacher..... But.... just writing the lesson plans alone... sheesh. I could go mad.
I was so stressed a week or so ago, i just broke down.
It really isn't easy going back to work... especially to a job that demands so much of you.... and then to come home in the evening to a child.
I love her so much, and I just want to enjoy time with her that I just try to be happy all over again, no matter how tired i am, just so she'll enjoy my company.
In the process, I tire myself out further.
Took me a while.... almost 6 weeks, to get my momentum back.
But, I'm getting there.....
Went to watch Harry Potter with Darling last weekend. Our first movie since Faith was born.
I can't express to you how guilty I felt during the movie. But, I know it was necessary. No matter how much we love her, we still need some alone couple time away from everything else...... I did enjoy myself though. Felt the movie was quite good... =)
Also went on a cruise on Friday.... it was my first Teacher's Day dinner.... Haha... It was fun... and it was on the ship that Darling and me had originally wanted to use for our wedding. As I was having my dinner, I was wondering how different the wedding dinner might have been if we'd stuck to the ship. It's a nice place to have a wedding, albeit a little rocky coz of the waves...
It was my first night away from Faith.... usually I'm always with her in the evenings.... So, it did feel extremely weird. I kept thinking of her in the beginning, but I guess that once everything really began, I managed to put her at the back of my mind, and just enjoy myself. I really did have some fun. =)
Going for the dinner, I'm simply thankful that I am where I am right now. This school is where I'd wanna remain....
10:24 PM
Life is Beautiful
I love you not only for what you are
but for what you make of me.
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